Chapter 7—The Diary of Sins 1
On September 1, 18, the summer make-up class ended and officially started, and many times we don't understand it, just like we don't understand the lifestyle of adults when we first enter society, we don't understand why difficulties always come in groups, I don't understand why some people like themselves, I don't understand why I like others, and I don't understand whether I really like the current object.
In school, some people feel comfortable having a partner and enjoy the fact that the people around them know that they have a girlfriend; Some people have been in the world alone for a long time, and they feel that they can chat with a person of the opposite sex for a long time at night, and finally happily send a 'good night' is really a color to the boring life.
Maybe you think that life is not boring, but being good all the time is actually boring, and boring is never a derogatory term in life.
One day I no longer have contact with the girl or boy I chatted with, there is not much sadness, but there is a sense of loss that I have not moved to the next step and lost more opportunities to change the boring, that is probably because I like to chat and the process does not have much feeling for people, or the purpose at the beginning is not love, but curiosity, curious about what will happen to the new order of life in this way.
There are also people who feel that youth needs a love affair to commemorate, and they are with whom for some reason; Some people are born with a sense of loneliness, yearning for someone to be able to talk to, yearning for a so-called home; Some people are together because of the unknown 'love', which is unreasonable, as if it was fate.
Growing up, entering society, all behaviors become serious, may be together for some reason, and may not know why they will live this life with the person around them, yes, there are several children, hormonal years have had excited sex, but after all, I don't understand why it's been like this for a lifetime, I don't understand what love is, I can't define it.
Aside from a few great scientists, a lifetime of honor and exploration can be recalled, even if lying on the rocking chair, it will take a lot of time to recall, what about ordinary people, if I can't define love, then my life is to work and reproduce, if I love her, then what is the reason?
The child has a lot of fun, he doesn't have to worry about food and clothing, his husband or wife is lying next to him knocking melon seeds or brushing his mobile phone, warm and beautiful, fight for a lifetime, work hard, and make this family happy, based on sex and selfless dedication to the family, is this love?
I don't know the answer. Maybe that's the answer. In that case, I shouldn't be a lover, but I don't think there's a strange feeling between me and her.
At this moment, when I think about it, I blush and smile. It seems like a long time later, and I seem to have this feeling after seeing her for the first time, isn't it really love?
Sexual thoughts never crossed my mind, and I asked myself countless times, and I was sure that from the day I met her I had lost any thoughts about sex, and found it frivolous and disgusting.
I think I will live with problems, and now I can have a natural dialogue with the people, I am very happy, the college entrance examination is also coming soon, and I have not missed the questions, I have nothing to worry about.
I just feel like I'm a little deformed. I don't understand. There is nothing to remember in life, that is, Haoning has eaten less recently, saying that his energy has recovered, and he will not need to eat anymore when he is fully recovered.
I think it's going to be fast.,Isn't it full of energy to just eat and not pull.,Hahaha.。。 17 years old, multiply