Chapter 227: Help Me Find Myself

"Qiao Ye, you're drunk." Gu Muyun's tone was still so light, as if Qiao Ye's words had not brought any waves in her heart.

But what the outside world can't see is that her heart has already been turbulent.

Qiao Ye grew up with her since she was a child, and it was easy and extraordinary, if it was said that his words could not bring any waves to her, it would be impossible.

Before, she never thought that Qiao Ye would like her. She thought it was just because she had a good relationship with their family, and the two were ordinary friends. And Qiao Ye is always against her, not at all like boys like girls, so ......

Now she's a little at a loss.

She knew she was like a deserter now. She couldn't face Qiao Ye's feelings for her, so she could only say that what he said was a lie and a lie, so as to deceive him and herself.

"I'm not drunk, Tiantian, if it wasn't for this brother's business this time, I don't know when I will be able to face up to my feelings for you." Qiao Ye obviously didn't say such a thing, a little embarrassed, stumbling, "But Tiantian, I've been with you for so long, you are such a good girl, how can I not like you?" ”

Qiao Ye said, stood up, and suddenly held Gu Muyun's hand, and a slightly confused look floated on her face: "I'm a coward, I only dare to say this to you after drinking alcohol, I'm a coward." But Tiantian, my feelings for you are real. ”

"Qiao Ye, I'm already married." Gu Muyun's voice trembled a little, but fortunately, Qiao Ye couldn't hear it at this time.

"I know, but Tiantian, do you really like Li Xiaoyang? You've been together for so long in college, so why didn't you get together sooner if you liked? Tiantian, are you forced to do this? ”

"But Qiao Ye, you should know, who else in this world can force me to do something I don't want to do?"

"Others can't, but he doesn't necessarily can't." Qiao Ye is still sane.

"Although Li Xiaoyang was an elder to me when I was a child, there was nothing oppressive. So I stayed with him and married him because I liked it. ”

This sentence seemed to be a sharp blade, which pierced directly into Qiao Ye's heart, making him feel pain at this moment.

"Like?"

What an indefinite word. When it came out of his mouth, it was rejected without hesitation, but when it came out of her mouth, it was with a thousand rounds of tenderness.

Do you really like it?

But he was so unwilling.

"I've been told that feelings can't be measured by time, but I didn't know it was true until it happened to me." Qiao Ye took another sip of wine, and then poured a glass for Gu Muyun, "Tiantian, accompany me for a drink, and by the way, tell me what you like about him." ”

Gu Muyun blinked and looked at the celadon wine cup in front of her. The color at the bottom of the cup is really clear, and it would be nice if people's hearts were like this.

Her feelings for Qiao Ye are very simple. But often the more innocent, the more hurtful.

"My parents used to tell me stories about their past. My mother's former suitor asked her a similar question, and my dad said that my mother said something that made him feel emotional. ”

"What did Aunt Lin say?"

"You're no worse than him, but you're not him."

Gu Muyun now remembers the look of satisfaction and relief when her father said this to herself. She knew that her mother's words at the beginning really touched her father.

Qiao Ye suddenly felt that his heart was sour, as if he had drunk a jar of aged vinegar that had been old for decades, from the bottom of his stomach to his heart, sour to bitter.

"I used to be obsessed with learning, making money, and improving myself. I used to position myself as the daughter of Gu Jingnian and Lin Xi, but Li Xiaoyang, in my four years of college, has been making me understand a truth. I was Gu Muyun first, and then my parents' daughter. ”

Qiao Ye's expression seemed to understand, as if he didn't understand what Gu Muyun meant.

Gu Muyun hooked her lips and smiled, took a sip of the white wine in the glass, and the sweetness of that moment turned to spicy, and then became a warm current that flowed into her body.

"Qiao Ye, think about it carefully, you have never been in contact with me before, have you never exceeded the rules. Even if you joke with me and go against me, you won't hit me or hurt me, no matter what you do, you're always in my interests, aren't you? ”

Qiao Ye nodded.

Since he was a child, he has been guided by his parents in this way.

Gu Muyun is the proud daughter of the sky, and she is the little girl that their parents like very much. Adults are obedient to her, so he is the same. Even if you joke with her, it's all on point.

But Li Xiaoyang is not like this. He was not only my college career, but also the biggest obstacle I have encountered in my more than 20 years of life. He would be strict with me, hit me, treat me like a normal student. He never cared about my parents, he only thought that I was Gu Muyun. ”

Qiao Ye looked at Gu Muyun, looking at her obviously empty, thinking about those times before.

"You don't know, all the frustrations I never experienced before were all encountered during my college years. What I wrote seriously was rejected by him, my work was criticized by him as useless, and even I, as a person, was pointed out by him with many shortcomings. I also secretly cried several times, but I was angry with him. Jiang Zhongyue also laughed at me for this, saying that I had masochistic tendencies. At the beginning, I scolded Li Xiaoyang so many times behind her back, but in the end, I was with others. Say I'm a duplicitous person. ”

Qiao Ye tugged at her lips, but she didn't say anything.

"Li Xiaoyang told me that I don't need to use the identity of the Gu family daughter to suppress myself all the time, and I don't need to make myself perfect in everything. I am Gu Muyun, an ordinary person, I have my personality, and I will make mistakes. Before, whenever I did something wrong, I would blame myself and feel guilty, and I would feel sorry for my parents. But now, I don't think so, I feel like I'm living a lot easier. ”

No wonder he felt that Gu Muyun was a little different from before. It turned out that she was able to find herself better.

But what made him feel sad was that all of this was brought by Li Xiaoyang.

How much he wished that this person was himself, in that way, he and Gu Muyun would not have the relationship they have now.

"Qiao Ye, you say, I have no reason not to like such a person."

Qiao Ye pursed her lips, didn't say a word, and looked at Gu Muyun quietly.

With a strong attack of alcohol, Gu Muyun's face was no longer clear, but he could still see the bright smile on her face. Bright gleathingβ€”that's only revealed when another man is mentioned.

"Sweet ......" Qiao Ye frowned and burped, "But I'm so ...... I'm so ......."

He didn't finish a word because......

He threw up.

I drank too much, vomited breathlessly, and was embarrassed.

Gu Muyun patted Qiao Ye on the back and handed him a glass of boiled water with one hand.

"I'll have someone pick you up." Gu Muyun said, "Don't drink it." ”

Qiao Ye vomited, and then he felt better, and his face was not as pale as just now.

He looked directly at Gu Muyun, his eyes were very bright, as if he was about to pierce people's hearts.

After a while, he suddenly said again: "Tiantian, you really don't like me." Otherwise, why don't you even feel a trace of embarrassment when you are looking at me like this? ”

"Don't be weak-minded, of course you don't need to dodge." Gu Muyun also looked back at Qiao Ye's eyes, "Don't waste time on me, Qiao Ye, it's fruitless." ”

Qiao Ye smiled gloomily: "You are really simply, you didn't give you a chance at all, and you were directly sentenced to death." ”

"I've never been used to the kind of behavior that doesn't like to hang people, so of course I won't be that kind of person." Gu Muyun called in the waiter, and after paying the bill, she helped Qiao Ye to the outside of the hotel and asked him to sober up.

"I'll call someone from the Dragon Gang to pick you up."

"Don't you want to send me a bit?"

Gu Muyun pointed his fingers: "It just so happened that Li Xiaoyang was in the parking lot, and I asked him to drive the car up." ”

Qiao Ye suddenly felt another churn in his chest, which made him even more uncomfortable.

"Forget it, you can call someone."

He didn't want to see Li Xiaoyang, especially when he was so embarrassed.

Gu Muyun dialed the phone, and then waited here for half an hour, and the man finally rushed over and helped Qiao Ye to the car.

When he got into the car, Qiao Ye's eyes were still staring at Gu Muyun, and it was very hot.

"Tut-tut, what a jealous look."

Gu Muyun turned her head to look, only to see Li Xiaoyang who didn't know when he appeared on the side, and was standing there, looking at him meaningfully.

"When did you come here?"

"It's been here a long time ago, but your attention isn't on me, you can't see me."

The words were sour, and Gu Muyun heard the vinegar inside.

She stood up and jumped in front of Li Xiaoyang: "Didn't you say that you were waiting for me below?" ”

"I'm worried that you haven't shown up for so long, so I'll come up. Knowing that Qiao Ye didn't want to see me at this time, he waited quietly on the side. This is still a bit complaining.

Gu Muyun knew that Li Xiaoyang was not angry, and it was rare to see him in such a coquettish tone, so she couldn't help but be a little cute.

So she stood on tiptoe and pinched Li Xiaoyang's face.

Gu Muyun's smiling appearance, with her long hair raised by the night wind, seemed to have light in her eyes, as bright as the stars in the sky.

Li Xiaoyang stretched out his hand and tugged on Gu Muyun's back directly.

Then he lowered his head and whispered in Gu Muyun's ear: "In the middle of the night, I have been alone with other men for a long time, you say, how do you want to compensate me?" ”