Chapter 17: Self-Salvation
When Xuan Ziyi told He Jing that the matter of renting the house was up to him and that she would live in the company dormitory, He Jing was a little angry. But what Xuan Ziyi said was: "We now want to save money from the society, and I will live in the company dormitory without transportation expenses." ”
"If that's the case, then I'll share a house with someone else, and when I buy a house, you can move back." He Jingyi thought that what Xuan Ziyi said also made sense.
"How much did you sell for your house?" Xuan Ziyi asked He Jing.
"More than four million, I want to spend two million to buy a small second-hand house, I'm looking around" He Jing did not give the money to Xuan Ziyi after selling the house, and kept the money after paying off the debt.
"Okay, you decide for yourself" Xuan Ziyi didn't want to be He Jing's master, she knew He Jing's personality too well after a year of married life. He Jingren is not bad, but he is definitely machismo, if it weren't forced by life, he would definitely not want Xuan Ziyi to work.
Xuan Ziyi doesn't want to be the head of the family, she just wants to be her own master. The flash marriage has derailed her life, and she just wants to get herself back on the right track.
What is on the right track, from the moment she left her hometown, she knew that as a human being, she had to have a choice, you can choose to work hard for prosperity, or you can choose to live a peaceful life and be comfortable. In short, the choice is in your own hands, not someone else's decision.
She has no choice to become a mother and a stepmother, and she doesn't blame He Jing for not confessing all this to her, but she feels that she hasn't confessed her past to He Jing either, so she doesn't care.
Xuan Ziyi wants to think about how to grasp the future, and as a mother, she thinks not only about herself, but also about her children. She gave He Jing time, she originally wanted to be a little woman and conform to the arrangement of fate. However, the failure of He Jing's career made her understand that she couldn't pin her fate on this man, especially He Jing's decadence and depression, alcoholism and gambling, which made Xuan Ziyi further see He Jing clearly, and also clearly understood that if she wanted to change her fate, she must bravely come out of the existing shackles of life.
Finding a job successfully allowed her to achieve the first step, followed by the second step of living separately. For her to fully regain herself, she must first get rid of this man. She wants to calm herself down, only in this way can she get back to her former self.
After Xie Dongli knew about Xuan Ziyi's situation, her perception of Xuan Ziyi had changed a little, and she was full of sympathy and understanding for her before. But since I knew that Xuan Ziyi's husband used to be an executive and started a business, I was thinking about what kind of girl Xuan Ziyi was. was more wary of her, Xuan Ziyi didn't notice this, she still went to and from work on time, and sometimes she would take the initiative to ask Xie Dongli after work: "Sister Xie, if you have any work that I need to do, or if there is anything in your family that needs my help, I can do it." Now that my children are not around, there is time. ”
"Thank you, I'll look for you when I need it" Xie Dongli rejected Xuan Ziyi's kindness, she didn't want to get too close to Xuan Ziyi.
When Xuan Ziyi got the official notice of regularization from the Human Resources Department, she immediately applied to live in the company's dormitory, which was quickly approved.
On the weekend, Xuan Ziyi went home to pack her things, and happened to explain things clearly with He Jing. He Jing also happened to sign an agreement to sell the house, because Xuan Ziyi said before that she would not rent a house with her, He Jing did not rent a house immediately, and originally planned to make a mobile breakfast point, but it was changed to rent a store and sell breakfast directly. happened to have money in hand, and he felt that it was better to do it seriously. rented a façade room of more than 30 square meters, and planned to live in a small room for himself in the future.
Seeing Xuan Ziyi go home to pack her things, when He Jing told Xuan Ziyi about her decision, Xuan Ziyi did not express any opinions, and when she no longer tied her fate to He Jing, she had a calm mood.
"You can decide for yourself, and hopefully you will succeed this time." Xuan Ziyi said to He Jing.
"Do you no longer believe me?" He Jing was a little at a loss for Xuan Ziyi's calmness. Men are wonderful species, he will be annoyed when his own women are too nervous about him, and he will have a sense of loss when his women are full of indifference to him.
"No, I just don't want to interfere with you." Xuan Ziyi replied lazily.
Xuan Ziyi has an innate aversion to gambling, probably because of her brother. From the day she knew He Jing had started gambling, she had the idea of breaking up with him at any time.
"I'll work hard and won't let you look down on me." He Jing was startled by himself when he said this.
"I don't look down on you, I hope you can look down on yourself." Xuan Ziyi stopped talking after speaking, she just looked at the blue sky outside the window, she really didn't look down on He Jing, she just felt that there was a ditch between them, an insurmountable ditch. The distance between the two men, which is seven years apart, straddles there.
"I love you," He Jing said this, hugging her from behind Xuan Ziyi. Xuan Ziyi trembled, she didn't know if she still loved him. She just had tears streaming down her face.
"I hope you cheer up again, for your Xiaoyuan, for Mengxuan," Xuan Ziyi said word by word.
"Why don't you say it's for you," He Jing asked puzzled.
"We are all individuals and we are responsible for ourselves. But children need us to be accountable to them. Xuan Ziyi turned her head and looked at He Jing face to face.
"You don't need me?" He Jing looked at Xuan Ziyi blankly, and he saw a strange light in Xuan Ziyi's eyes.
"Well, I'm an adult, and I should be responsible for myself," Xuan Ziyi said with a sense of urgency.
"Okay," He Jing lowered his hand weakly.
"When are you moving? I'll help you get your stuff to the dorm."
"I'll move after I've arranged it, the day after tomorrow. If you have something to do, you can go and be busy, I'll find a car by myself" Xuan Ziyi finished speaking, and began to pack his things.
"No matter how busy you are, I can help you move." He Jing knew that his alcoholism, gambling and quarrel with her a while ago made Xuan Ziyi disheartened. He thinks that only if he succeeds in his career can he save this relationship, and he still understands this truth.
Xuan Ziyi looked at the man in front of her, the man who had married her in a flash, and when he said this, Xuan Ziyi's heart was warm. At least this man is not for nothing.
"Thank you" Xuan Ziyi said these two words heartily, and she continued to pack her things.
"When are you going to hand over the house?" Xuan Ziyi expressed concern for her.
"I communicated with the buyer, and after about a month, I will hand over the house as soon as the loan money arrives." He Jing told the truth.
"Well, that's good, it's finally over." Xuan Ziyi was taking her own clothes from the closet when she said this.