Chapter 21: Examine the Self
[Tang Mingyao is a man with a gentle personality. 】
[In the office, he never gets angry at a colleague's jokes, even if some of them are really excessive.] When he had a work task, his colleague secretly threw the job to him, so that he had to work overtime to catch up with the task on the days when he could have left work on time, and he couldn't say no. 】
[After the thing is done, the leader is satisfied, and others have taken away the credit that belongs to him, he will not expose it in front of him because he is afraid of hurting the harmony, and will only think of some harmless ways to earn back the performance afterwards, if it really doesn't work, then forget it. 】
[If things are done badly and are scolded by the leader, then the responsibility is all his, Tang Mingyao will be depressed and complain, but it will be difficult to conflict head-on with others. 】
[At home, he will not contradict his parents, will not quarrel with his wife, will always have a kind face, and is a filial son and a model husband in the eyes of outsiders. 】
[Only Tang Mingyao himself knows, I don't know when he will no longer live for himself, his life is full of such as: down-to-earth employees, friendly colleagues, good family men...... None of such praise labels are what he really wants. 】
He was a sad good man. 】
[He wants to be "bad". 】
At this point in the article, Tang Mingyao stopped writing.
The person in the article is himself, a part of himself that he discovered after examining his heart.
Tang Mingyao felt that he was too tired in his previous life, and there were too many shackles in his life, which put on him layer by layer, making it difficult for him to walk.
After being reborn, things got a little better.
For example, when he introduced himself at the beginning of the school year, he would push back the laughter of his classmates; When the roommates asked about Luo Wenxi's situation, they refused to help with a clear attitude.
This is because of rebirth, the multiple identities in middle age have become simpler, the shackles are less, and a little self has been recovered; The second reason is that he is a mature soul in his bones after all, and in the face of the young people around him, he has a kind of psychological superiority, and he speaks a lot harder.
"We need to keep working hard!"
Tang Mingyao secretly cheered himself up.
Just as he was about to put away his writing notebook, Luo Wenxi came and saw the content on his notebook: "What is this?" You're writing...... Who is the person up there, yourself? ”
Tang Mingyao smiled: "My imaginary future self." In the future, if I live a bad life, maybe it will be like this. ”
"I don't know what you're thinking."
Luo Wenxi was not interested in the content of his writing, so he changed the topic after chatting a few words, "By the way, is today's breakfast delicious?" How about I bring you breakfast in the future? ”
"It's not good."
"It's nothing, I'm going to buy it every day anyway, so I'll just bring you one by the way."
Tang Mingyao felt that this was inappropriate, because he thought that the food in the cafeteria was actually quite delicious, and there was no need to buy "noble" milk bread, after all, the things that he would have been tired of eating in later generations were not uncommon in his eyes.
And he buys it like this every day, and he is not very acceptable in terms of price. To put it simply, it's too expensive.
But if he forcibly refuses, he is afraid of hurting Luo Wenxi's heart.
"Do I want to be myself? Say what's really going on in your heart? ”
"Yes!"
In just a moment, Tang Mingyao completed an examination of his heart, considered his rhetoric, and said, "I still won't trouble you." Don't be angry, first of all, I don't agree to your help because I don't have an opinion about you, I have my own reasons for doing this. ”
"First, the consumption of milk bread is too high for me. If I give you money, then I will have a pain in my flesh, and I will not be happy to eat it, so I might as well eat rice noodle buns and steamed buns. But if I don't give you money and let you invite me to breakfast every day, I will feel guilty and I won't know how to get along with you, and you will bring it for free every day, and you will have to post money backwards, and it will inevitably be a little complaining after a long time, which will affect our friendship with our classmates, so it is better not to buy it. ”
"This may seem like a good thing, but if it is done, it may turn into a bad thing. What do you think? ”
Luo Wenxi was a little unhappy, after all, his kindness was rejected.
It's just that Tang Mingyao's words were very clear, and she thought about it, so she nodded and said, "Okay~_~"
Tang Mingyao spoke again: "Actually, it's good to eat once in a while, if you don't bother, how about bringing it to me once a week in the future?" There is also a steamed bun shop in Dongmen Market, the fried steamed buns are delicious, you will pass by the neighborhood in the morning, if you have time to help bring it once in a while, I will think it is very good. ”
At this time, Luo Wenxi was happy and nodded in agreement.
At this moment, the head teacher Pu Jinyuan walked into the classroom, and the two hurriedly put their eyes back on the books, pretending to study seriously.
Tang Mingyao was wandering in his heart.
He was wondering if his way of dealing with it was appropriate, and after thinking for a few minutes, he felt that although he was acting like a straight man, this was indeed the best way for each other.
If he agrees against his will, there will be a greater hidden danger to the relationship between the two later.
It's better to make the problem clear in advance, it's best if Luo Wenxi can accept it, if he can't accept it, it can only mean that the radio waves of the two are not matched, so let yourself be a straight man all the time.
Evening self-study is very busy for others.
The teacher of each subject has assigned homework, and there are a lot of them, and the time after class is far from enough to finish it, so everyone will stay until the evening self-study and do it slowly.
But for Tang Mingyao, it's a little boring.
The first year of junior high school was too simple for him.
After class, the homework is completed with a little time, and there is a lot of free time for boredom in the evening self-study.
Today, Tang Mingyao didn't want to read "Song Ci", so he turned out the English book, was bored for a while, and finally thought of a good way to pass the time and learn at the same time - translating English textbooks.
Because this edition of the English textbook is aimed at first-year students who are beginners who are new to English, in addition to the content to be learned, such as the dialogue on each page, the letters of ABC and the phonetics, and other stems and text descriptions, there is a large area of Chinese description.
What Tang Mingyao has to do is to translate these Chinese into English.
This is a very good way to practice your English skills.
There are many places that can be used in the future, such as exam questions, if the question stem is in English, it will come in handy.
As soon as he said it, he immediately took out his pen and started seriously from the cover.
Then, where the first sentence needs to be translated, it gets stuck.
Textbooks for the three-year junior high school of nine-year compulsory education......
How do you translate this phrase?
Tang Mingyao sighed in his heart, sure enough, there is no end to learning, and he can't even translate the first year textbook. Before that, he was still complacent, thinking that what the teacher taught was too simple.
Mortified!
He intuitively felt that with his current level, he would probably not be able to pass the English level 4 test again when he went back to university.
This discovery did not make Tang Mingyao lose motivation, but aroused his fighting spirit.
He had to translate the book today.