Everything was like a dream to me.

I have been dreaming this dream for more than 20 years, and I have never woken up, and even now, I still think that I am in a dream.

From a very young age, when I couldn't remember my age or appearance at that time, I knew I was a motherless child.

At that time, I was still struggling bitterly in the red dust, my father was busy, my grandfather was busy, Uncle Li was busy, and no one picked me up after school, so every time I watched other classmates being picked up by my parents, only I didn't, I stood alone in the trend of school, watching the crowd around me gradually thinning out, watching other children being spoiled while being rhythmized by their parents, lonely as if they were outcasts of this world, and finally walked alone through the rugged dirt road and walked home by themselves. Whether it's snowing or raining, it's always been like this.

So, I couldn't help but wonder, what about my mother? Other people's fathers are busy, and mothers pick them up; Mom is busy, Dad picks up; However, why is it on me, every time my father is busy, no one answers?

Later, after reading Journey to the West, I once suspected that I was like a monkey, jumping out of the cracks in the stones, raised by other people's fathers and mothers, I was born to raise them, others had, I didn't, and I was destined to move forward alone in darkness and loneliness.

Every time, when I angrily questioned my father, the man who was a little fat and always silent would become even more reticent, and I was afraid of the silence of death, so I stopped asking, I frantically searched for traces of my mother, but unfortunately, I couldn't find it.

Later, when I studied biology, I knew that stones would not mate and could not give birth to me, and that I would be the same as other children, I must have a mother, and I must have a mother when I was born in this world, but I was abandoned, and that's it.

I've learned to stop asking her anymore, and I'm used to being alone.

Accustomed to loneliness...... What a sad five words?

However, after all, I still couldn't face the inner torture, and I clearly knew that I missed the woman I had never met.

Countless late nights, I secretly curled up in the quilt and practiced alone, practicing to shout "Mom", a word that was strange and familiar to me, and fantasizing that one day, if I could see her, I could blurt it out.

Maybe I've been fantasizing about this scene for so long that when it really happened, I couldn't tell whether it was reality or the dream I'd been repeating for more than twenty years, but...... The word "Mom", I shouted as a matter of course, as I expected, really blurted out, as if it was just an instinct that humans have had since they were born.

It wasn't until hot tears fell down my cheeks and I shivered uncontrollably that I finally woke up all at once, and this real touch told me that it was not a dream.

I looked up, my eyes clouded with tears, but I remained focused on the woman with her back to me.

At that time, I really saw that the body of the woman who was originally like a withered woman trembled violently in an instant, and even swayed from side to side, staggering......

And then...... She turned her head slowly.

She probably hadn't moved for a long, long time, so that when she turned her head, she moved very slowly, as if the bones of her neck were made of machinery, and it was slowly moving, and finally she turned her face.

Through a layer of ice, I couldn't see her face clearly, only a rough outline, but I could still see that she should be extremely beautiful, with a goose egg face, but unfortunately her facial features were hazy, and her dazzling white hair was messy and drooping, blocking half of her cheeks.

Only those eyes, so bright and amazing, seemed that the thick ice gate could not block her eyes.

I saw clearly what was contained in those eyes, there was sorrow, there was doubt......

At last, she stood up and walked slowly to the gate of ice, because she stood closer, I could see more clearly, she was indeed very beautiful, her facial features were very delicate, but her face was very pale, and there was a kind of sadness on her face that I felt distressed when I saw it, and when the dazzling white hair scattered on her cheeks, it gave her a feeling that I could not really describe in words.

She was looking at me, and at first, there was disbelief and doubt in her eyes, but gradually, her eyes softened, gentle as water, dripping, or should I say ...... Tear.

Clear tears, like beads with broken threads, fell from her eyes, she did not have an emotional breakdown like me, with a shallow smile on her face, the corners of her mouth were slightly hooked, very gentle, as if the edges and corners of her face were softened a lot, the despair and cold indifference piled up on her face fell apart a little bit, from beginning to end, she did not blink, nor did she raise her hand to wipe away her tears, just looked at me quietly, as if she was afraid of missing every second of time she could look at me.

Time, at this moment, seems to stand still.

She is a woman, but she is smiling, gentle as water, but she can hold everything; I'm a man, but I'm crying like a beast.

I think, at this time I must be ugly and hideous, twenty years of tears and grievances, as if to pour out all at once at this time, no woman has ever given me such a feeling, never a woman has made me feel so broad, I can enjoy my emotions.

Even if it's Mulan...... Haven't been, facing Mulan, more often than not, I'm down-to-earth, but it's not this feeling that can accommodate and wrap everything that I have.

After a long time, I don't know if it's ten minutes, or twenty minutes, or an hour, and I don't know how people can have so many tears that I can't spill out for so long, anyway, just when my throat was hoarse, she finally spoke, dressed in white and snowy, with white hair falling into the city, standing there quietly, with a gentle voice that seemed to soothe all the wounds in my heart, and said softly: "I know, you are my child, your eyebrows and eyes are exactly the same as when you were a child, like your father." , but you don't look like the Liu family at all, perhaps, you have the stubbornness of the Ge family in your bones, even when you fall to the ground, you don't want to let your appearance be touched by other surnames......

It's really like a dream, I want to go out, I can't get out, I didn't expect you to come to see me, I suddenly feel that there is no regret anymore, the suffering of the past 20 years, with your thoughts, it is worth ......"

As she spoke, she opened her arms to me through the ice gate, and whispered: "Come here, let Mom hug me, Mom misses you, thinks about it every day, thinks about it every night......

All of a sudden, I was devastated, and I went crazy.

For twenty years, the greatest desire completely controlled my heart at this time, and there was no one around me in my eyes, only the open arms that were open to me, and I almost rushed towards her with a crawl, and even ignored the ice door, so that finally "snapped" and crashed into the ice door, causing me to stumble and sit on the ground.

I didn't give up, whoever stands in my way is my enemy, even if it's the door.

So, I jumped up, the dragon power exploded, and frantically hammered the ice gate, blood and bones flew sideways, staining the ice gate red, but I didn't feel the pain, I also saw her talking anxiously inside, with distress on her face, but I couldn't hear her voice, only this door was left in my eyes, and there was only one thought in my mind - to smash it! Whatever stands in my way, destroy it!

"Wake me up!"

Suddenly, a loud roar exploded in my heart, shaking my head "buzzing", and the whole person instantly woke up, and then I heard Mo Ji say in my heart: "You calm down, you are already stunned!" ”

I was stunned, unwilling to look at the ice gate, through the ice gate, I saw her smile that made me feel distressed, she had distress in her eyes, but the smile was very satisfied, and whispered to me: "Don't fight, you can't break it, don't struggle, just let Mom watch, watch for a while, just a while, Mom will be satisfied." ”

My mind went blank, and I sat down with my head in my hands and the ice gate in some pain, and my heart was filled with a sense of powerlessness.

As a result, at this moment, Mo Ji suddenly said: "Don't give up, smear your blood on that door, I seem to know what this thing is!" ”

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