Chen Yan was in a trance, and said a lot of words upside down, and it took Li Youyi a long time to figure out the meaning of those words:

Wei Xue and I used to be fellow villagers, that is, in the same provincial capital, and we didn't know each other well for the first three years of college. Until last year's Drama Festival, according to the tradition, the academy still acted in the play "Romeo and Juliet", and she and I were in that play, so we became acquainted.

She was the hottest soprano in the courtyard at the time, playing the heroine Juliet, and I, the alto, was really unsteady in singing, and it took a lot of effort to grab a role - I played Prince Paris, who broke up Juliet.

Wei Xue became famous because of Juliet, and there were many people chasing her in the department, but she never took a fancy to anyone. The boys in our dormitory couldn't eat grapes, saying that grapes were sour, and privately saying that Wei Xue was wrapped up by the gold owner, so he didn't have a boyfriend.

I naturally don't believe this kind of thing, when I played Prince Paris, Wei Xue helped me correct my singing and memorize lines, enthusiastic and friendly, I really don't look like the kind of person they say.

Maybe she doesn't have a boyfriend just because she has a high vision. That's what I thought in my heart at the time, and I didn't have the idea of chasing her myself, I knew that I wanted everyone to be bad, and I couldn't afford such a beautiful girlfriend.

But the boys' private discussion was heard by Wei Xue, such a sour joke almost made Wei Xue angry. She heard that there were rumors that she was being packed, so she took a lighter on the spot and threw it at the boys, her nails were about to bleed, hysterical, like crazy.

Originally, those boys were at fault, and Wei Xue was a rising star in the department, and the counselor only criticized and educated both parties, and did not cause any big trouble.

The counselor asked the boys in our dormitory to send a representative to apologize, and no one wanted to do this kind of face-losing work, so it was natural to push it on me, who was not involved in the matter.

At that time, Wei Xue suffered from acute asthma because of this incident and went to the hospital. It may be a bit scum to say this, but deep down I really feel that it's just a joke, and Wei Xue is really making a fuss like this.

In the hospital, Wei Xue didn't give me a good look either, and threw all the fruits I brought to the ground. I was also angry at the time, thinking that she had to be unforgiving, and after a little argument with her, she became even more hysterical, almost trying to rush over and tear me apart.

Her father thought I was Wei Xue's boyfriend, probably because of his own daughter's strange temper, and said a few good words. I wanted to leave with my hands, but when I saw that Wei Xue's father was only in his forties, he was full of white hair and his back was very hunched, so I couldn't bear it.

In the evening, I was about to leave with an excuse, but Wei Xue's father suddenly received a phone call saying that her mother had let a Tibetan mastiff bite her, and she had to go back to get vaccinated quickly. Her father left in a hurry and asked me to take care of Wei Xue temporarily before leaving.

Now there were only two people left in the ward, Wei Xue and me, she still ignored me, didn't eat the dinner sent by the nurse, curled up in the bed and didn't move.

After this turmoil, her image of the perfect goddess in my mind has completely collapsed, and I am really aggrieved and embarrassed to sit there, but her father has not come back, and I dare not leave.

In the middle of the night, I tilted my head and took a nap on the sofa, and I didn't know how long I squinted in a daze, when I suddenly felt someone staring at him.

That kind of stare almost seeped into the cracks of the bones, and it was hairy. When I opened my eyes, I saw Wei Xue standing motionless in front of me in the dark, tears already flowing into a small depression under my feet.

I was startled, and I only watched Wei Xue kneel down and say to me almost in despair: Am I dirty?

I was stunned. Just a few words dissolved all the anger I had been building up for a long time.

That night we were together, and she, Wei Xue, was back to my goddess.

Soon after we got together, I understood why Wei Xue was so excited when others said that she was being packed, and why she said that she was dirty, it was because she had a special disease, which was called emotional cleanliness.

I checked the Baidu entry, emotional cleanliness, which refers to not being able to tolerate a little emotional impurity of the other party, both physically and mentally. For example, men can't see women with other men, and women can't see men with other women.

Once there is an abnormal state of "emotional uncleanness", it will leave a huge psychological shadow due to strong disappointment, and it will be impossible to extricate itself.

Wei Xue is a patient with a heavy emotional cleanliness fetish, and at the same time a cleanliness patient, in her eyes, as long as a boy or girl has a little contact with the opposite sex, then this person is unclean. She couldn't find a boyfriend for so many years because they had a more or less relationship history.

I thought it was just a harsh quirk, but then I found out that it was a disease.

She would have a nervous breakdown because of the little girly perfume smell on me, and she would jump off a building because I was late for a date. I was forced to delete all my classmates of the opposite sex in my circle of friends, and I didn't even dare to take elective classes from female teachers. For a while, I was really bored.

Everyone said that I picked up a big beautiful woman as my girlfriend and poured shit luck. But how did they know that the relationship between me and her was completely deformed. She never allowed me to kiss her, not even the slightest skin-to-skin contact. If she does, she'll bathe over and over again until her skin starts to peel.

She tied me to her and wouldn't let me touch her, and I was fed up with this life. Just when I was about to mention breaking up, his dad called me over and talked to me all night, and I hesitated again.

Wei Xue's whole life was ruined because of that incident, whether it was physical cleanliness or emotional cleanliness, it was at that time that she suffered from it, and it accompanied her for the rest of her life.

After listening to it, I said goodbye to Wei Xue's father, and when I went out, I gave myself a hard left hook. I scolded myself for being really not human, I just thought about my freedom, but I didn't realize how miserable Wei Xue was.

That day was the first snow of the year, and Wei Xue was wearing a white down jacket and a velvet scarf, standing in the heavy snow waiting for me. Her face was red and purple from the cold, and this stupid girl, when she heard from her father that I was going to break up with her, thought that I thought she was unclean, and actually ran into the snow to wash her face, thinking that this would cleanse her soul.

I hugged her as she was about to freeze into an iceman, the snowflakes on her eyelashes shining brightly under the street lamp, like an angel who had fallen into the mortal world.

And at that moment, I believed that she was an angel.

After that, we were really together, both physically and spiritually.

I tried to cure her of her emotional cleanliness and to bring her out of the shadows. But the process inevitably brought her back to that dirty past, and I didn't want to make her miserable, so I gave up.

I lived happily with her for a while, and during that time, she seemed to have begun to abandon her prejudices and gradually become accustomed to skin-to-skin contact with others. I'm really happy that I'm getting deeper and deeper into this relationship, and I even want to marry her after graduation to make up for the time I missed.

However, the happiness bubble soon became disillusioned.

The cause was not some abrupt fatal blow, but just a small quarrel between us. I sometimes think that Wei Xue is a bit like Lin Daiyu, crying, sentimental, and nervous breakdown. When she found out that I had an ex-girlfriend, she ignored me for three days.

Who doesn't have an ex these days? I was angry with her and didn't take the initiative to make peace, and after a few days, she actually took the initiative to contact me, and the first sentence that came up was:

Let's break up.

No, that's the last sentence too.

Wei Xue disappeared after sending me this text message, and her parents couldn't find her. I regret it so much that the roots of my teeth itch, I hate why I am angry with her, why can't I bear it, now she runs away from home, if something happens, it's all my fault!

Her classmates said that before Wei Xue left that afternoon, she dressed up beautifully and sprayed perfume, looking very happy.

I called her phone, and her phone was already showing that it couldn't be reached. The police said that Wei Xue was using a second-hand mobile phone, and it was impossible to locate Wei Xue's location through the mobile phone.

Wei Xue has been like a family evaporating since then, her father was paralyzed in the middle of his body because of her disappearance, and her mother died of a recurrence of rabies. The police suspected that Wei Xue had been emotionally unstable and may have suicidal tendencies.

said that Wei Xue committed suicide, I can't believe it, and I don't want to believe it! I really regret it, I know that Wei Xue has a heavy emotional cleanliness habit and still gamble with her, if I can't see her in this life, it will be my irreparable regret!

Since then, there is only one thing left for the rest of my life, and that is to find Wei Xue.