Chapter 218: Righteousness
Xiao Yu was so calm when he said these words, and the silence was a little scary.
"Are you...... When did you find out? Jingchen couldn't believe that what he thought might destroy all the feelings between him and Xiao Yu had already been known to Xiao Yu earlier.
"You go, don't ...... Regret. Xiao Yu kept silent, but he was very disappointed with Jingchen.
Why didn't Xiao Yu remember what Jingchen had done for herself? But it was precisely because I remembered that Jingchen left himself behind at this time that he felt even more sad.
Everything Jingchen did for himself, Xiao Yu remembered it clearly, and Xiao Yu didn't dare to forget, because Xiao Yu knew how hard-won it was to get Jingchen's love.
In the eyes of others, he may be a rare treasure, but in the eyes of Jingchen, he is just a speck of dust.
Jingchen cares about his future and doesn't help Xiao Yu, Xiao Yu won't blame him, because Xiao Yu loves him, so even if he subverts the world, Xiao Yu will still forgive him.
But what really stings Xiao Yu is still Jingchen's sentence "A demon is a demon after all", Xiao Yu is unwilling to live with such an inferior identity no matter how he is.
I don't want to be humble in front of Jingchen without any dignity, Xiao Yu loves Jingchen, but when she found out that Jingchen didn't do her best to love her, Xiao Yu's heart hurts, Xiao Yu doesn't blame Jingchen for leaving herself at this time, it's just blame, she didn't let Jingchen love herself to the bone......
Xiao Yu choked up, and his voice was so miserable and complaining, "God, what does your righteousness have to do with me?" What is wrong with you caring about the world and hindering me, it's just blame, we fall in love with ourselves who are too hasty......"
Jingchen turned around, tears dripping down the ice and snow, and slowly left the Ice Prison......
The cold wind swept through Xiao Yu again and again, and the subtlety of the Ice Hellery was that it could make the sinners feel as if they were really in the ice and snow, even if they had deep cultivation, no matter how thick the fur was, the gusts of cold wind could still blow through Xiao Yu's skin, wantonly stinging Xiao Yu's body.
Originally, before the arrival of Jingchen today, Xiao Yu endured the pain, next to it, and stayed up, just waiting for Jingchen to come to save him, even if it was just to look at himself, but now, the arrival of Jingchen made Xiao Yu very disappointed.
It's no wonder that Jingchen knows himself too well, and he knows which sentence can really sting Xiao Yu and make Xiao Yu's heart like ashes.
Xiao Yu clasped the snow on the ice platform with both hands on the ice platform, and the energy that kept surging along the iron chain had already made Xiao Yu numb in pain, and it was Jingchen's words that completely stung him, making him instantly fresh from the numbness.
In the eyes of others, Jingchen really loves Xiao Yu meticulously, and it seems that in the eyes of others, Jingchen has never regarded Xiao Yu as an object like what Xiao Yu said.
But only Xiao Yu can feel that Jingchen is making choices all the time, and Jingchen is secretly worried about his future all the time.
Xiao Yu can feel that from the moment Jingchen falls in love with him, every time Jingchen approaches, he is making a choice.
Because every time Jingchen approaches, he has to choose one of them from the future and Xiao Yu, which is undoubtedly cruel, but there is no doubt about it.
It seems that Jingchen had a premonition that the Emperor of Heaven would not leave Xiao Yu.
Xiao Yu is a demon after all, even if Xiao Yu has the qualification of a stepgod? Even if there were few gods, the Emperor didn't want to waste time on Xiao Yu.
Perhaps at first, the Emperor of Heaven ignored the opposition of the immortals and insisted on keeping Xiao Yu, but it was just to make up for the temporary vacancy in the fairy world, and at that time, everyone was talking about the gods and Konghou, I am afraid that Xiao Yu was just the next policy made by the Emperor of Heaven at that time in order to stabilize the immortals.
Now that I think about it, it's a little ridiculous......
Xiao Yu can feel Jingchen's hesitation, but in front of Jingchen, Xiao Yu can ignore it, she no longer reminds herself all the time that even if Jingchen is unwilling to leave everything and love her, she must not waver.
The nine-tailed fox clan only loves one person in their lives, the nine-tailed fox is noble, unlike other fox clans who are good at playing with men in the palm of their hands, the nine-tailed fox clan does not like it, and they don't bother to do it.
However, the nine-tailed fox clan is also a place where infatuated people often come out.
Xiao Yu is the best example, she loves to be so humble, even if she knows that Jingchen is about to leave, she pretends to be completely ignorant.
In Xiao Yu's heart, as long as Jingchen is by his side, he is very satisfied.
Xiao Yu can even let go of the blood feud for Jingchen and let go of all kinds of fetters in the world.
Each of these pieces is enough to destroy Jingchen's position in Xiao Yu's heart, but Xiao Yu has never wavered.
Xiao Yu has survived in the fairy world since she can remember, Xiao Yu can use this as an excuse to forget the blood feud of the fox clan, she is a demon, and people have to live for only a few decades, and she can also use this as an excuse to forget Yu Mo's kindness to herself.
Xiao Yu is kind, her mind is purer than anyone else, but the more this is the case, the more Xiao Yu will be hurt.
Every time she is devastated and full of holes, as long as she sees Jingchen by her side and accompanies her wholeheartedly, Xiao Yu is happy.
Love can really heal pain, but it can also make a person stupid, Xiao Yu is so smart, Xiao Yu sees every move of Jingchen in her eyes, and she knows what Jingchen means or what her intentions are, but she doesn't say it.
She was willing to resist all the stinging from hatred and the condemnation in her heart, and she didn't want Jingchen to know that she had already seen through Jingchen's facts.
Xiao Yu is not a fool, but he is hopelessly stupid when he falls in love with Jingchen and himself, but all of this is Xiao Yu's willingness......
Over the years, Xiao Yu has gone from not asking about the world to going deep into the world, how much has she experienced, and how much has Jingchen accompanied her by Xiao Yu's side?
At first, Xiao Yu felt that there was only one person in the world, and then the two entered the mortal world together, and Xiao Yu knew that there were so many people in this huge world.
When Xiao Yu overheard that these people were the people Jingchen wanted to protect, Xiao Yu left all his immaturity behind and held a sword to defend the world for Jingchen who fell into the mortal dust.
No matter how painful and tired he was, he thought that Jingchen would be happy when he saw it, so Xiao Yu was willing to do it for him, even happier than Jingchen.
When she saw that Jingchen was only gentle to herself, Xiao Yu was overjoyed and overflowing with joy, but she didn't dare to say anything, she was afraid that Jingchen's concerns would flood the fairy world because of herself.
Although she is a demon, she is not bad, she should be treated well by everyone in the fairy world.
But she never cared, because as long as the fairy world accepted her relationship with Jingchen, she was willing to believe that those who discriminated against the demon world were kind.
She is also a little girl, she also wants to hold Jingchen's arm all day long and swagger around, she doesn't want to be the red face and trouble in other people's mouths, what she wants to do is only to become someone Jingchen can rely on.
Xiao Yu wants to use his own strength to change the prejudice against demons in the fairy world, but ...... She gradually realized that she couldn't do it, Xiao Yu had no righteousness in her chest, so Xiao Yu still gave up this idea, she just wanted to protect Jingchen alone unharmed, and she was satisfied.
Because of Jingchen, Xiao Yu tried her best to suppress the demonic qi every day, and the black mark on her forehead became more and more profound, but she would rather be in pain than cause trouble to Jingchen.
You must know that Xiao Yu is the first person who can suppress the demon with love, and even the Stygian Butterfly at that time finally chose to end the demon by burning and unable to control himself.
Xiao Yu's love for Jingchen has gone deep into the bone marrow, but no one in the world knows that Xiao Yu carries much more than Jingchen.
She is burdened with the blood and hatred of the race, she is burdened with the fetters of the human world, she is burdened with the world's love for her, and she is even more burdened with the so-called righteousness of the fairy world.
She endured too much, but all of this was just to stay by Jingchen's side.
In fact, Xiao Yu's wishes are so many, Jingchen, Jingchen, in addition to Jingchen, it is still Jingchen......
Jingchen only knew that Xiao Yu loved himself very much, but he didn't know that Xiao Yu loved himself the most......
Xiao Yu hated Jingchen for failing him, but when he thought about it, there was nothing wrong with Jingchen, he had always begged Jingchen to give him some love, and it was he who made it so important to see the love in Jingchen's mouth, until now, Xiao Yu is still excusing Jingchen in his heart.
Yes, even if Jingchen killed himself with his own hands, Xiao Yu would probably tell himself that Jingchen did this time because he was guarding the unattainable righteousness......
Xiao Yu has always thought of an excuse for Jingchen in his heart, but who knows how many things Jingchen has done in Xiao Yu's heart that seem to be imperceptible, but are actually as transparent as a mirror in Xiao Yu's heart?
But all of this, as long as it is based on Jingchen's love for Xiao Yu, even if Xiao Yu is allowed to commit suicide in front of Jingchen, Xiao Yu is willing.
The love between Jingchen and Xiao Yu seems to be ordinary, and it seems to be unswerving until death, but Xiao Yu is forbearing.
Xiao Yu always thought of a rhetoric for Jingchen, which was a rhetoric to persuade her own and persuade herself not to be angry......
Actually, if you want to be really angry, there is only the one time when Yinchai is angry.
That time, Xiao Yu was really scared, because in the past, Jingchen only secretly stayed away from Xiao Yu, but this time, he directly turned Xiao Yu away, even if Xiao Yu was drenched by the rain, the door was still not opened for a long time.
Perhaps, even Jingchen himself feels that he has loved Xiao Yu to the point of deep bone marrow, but from beginning to end, Xiao Yu is the only one who has done his best.
But despite this, Xiao Yu can still infinitely magnify everything Jingchen does for himself, and then burn it deeply in his bones, and then tell himself, why does Jingchen love himself so much?
This is nothing more than another kind of self-deception, but this self-deception is mysterious, and even Jingchen believes that he loves Xiao Yu to death, deep into the bone marrow.
Jingchen has indeed done a lot of things that make others think that he loves Xiao Yu so much that he can sacrifice everything, but the real choice in Jingchen's heart is only known to Jingchen himself.
It wasn't until today that Jingchen understood from Xiao Yu's emotional and humble words how vulnerable his feelings for Xiao Yu were.
Jingchen originally thought that he had no intention of being tied to the righteousness of the world, and Jingchen originally thought that he would not sacrifice Xiao Yu because of the people of the world who had nothing to do with him.
But Jingchen was wrong, the righteousness of the world seemed to be more important than Xiao Yu in his heart.
Thinking of this, Jingchen's guilt for Xiao Yu arose, but unfortunately, Xiao Yu would never know that his words really made Jingchen understand Jingchen's misunderstanding of his relationship with himself over the years.
But Jingchen Xiaoyu is undoubtedly in love, but the only difference is that Xiaoyu chose to leave everything in the world in exchange for his love for Jingchen, while Jingchen chose to regard the world as more important.
But Jingchen has never owed Xiao Yu, he has never done anything against his will, everything he does for Xiao Yu is can't help it, true feelings, so, in love with Xiao Yu, Jingchen has a clear conscience, if he really wants to feel guilty, it is between the fairy and the demon, he hesitated......