I came to the TV station at the agreed time according to Director Ye, he put the contract in front of me, this is a reality show program planning plan and my role, I was flipping through it, Director Ye said, "4 episodes of recording per month, basically one, two, three per week, the cost of one phase is 10,000, this money does not include the installation fee, if you travel, the group will arrange it uniformly, and the accommodation and staff will be a standard." ”

I looked at the key terms of the contract description, in addition to the filming time, I can have my own job, I just need to do a good job of confidentiality, the contract is very simple, but it is very detailed, I gave Director Ye an affirmative reply, "I have no problem." ”

"Now the show is in the planning period, and I will notify you when the recording starts."

I signed a contract and shook hands with Director Ye, although I hate anyone's touch, but this kind of handshake that has something to do with etiquette, I still endure, Director Ye is very polite and gentlemanly, I left his office after we talked, on the way back, I called my psychiatrist Tan He, and when he asked me why I hadn't been to the doctor for so long, I excused myself and said that I had been very busy recently.

I asked if I could go over now, and he said yes.

After I came back from South Korea, I hated all the touches, all the contacts related to my body, and all those memories came from the strength of being trapped in the room by Xue Zikun for a day and a night. Insulting, he used all his tricks to make what should have been a pleasure become like purgatory.......

"Midsummer, how are you doing?" Tan He asked me to lie relaxed on the bed, and asked in a low voice, "Close your eyes, you are now in front of you an endless grassland, midsummer, this grassland is yours, you can do whatever you want, you are free, you are unfettered, you can embrace nature, you can do everything you want......."

I really closed my eyes as Tan He said, I knew that this was a deep hypnotherapy, and he wanted to eliminate my resistance and fear of others, but I'm sorry, he didn't succeed once.

Because in addition to the grassland, there are dark clouds on the horizon that are pressing against me, dark clouds are intertwined, lightning and thunder are roaring, I am alone on the grassland and have nowhere to hide, I am afraid, I run desperately, there is a fire in the distance, I .....

"Ahh I sat up with a sigh of surprise, gasping for breath, pressing my hands on my chest, all my hearts were condensed on one point, my eyes widened, Tan He said helplessly on the side, "Midsummer, why do you always live in an unknown timidity?" ”

That unknown timidity? I couldn't get around in my head what Tan He said, I felt like I was about to suffocate, Tan He handed me a glass of water, "The hypnosis I said has never succeeded, because in your heart, there is a hard wall, you lock yourself in it, no matter how I guide you, you don't react." ”

I held a glass of water and drank it to calm me down a bit.

"Thank you, Tan He, maybe all this is my own problem, I don't know what's wrong with myself, I ......" I held my forehead, and the scene of Xue Zikun's violence against me appeared in my head, and all my hopes were extinguished....... I was irritable, "Can I smoke a cigarette?" ”