I am Zhong Jingyu, when I was 17 years old, I entered the palace and became the prince's side concubine.

I didn't enter the palace to gain favor, not to consolidate my mother's power in the court, I came to the palace just so that my grandfather could come back from the border of the north earlier.

And I never thought that my temperament would be favored when I entered the palace.

Because I am different from ordinary ladies, I was born in a military general's family, and since I was a child, I began to dance guns and sticks, what poems, calligraphy, calligraphy and paintings, singing, dancing and music, knitting female red, I don't know anything.

Every time I go out with my mother, I don't like to play with those little girls who are delicate and cry when they touch them, I have always been alone, and I can swing a stick for a long time when I find a place.

These ladies in the capital don't like to play with me, and they even give me the nickname Barbarian in private, they think I don't know, but in fact I already know.

Naturally, in this way, I disdain to play with these delicate young ladies even more.

My grandfather rarely returned to Beijing at the border for decades, and now that he is old, his body can't bear it over there, and my father asked me to come into the palace, just to let me talk in front of the prince, and try to let my grandfather come back from the border as soon as possible.

After all, if you want to become the prince's pillow person, blowing the pillow wind casually, it will be much faster than your father's folding.

When I didn't enter the palace, I heard that there was a very favored lady in the palace, who suppressed the limelight of the crown princess.

I heard that when the prince went to the northwest to suppress bandits, this lady was serving by her side, day and night. Their relationship was so good that they gave birth to Princess Xiangxiang within a few months of returning to the palace.

I also heard that the crown princess hated her to the core, but she was helpless.

I don't want to enter the palace, I want to find an ordinary man to marry, but in life, nine times out of ten, things are unsatisfactory.

I have a daughter's family, and the marriage is naturally the order of the parents, and the matchmaker has no room for me to speak, and I have nothing to say, because I don't have a match for this man in the capital.

That's how I entered the palace.

The palace is different from the family, there are many rules, there are many people, there are many maids, there are many women, there are many things, and there are many natural things.

There are two others who entered the palace with me, one is Luo Yiwen, and the other is Wang Xinrui, these two delicate girls squeezed me, a barbarian, out of their camp at the beginning, but I don't bother to participate in their camp, I am at ease alone, anyway, I didn't come to the palace to win the favor of the prince, I have my mission.

The first time I saw the prince was at the reception banquet held by the princess for us, several women sat together, only the prince was a man, it was naturally a clear gun and a hidden arrow, you come and go, it is a wonderful one, I will drink a little wine while watching the big show, so uncomfortable.

At the first glance of the prince, I didn't have any special feelings, but I just looked at this man who looked good, and it was just pleasing to the eye, and I didn't like it much.

I also met the most favored lady at this banquet, the righteous daughter of the Tian family.

In terms of appearance, she is not as good-looking as the bright and moving princess, and if she is gentle, she is not as delicate and lovely as the princess's sister Wang Xinrulai.

In short, she is a woman who has neither outstanding merits nor is she particularly mediocre.

But her smile looks very comfortable, at least, it's not like those who laugh with a fake face, I think this Tian Jinyu is easier to get along with than the others.

Wang Xinrui and Luo Yiwen went up to perform their talents one by one, I looked at their smug appearance, I really wanted to sneer twice, I didn't see that the prince's eyes were on Tian Jinyu's body, and he was still scratching his head like this, it was really embarrassing!

Maybe I'm jealous of others in my heart, people look beautiful and dance well, so I can't help but be a little envious!

The crown prince drank two glasses of wine and sat down beside Tian Jinyu, the princess's eyes seemed to be on fire, obviously enduring the anger in her stomach, but she didn't dare to say anything, she endured it stubbornly.

The atmosphere at this banquet was extremely weird, and it wasn't until the prince left with his arms that these women sighed in frustration.

I don't get along with them, even if we go to the garden on weekdays, we go our separate ways, and when I see them, they roll their eyes at me, and I roll their eyes at them, and no one wants to deal with anyone.

We haven't slept yet, and there are very few opportunities to see the crown prince, and every time we see it, we take a look at it from a distance, and there is no chance to come forward to speak, but the two of us are in a hurry, especially the princess's sister Wang Xinrui.

It is said that she was allowed to enter the palace to give birth to a child for the crown princess, who told the princess to be unfavored and live a widowhood all day long?

I heard that Tian Jinyu can shoot arrows, so I took the time to go to her yard for a walk, and the two of us said a few words, and she is really easy to get along with.

It's not at all like the rumored look, arrogant and domineering when you are favored.

I went to her yard more and more, and occasionally I could see the prince in her yard.

But when I see the prince coming, I will leave immediately, so that Tian Jinyu thinks that I am here to compete with her, then it is not good, it is not easy to find a person who can say two words in this palace, but it can't be ruined like this for a man.

The prince has never looked at me more, as long as Tian Jinyu is there, his eyes follow that woman, even if other women are more beautiful than immortals, they can't get the slightest attention from him.

It's not long before the Chinese New Year, and I'm a little anxious, I want my grandfather to come back early for the New Year, but the prince doesn't announce that I will be bed.

I planned to ask Tian Jinyu to help me say good things to the prince, but I didn't have time to bring it up, she was actually imprisoned in the cold palace, I think it's very inexplicable.

Hasn't she always been favored? How could he be locked up in the cold palace for no reason? Moreover, the rumors in the palace don't even have a serious reason, it's all messy nonsense, which is useless at all.

Just when I was lost, an old man came to check my pulse, and when it was over, he actually told me to prepare for bed, and I was stunned, what happened?

Tian Jinyu has just entered the cold palace, and she actually has to arrange a bed here, which is too weird?

But the prince is coming in the evening, and I don't have the time to think about anything else......

It's dusk, and my mission is about to begin.

The maids prepared the bath water, and I soaked in the warm water, which was fragrant, and my body was washed clean from top to bottom, and then I put on a light gauze dress.

Even though I am thick-skinned enough on weekdays, I don't feel any shyness about these things in the cave room, but at this moment, looking at the way I am dressing, I can't help but blush, and I ran to the cabinet and pulled a coat on it.

I was nervous and nervous about tonight, but I was also inexplicably looking forward to it.

After a long time, I ate a little bit of food, and I had no appetite, because I was too nervous, and I was really not afraid at first, but as it got darker and darker, and the time for the prince to come became shorter and shorter, I was so nervous that I didn't know what to do.

I sat on the edge of the bed and waited for a long time, looking at the red candle, and I shed many tears, only to hear a shout from the door, he is coming......

He's really coming......

I was nervous for a moment and didn't know what to do, knowing that I should go out to meet him, and hurriedly got up to go out, and as soon as I opened the beaded curtain, his footsteps had already stepped in.

I glanced at him through the bead curtain, and I could see that he was not in a good mood, and I knew in my heart, I was afraid that it was because Tian Jinyu entered the cold palace, so he was unhappy, at that moment, I admitted that my heart hurt.

This man is coming to have sex with me, and I want to pass on his ancestry, but his people are here with me, and his heart is floating elsewhere, so I endured the sourness in my heart and stepped forward.

Not only was his face very cold, but there was a coldness all over his body, so cold that I wanted to tremble, and I didn't know if I was afraid, or what?

He walked to the bedside with a cold face and said, "It's late at night, it's time to go to bed." ”

At that moment, I wanted to shed tears, looking at his cold face, I really wanted to go out of the door, but I knew, I couldn't, because I still had to let my grandfather come back earlier, I couldn't offend the man in front of me, I had to follow him.

Tonight is the best opportunity, before the round house, I begged him to let my grandfather return to Beijing earlier, and he also promised me, only to tell me to be in this palace in peace, and not to make trouble.

I told myself from the moment I entered the palace that so many women in the palace were vying for a man, and I had to guard my heart and not get lost.

I know that he is full of Tian Jinyu, I don't expect to be favored by him, nor do I expect to be able to cross Tian Jinyu, but when I look up at her indifferent eyes, my eyes are still sour.

The candles in the house were blown out by me one by one, remembering that the girls said that they should leave two candles to burn until dawn, representing the old age, I trembled in my heart, told myself that I should not have extravagant hopes, and the two candles were also blown out, and the room was dark.

I came to the bed by the faint light cast by the window, and lay down nervously.

At the end of the day, he pulled away and left.

I watched his back as he left, and finally laughed and cried, and he just unbuttoned his robe the whole time......

How sloppy, how careless, what a dispensable one, and that's it.

Even if I am usually tough, I will inevitably cry fragile at this moment, I am just a woman after all, even if I pretend to be strong, pretend not to be afraid, pretend not to care, but I can't resist my husband's indifferent treatment, my heart is painful, and the pain is bloody......