193. Heart-to-heart talk
It was late at night when Ling Yun returned to Yonghe Hall from Hede Palace, Li Muyun's situation has been very unoptimistic, she had a miscarriage and vomited blood, and she was about to hollow out her whole body, although she could barely say a few words now, she didn't know how it would develop in the future.
The night was as refreshing as cold water, Ling Yun couldn't help but pull his cloak to cover his arms, so far, this was the first time he felt that this emperor was indeed not so good as he imagined, and it was also the first time that he felt inexplicably helpless about those concubines in the harem.
How could he not know about Li Muyun's selfishness in this miscarriage. It's just that he can't complain, because he didn't face up to the delicate relationship between the emperor and queen from the beginning, and now he only hates.
Walking to the door of the dormitory, everyone greeted in unison, breaking the silence along the way. raised his eyes, looking for her figure in the crowd, and ignored the strange eyes of the other palace people, and resolutely led her into the threshold of the dormitory.
Hands and hands were tightly pressed together, Su Jinyu frowned and stared at Ling Yun's side face suspiciously, her hands were about to lose consciousness, and a few traces of sadness flashed in her eyes. She knew that he must feel uncomfortable, after all, it was his child, and it was gone, how could he easily let it go.
Serving him, he took off his weather-stained cloak, gasped a few times, and said softly, "There will still be children, the emperor and the mother are still so young, and they will be children in the future." ”
The queen's miscarriage, she also heard several palace people mention it, saying that when the imperial doctor arrived, there was no way to return to heaven. This is his first time as a father, but it is so short and sad. Su Jinyu looked at his back, reached out and gently brushed his back, these sadness always have to pass.
Ling Yun looked up to the sky and sighed, turned around and took Su Jinyu's hand, rubbed it a few times, walked in front of her as if he was a little sad, and stretched out his arms to encircle her in his arms.
These days, I'm glad to have her by my side.
He didn't know what to say to her, and he rarely mentioned the things between the harem concubines in front of her. However, since Ji Qiu left, although the two of them have been reconciled as before, they have become less and less talkative to each other.
Smelling the faint fragrance on her body, he couldn't help but slowly close his eyes.
The next morning, the gray sky drifted up as thin as a cow's hair, swept through the snow accumulated in the previous days, and slowly turned into a pool of water.
From a distance, it looks like it's raining heavily.
The snow melted, and the temperature was a little colder. The palace people walking on the palace road were also cold and rubbed their hands and stomped their feet, for fear that they would freeze if they were half a step late.
Su Jinyu and Tingxue have agreed on three chapters, and no one will bother anyone, but serving is like drawing lots, the short one is to serve the court in the morning, and the long one is to serve the one who goes to bed at night.
I don't know if it's God's favor, Su Jinyu, who has been pumping short branches for days, always draws back the long branches. When Tingxue came back to change her clothes, Su Jinyu was gone, and even the bed was neatly tied.
I asked a few palace people in the courtyard, but no one knew where she went, and those who saw her only said that she looked hurried as if she had something important.
After listening to Xuexue's analysis for a while, she thought that it would not be a big problem, so she didn't go to her heart and went back to her room.
Outside the Yinghua Palace, Su Jinyu knelt on the hard and cold blue masonry, looking at the several Buddha statues enshrined in the hall with a solemn face.
She was not qualified to step into this palace, and she begged for a while before she was willing to let her pay homage here.
She couldn't find any feelings except the cold, except for the only thought left in her heart.
After Ji Qiu left, this cruel deep palace took away another little life. She didn't know why good things could never stay in this earthly world, whether it was because the killing was too heavy, or if it was simply providence.
Kneeling there for an hour, after the drizzle, Su Jinyu seemed to be like a chicken in the soup, and the rain flowed down her cheeks.
The palace man handed the umbrella to her, but she pushed it away with one hand, and shook her head with a smile, "It's too dirty, it's time to wash it." As he spoke, he reached out and wiped the rain from his forehead, and his feet turned back with great difficulty.
Tingxue cleaned up everything in the room, looked a little boring, took the teapot and left it in the open space, ready to catch some rain to make a pot of tea.
When she walked into the courtyard and was about to lean over to put down the teapot, the corner of her eye caught a glimpse of Su Jinyu walking towards her step by step, her whole body was soaked, she looked at it in surprise, and no longer cared about the teapot in her hand, and pulled Su Jinyu into the room.
A little surprised, she put down the teapot, took a random set of clothes from the closet and threw it on her body, "Go and change this clothes, and I'll ask you later." With that, he looked at her no more, picked up the teapot again and left the room.
Su Jinyu stared at her back with sideways eyes, and the corners of her lips raised slightly, it turned out that Tingxue also had compassion, and she always thought that she was a person without mercy, but she didn't expect that in the depths of her heart, there was a hot pool, which was constantly bubbling at this time.
The pale fingertips held up the clean clothes and walked to the screen with relief.
When she walked out from behind the screen, Tingxue was sitting at the round table drinking hot tea, I don't know when she came in, and she didn't even leave the slightest movement, Su Jinyu was really frightened.
Tingxue turned her head slightly, glanced at Su Jinyu and didn't speak, took the teacup and poured a cup of tea for her, and slowly pushed it to the table, while she drank the cup of tea in her hand by herself, spitting a trace of heat.
Su Jinyu walked to the round table with a slight smile and put the dirty clothes she had changed on the round stool. When I opened the lid of the cup, there were a few petals floating above the tea, my eyes flowed, and I said with a light smile, "It's flower tea." ”
Tingxue still didn't speak, put the teacup in his hand on the table and poured a small half cup, glanced at Su Jinyu, and drank the half cup of tea in one gulp.
"I also put a few dates to ward off the cold."
Her hands were extremely inconvenient, so she simply put the lid of the cup on the side and drank the tea cup with her bare hands. Listening to Tingxue's words, his fingertips obviously trembled a little, but he still pretended to have nothing to do and finished drinking the tea in the teacup.
"Why don't you ask the emperor to heal this arm for you, and do things in the palace, if you look like you are embarrassed now, I am afraid that you will only be bullied." Tingxue stared at Su Jinyu's arm that couldn't move, and asked loudly. The previous injury can be regarded as excusable, after all, she has witnessed Ling Xiao's handling methods, but she should indeed be glad that she has lost an arm. But what happened after that made her more and more puzzled, so she had to find this free time and simply ask clearly.
Mentioning this without warning, Su Jinyu stared at Tingxue with a somewhat stunned sideways head, the corner of her lips was a dull smile, she didn't know whether she should laugh or sigh.
Raised her arm reluctantly, there was only a trace of strength to remind her, and it wasn't completely unconscious, at least she could still feel that this arm was still growing on her.
Bow your head and meditate. She really didn't seem to mention that she wanted to heal this arm, but Ling Yun seemed to have forgotten about it. It's been so long, she thinks she's used to it.
Suddenly chuckled a few times, Su Jinyu felt a chill welling up in her heart, lifted the teapot and poured most of the cup of hot tea, "The emperor knows that his arm has been abolished, but he has never mentioned a drip, presumably the prince acted like this after he nodded and agreed." It is not only a punishment, but also where can it be expected to be released one day? After all, nothing would have happened without me making my own decisions. Sister Ji Qiu will not leave, and you will not step into this palace, in the end, you should hate me, the carefree life was broken by my own hands, you should hate me, listen to Xue. After saying this series of words, Su Jinyu looked at Tingxue's expression with a smile, and saw that she was still like a pool of cold water, and a little bitterness was added to this laughter.
After a while, no one spoke in the room for a while, and the atmosphere was slightly awkward.
Su Jinyu drank the tea in the cup by herself, and a little bit penetrated her heart, and after a while, her body felt a little warm. glanced sideways at Xue a few times, and saw that she was still indifferent and indifferent, and felt a little bored and wanted to get up and leave.
When she pushed the teacup away, her confused eyes shone a little, and Tingxue slowly raised her head to stare at Su Jinyu, and said faintly.
"When the prince returned to the Snow Flower Palace with Ji Qiu's body, only the four of us were indifferent, in our eyes, life was no choice, and death was just the reincarnation of rebirth, therefore, the four of us had never been happy or sad. The prince probably understood the truth of this, so he sent ruthless people into the palace to behave in the world, and sometimes indifference is good to others. You care about others in everything, but you have never thought about it for yourself, it is inevitable to cause the disaster of killing, after all, this harem is not as simple as you imagined, just like the jade cicada, Ji Qiu died but she didn't die, do you know why? Tingxue fixed her eyes on Su Jinyu's ignorant face, and pulled the corners of her lips, thinking that it was a smile.
Su Jinyu shook her head, she hadn't cared about anything since that day, she only remembered that Jade Cicada was seriously injured that day, and she had such perseverance to survive, which made her feel extremely surprised.
Probably sitting for a long time, Tingxue got up and paced to the windowsill and pushed open the window, "That's just her ruthlessness, she is loyal to her master, and she has saved her own life." If you say she is ruthless, you are wrong. One day, if you can achieve the realm of jade cicada, I'm afraid no one will be able to hurt you. Your thoughts of being indecisive and being a good person might as well be put away, harming others and yourself and dragging others down. Don't be lucky, there is no precedent in this world that no one can live safely with a little bit of good luck, what you did in the Yinghua Hall today, I don't have the right to see it, I hope you can think about it. She glanced sideways at Su Jinyu and stepped out of the door.
There was some panic, it turned out that she knew, and there was nothing to hide from her. Su Jinyu suddenly felt a little funny, and rubbed her eyebrows in an unusually tangled way, is it wrong to be a man with a conscience? Do you have to be yin and yang, positive and negative, to have the idea of life?
The Yinghua Hall was originally a place of waste and Buddha, and the palace people were not qualified to enter, which was a mistake and a crime of transgression.
begging the palace people to let him in, this is a second mistake, dragging others down.
Mistakes on mistakes, when she really counts about the guilt, she is implicated in several innocent lives, and every step must be accompanied by several lives.
No wonder Tingxue was so excited, she was blaming, blaming her for killing Ji Qiu.