145. I'm never a virgin in midsummer, there is no need to make everyone happy.
"I don't know what you're talking about!"
"My son is mine." I grabbed Xue Meng's hand and didn't dare to look at Xue Zikun's eyes, but Xue Zikun pulled me up and buckled me directly into his arms, and he snorted coldly: "I did a paternity test, my son is mine, and you are also mine." β
I can't associate the naΓ―ve Xue Zikun with the cold man in front of me, I even feel that he in front of me seems to be a perfect character, what he said overwhelms me, it seems that he can also see through my various careful thoughts.
"Midsummer, what else do you want to make up?" Xue Zikun pulled me out of his arms and asked me to look into his eyes, "What marriage, what husband, what child is four years old, you really know how to make it, it's a pity not to be a screenwriter." β
As soon as I blinked, tears flowed out, Xue Zikun saw my tears, and relaxed a little, "I'll take the child, as for you, you can come if you want to come with me, you are welcome in my master bedroom at any time." β
"I said, my son is mine." I looked at Xue Zikun, and I was not afraid of his eyes, "In the past five years, we have relied on each other, and our lives are simple and happy, you say take it away, why do you say take it away?" Is it just because you only gave one sperm in the first place? β
Seeing that we were arguing, Dr. Song retreated. When he was about to go out, he said to Xue Zikun, "The child has a broken arm, and it's okay elsewhere, but be careful not to leave a psychological shadow." β
"Got it, you go out first."
I looked at Xue Meng on the bed, looked at his bandaged arm, and sneered at Xue Zikun: "I forgot, when you persuaded me not to want this child, you were ruthless and cold, and your whole family forced me to be resolute when I got rid of this child, and now he is so old and wants to take it away, but there is no door!" β
I was very excited, Xue Zikun didn't react at all, but asked me: "What can you give him if you are by your side?" Now it's your mother and son who are being bullied, if I don't come, you won't know if you are killed, Midsummer, what are you worried about, let you admit that you love me, let you admit that your son is mine, is it so difficult? Anyway, I am also the father of the child, I can give the child a hukou, solve the problem of going to school, and I can also protect the two of you from being bullied. β
"But can you give us a peaceful and stable life?"
Xue Zikun was stunned, it seemed that this problem had always existed between us, "I was harassed by illegitimate meals several times back then, I didn't dare to date you, I didn't dare to go shopping with you, I don't mind if you don't disclose my identity, I'm afraid that I will be drowned by those spittle stars, I'm so afraid that everything I have will be exposed under the spotlight, six years ago, all my news was picked up again, do you know how I felt at that time?" I feel like I'm walking around the streets all hot undressed! β
Xue Zikun was silent, the question I had never complained about before was like an arrow off the string at this time, "I don't want my son to repeat my life, I don't want everyone to pay attention to him, and I don't want to ...... I don't want to get involved in those things in your house. β
"You've never said any of these things." Xue Zikun's tone was a little softer, "But the child must change the environment, and things between us can be slowed down, but Xue Meng's affairs can't be delayed for a moment." β
All my complaints were like a pestle on top of cotton, Xue Zikun cleverly avoided my words in a few words, and instead focused on the present, I knew his routine well, and said, "You don't have to say anything else, I won't back down on the matter of children." β
"Kid, I have to." Xue Zikun turned to the other side of the bed, he touched the child's hand, and I asked him, "Why aren't you awake?"
I knew Dr. Song's intention to stun Xue Meng, this scene was too bloody for a child, and I originally wanted to blindfold Xue Meng, but I couldn't do it.
Xue Zikun pressed the child twice, and when Xue Meng opened his eyes, he looked at me and then at Xue Zikun, but he didn't dare to speak, and buried his whole body in the quilt.
"Dream dreams. I'm a mom. I touched Xue Meng's cheek, "Do you want to drink water?" β
Xue Meng shook his head, his eyes turned around on Xue Zikun's body, Xue Zikun also looked at him, and when the eyes of the two people met, Xue Zikun said, "Xue Meng, I am your father." β
Xue Meng was stunned.
He leaned over to me and said, not speaking, just grabbing my clothes.
"You're scared kids." I looked at Xue Zikun reproachfully and picked Xue Meng up, "Don't be afraid, I'll take you home, okay?" β
Xue Meng nodded, when I carried him out of the ward, Xue Zikun kept following, but when he got to the corridor, he didn't chase him out.
Xue Zikun listened to what I just said, and didn't care about it like six years ago, I sighed at the sun outside when I went out, and made a big fuss, but in the end I couldn't escape from Xue Zikun's palm.
After going home, Xue Meng became different from before, he was always very silent, he didn't ask me this and that, and he wouldn't play with toys there, more often he chased me, and slept with me when he slept, and even when I went to the bathroom, he would wait at the door, and I was a little longer, and he asked me at the door, Mom, are you inside?
I know that it was what happened in the hospital that made this child change, Xue Meng, this child's mind is delicate, and his current performance is extremely insecure.
On the night of my return, after dinner, our family of four was watching TV in the living room, the TV was playing a variety show on it, my dad was about to change the channel, Xue Meng grabbed the remote control and shouted loudly, "This is my dad." β
I looked at the movie trailer shot by Xue Zikun on TV, and then looked at Xue Meng's hand holding the remote control, he looked at the TV very seriously, those eyes were full of urgency, my dad looked at me, "What's the matter?" β
"Xue Zikun knew about Xue Meng's existence and told him that he was his father." I looked at my dad's increasingly ugly face and hurriedly comforted, "Dad, that's all." β
It's hard to say anything in front of Xue Meng, after the trailer was broadcast, Xue Meng gave me the remote control honestly, and his small body sat down next to me, holding my clothes in his hands, lowering his head and not speaking.
My dad was not interested in watching TV after changing two stations, so he took a shirt and said that he would go out for a walk, and my mother cut the fruit, and didn't ask me anything, and concentrated on feeding Xue Meng.
This incident made me more aware of the importance of the word dad in Xue Meng's heart, and when I went to bed at night, Xue Meng pulled my pajamas and sighed from time to time.
You know, this kid is just five years old.
Recently, we don't dare to go out, every day is very regular, my injury has been completely healed, Xue Meng is at home in addition to regular checkups, during which the kindergarten called me to go to a trip I didn't pay attention, just to Liu Qiang beat me that day when the kindergarten director watched this matter, I will definitely not be polite to them again.
If you really make trouble to the Education Commission, the child will not go to kindergarten, but this kindergarten is facing the problem of recruiting children without household registration and will be suspended for rectification.
Right now, I can't even protect my own children, I don't care what they do!
It's a big deal, I've never been a virgin in the middle of summer, and there's no need to make everyone happy.
Xue Zikun's car has been parked downstairs in my house for a long time, and every time I sleep, I will see a red dot flashing in the position of the car window, and I will be silent in front of the window after closing the curtains, not knowing what to do next.
I can't lose Xue Meng, I can't.
But I really can't be with Xue Zikun anymore, in the past six years, I have learned to be indifferent, to live on my own, and I don't want to be stupid anymore and follow him crazy.
Tang Yan has been here a few times, he has been busy with a show of his personal works recently, and joked that I should also go and see it, I asked him about Chen Mo's news, Tang Yan said that Chen Mo is now in Italy, and Xue Zixu and Xue Zixu live and fly together, and have a daughter, who is just three years old.
I am also very happy to hear that Chen Mo and Xue Zixu can have a good result, after all, the two of them have managed so many things, it is really not easy to come together.
After Xue Meng fell asleep at night, I logged in to the mailbox that I didn't use for a long time, in the two years I left, there were countless emails from Chen Mo lying inside, in addition to asking me where I was concerned, she said that Xue Zikun had to turn out the land when she looked for me, and then she was forced to go to the military school, and she would always be bullied in the military school, Xue Zixu had a big fight with the old man Xue for this, and then they went to Italy, and basically broke off contact with the Xue family.
Chen Mo's letters became less and less later, the most recent one was three months ago, and it was also those greetings and concerns before, I looked at it with tears in my eyes, and finally pressed the reply button, and wrote three words first, I'm sorry.
Chen Mo, I'm sorry.
For the past six years, I have been hiding in a corner of the imperial capital, and I am afraid that my children and my parents will be involved in any struggle related to the Xue family.
I'm scared, I'm cautious, and a lot of the time, I'm too timid to do anything, and when I first came here, I didn't even dare to go out and buy things.
I have found that the more people have, the more afraid they are of losing.
In the past, when I was with Xue Zikun, I didn't care about anything, but now that I have a child, I am very scared.
In the past six years, although I have had a hard time, it is very dull and happy, and I have also worried about various things and worries about my livelihood, but I have come through.
Chen Mo, forgive me, I am not a qualified friend, I have kept you thinking about it for six years, and only now I will reply to your letter.
I am doing very well now, my parents are strong, and my children are sensible and obedient.
In the same way, I also hope that you can live a simple and happy life on the other side of the ocean, and I hope that your life will be bright.
When I pressed the send button, Xue Meng called out to me behind me, "Mom, Mom." β
I turned around, Xue Meng rubbed his eyes and asked, "Why are you crying?" β