After Xue Zikun entered the door, he showed a look of a good young man on May Fourth, my mother and my father looked at him with a confused expression, and I too, at five o'clock in the morning, this was really unprepared. "Mr. Xue, I don't know if Xia Xia told you about our attitude towards her love." Teacher Sheng didn't look at what Xue Zikun brought, but looked at him, "We hope that Xia Xia can live an ordinary life, instead of being busy behind you." ”

Mrs. Sheng didn't speak, just opened the air, adjusted the temperature to the lowest, and aimed the air outlet at Xue Zikun, after all, on dog days, he was dressed in a suit and leather shoes, and I saw fine beads of sweat on his forehead.

"I know I'm special, but I really like Xia Xia."

A room of silence.

Xue Zikun looked at me, and I blushed and lowered my head.

What is this doing, we have not reconciled yet, and there are still many problems that cannot be solved, so come to my house now, is this to take down the rhythm of my parents?

However, I see that Mr. Sheng has a firm position, and Mrs. Sheng seems to be calm and light-hearted, and she doesn't buy Xue Zikun at all.

"Xue Zikun, you go back first." I stood beside Xue Zikun and looked at him with some embarrassment, "I haven't told my parents yet, now that you appear like this, it's too sudden." ”

Xue Zikun understood what I meant, and he had a hot face against his cold ass when he stayed, and he bowed to Teacher Sheng and Mrs. Sheng, "I'll go back first, you pay attention to rest." ”

Xue Zikun gave me a look after speaking, and I hurriedly said, "I'll send him." ”

I went downstairs with Xue Zikun one after the other, he untied his tie with some anger, and when he arrived at the door of the black nanny car, he opened the door without hesitation and pulled me up.

The driver in front pretended not to see, Xue Zikun pulled down the baffle between the cabin and the driver, and he trapped me on the seat, with frustration in his eyes, "Xia Xia, didn't you tell them yesterday the fact that we are deeply in love?" ”

"What does it mean to be deeply in love, you get up first." I'm a little afraid of Xue Zikun who is lying on top of me, I am now a ghost who hasn't washed my face, brushed my teeth, or combed my hair, and I can't be so close to me. "It was my mom who found out about our relationship, and I haven't had time to say anything else."

"Then why can't you introduce me to your family?"

"I haven't found the right opportunity yet, and besides, there are still a lot of problems between us."

"Questions? What problems, your suspicions, your suspicions are the problems between us. Xue Zikun took off his blazer and unbuttoned his shirt impatiently, he gasped, "I told you very clearly before, I only have a cooperative relationship with Qu Man, as for the strange ideas you have, I really don't know how they came about." ”

"Have you ever put yourself in your shoes?" I looked at him, "You don't believe me either, do you think I can do anything to be famous, do you think that when I was in Korea, I took the initiative to participate in high-level dinners to get opportunities, and you still think that the friendship between me and Tang Yan is not pure, Xue Zikun, Xue Zikun, don't just talk about me, you also think about what you have done, okay?" ”

"I don't want to talk about the past."

"Things from the past? You say it's over? But these things are a thorn in my heart, and it hurts to think about them at any time. I closed my eyes, and bitterness spread in my heart, "I care about the relationship between you and Qu Man, I care very much, Qu Man loves you, she ........"

"I know." Xue Zikun interrupted me, "That's her business." ”

"But you never refuse!"

"How do you know that I never refuse, how do you know what I think? There are so many people who love me, should I reject them one by one? Xia Xia, don't question my charm, even if there is no Qu Man, there will be others, you should be confident in you, not suspicious of me! ”

I had a lot of things I wanted to say, but at this point, I didn't know what to say, so we were in a stalemate, about three minutes, I sighed, "I'm going back, my parents are still waiting for me." ”

I found that every time I quarreled with Xue Zikun, he would always say an inexplicable reason to overturn what I said, and then change to a grandiose appearance, as if everything was wrong with me.

When I opened the car door, Xue Zikun suddenly said, "You can think about what I said." ”

"What's the matter?"

"Do my assistant's business."

I shook my head, "I don't. ”

It's a joke, it's still unknown whether I can go back to Beijing, as far as my dad and my mom know about me and Xue Zikun's attitude, it's like they're going to peel off a layer of my skin!

"Then you want to tell your parents that you are just a trickster in the wild model circle? I still want to say that the money that gave you to buy a house at the beginning went to South Korea to pack. Raise me this little white face? Xue Zikun's voice lowered a little, "Hmm, did you say they would be disappointed?" Or, how do you deal with Mr. Sheng, who teaches and educates, and Mrs. Sheng, who has worked hard for the company for half her life? ”

This is definitely a naked threat.

I bit it and glared at him, "Do you think it's funny to threaten me like that?" ”

"Hard and soft." He raised an eyebrow, "Ambition is bound to win!" ”

With that, the door was closed and he walked away.

I looked up at my balcony and felt the snowball of lies rolling bigger and bigger, about to crush me.

There is a saying that is true, if you tell a lie, you have to make it happen with countless lies....

In the end, it is often a cocoon that binds itself.

When I got home, my dad and mom were already washing up and waiting for me in the living room, and I kept thinking about the question on the way back, should I tell the truth or not say anything......

If I were to be honest, how would I say it, from the time I went to Korea, or from the time I returned to China......

My head was in a mess, and when Mr. Sheng saw me enter the door, he said, "Come here." ”

I walked over honestly, and I chose to wait and see what happened before my brain could organize the language.

"Don't do the work in Beijing, I'll go with you tomorrow, sell the house, I'll ask someone to find you a job in the office of the flour mill, you are by our side steadfastly, don't have any dealings with Xue Zikun."

I was dumbfounded.

My mother came out with dishes and chopsticks, opened the soy milk fritters that Xue Zikun bought, looked at the two of us and said, "Let's eat first, you see that you are so serious, you scare the child." ”

"Didn't you sleep all night?" Teacher Sheng didn't buy it, got up and went back to the bedroom, I sat on the sofa, thinking of my father who had just spoken righteously, I didn't know what to do, and tears fell.

I don't want to leave Beijing, although I don't know what the direction of my work is now, but I like that challenging city, and I don't want to leave Xue Zikun.......

The most important thing is that if my dad goes to Beijing with me tomorrow and knows that I don't have a house at all, then the good image I have been creating in front of him will come to naught, and my parents are proud that their daughter can be on her own is actually just a disguised shell.

After thinking about it again and again, I must not say anything about the house, if I do, I really don't know if my dad's high blood pressure will be angry with me on the spot!

I can't tell you what it feels like, fear, grievance, or guilt, I always feel sorry for them, because I can't talk about my ridiculous things.

My mother saw me crying, a little anxious, she handed me the paper, "Your father is also thinking about you, Xia Xia, we haven't seen what the entertainment industry is like, but watching TV can also know that it is very complicated, we want you to be happy, but we are afraid that you will suffer in the future." ”

I took a deep breath and was about to speak, tears welled up again, and my mother sighed, "Don't cry, I'll go back and persuade your dad." ”

I cried even harder, and my face was flushed for many reasons I couldn't speak.

After calming down for a while, I said intermittently, "I love that city, I don't want to come back, Mom, I really don't want to be in this little place for the rest of my life, I want to go and live my own life." ”

"Midsummer, what is your life?" Mom was silent for a while, "You're too willful. ”

I then shed tears, my heart was uncomfortable, I knew that what I said hurt her, but I really didn't know how to speak, all those things I went through, it was like a slap in the face to me, I was scared, I was really scared.

My mother ignored me and went straight into the room, about ten minutes or so, Mr. Sheng came out of the bedroom, his face was still angry, but after seeing my tears, his face eased a lot, he said a card on the table, didn't speak, changed his clothes and went out.

I didn't understand what this meant, my mother came out with a handbag, as if she was going to work, "Midsummer, there are 100,000 yuan in this card, you are alone in Beijing, don't have too hard life." ”

I immediately became cold, and I didn't dare to touch the card, "Mom, I ......"

"This is the only thing my dad and I can do for you, okay, don't lose it, what should you do for breakfast, your dad is going to work today, and I'm going back to work." Mom said that the card was placed in the palm of my hand, "You are twenty-two years old, and you can make your own decisions on many things, and we have decided to respect you." ”

In an instant, I suddenly understood my parents' good intentions, and wanted to tell the whole story of the house, and just as I was about to speak, tears appeared in the corners of my mother's eyes, "Xia Xia, you want to break in, we let you break in, but you remember, as long as you are tired, your parents will always welcome you back." ”

My heart was sour, I felt that I really didn't deserve such love, my mother also helped me heat the fritters on the dinner table before going out, I looked at her back in a hurry, and I felt more and more that I was really worthless.

I'm just now realizing what I've been missing out on all these years in order to be a star.

And now I also understand that maybe I will find my own sense of fulfillment in a different mode of survival.