"Mom, Mom, don't leave me, I promise you, I will live well, no matter what, don't leave me。。。。。。"

Again, Lin Xiaoyu woke up from her dream with tears streaming down her face, her palm tightly gripping the tentacles of the little doll, as if it was her mother's hand.

Xiaoyu will never forget that her mother was in the ward, and when she was dying, she grabbed her little hand and told her with a trembling voice that she wanted to live well and live for herself. In the face of his mother, he was so reluctant, and turned his head and looked at his father, but he just closed his eyes wordlessly. At that time, it was still young, and Xiaoyu didn't understand what kind of eyes it was. Gradually, she understood, it was a look of despair. What did the mother go through? Xiaoyu doesn't know, and she has no way to understand, she has a weak personality, and she doesn't dare to inquire or ask. She only knew that the hospital said that it was a very strange disease at that time, and her mother's body gradually dried up until she used up the last trace of energy and left in despair. And her father always said that he was very busy with business and rarely visited her mother in the hospital.

For 5 years, Xiaoyu has been struggling with thoughts, grief, and questions, what she wants to do, for her mother, for herself, but when the choice of life appears, she chooses to give up the choice and accept it. As time passed, she seemed to get used to and accepted herself as such, accepting such a life, not going against the wishes of others, and living humbly in the corners demarcated by others.

High school life is stressful, busy, and boring. Words, exercises, ancient texts, theorems, concepts, formulas, are repeated every day. After the monthly examinations, county surveys, and municipal unified examinations, the time came to a week before the college entrance examination.

The atmosphere of the whole school has become extremely tense, you can see students holding books in their hands and reading and walking everywhere, the teaching building has pulled up a banner for the college entrance examination, and the propaganda behind the classroom has eye-catching red letters that say "There are 7 days left before the college entrance examination", and there are more parents picking up and dropping off, for fear that their children will have food or other problems during this period. Lin Xiaoyu's parents also often told Zhang Xiaofei to pay attention to her body and review well, and of course she also told Lin Xiaoyu to help Xiaofei review her homework more.

"Da Song, that Xiaofei said that her birthday banquet this year is a few days in advance, and it is estimated that it will not be arranged the day before the college entrance examination, what do you see?" Wu Jiaoyan hooked Da Song's neck with both hands and asked in a coquettish voice. "Okay, my wife said that it would be that day," Lin Dasong said with a smile, and pinched Wu Jiaoyan's face casually. "Then tomorrow afternoon, it's Saturday, how about the Nandu Hotel? Let Xiaofei and Xiaoyu prepare for it," Wu Jiaoyan said. "So be it!" After Lin Dasong finished speaking, he picked up Wu Jiaoyan and ran to the bedroom. After fiddling with it, Lin Dasong hung on the bed weakly, Wu Jiaoyan dressed up, went to the kitchen to prepare dinner for the children, there was no evening self-study on Friday, and in a few hours, Xiaofei and the others would almost go home from school.

"Knock knock, Mom, Dad, open the door, we're back," Zhang Xiaofei shouted outside the door. "Come on, come on, didn't you bring the key?" Wu Jiaoyan said, but her steps were fast, she opened the door, took Zhang Xiaofei's schoolbag, pulled Zhang Xiaofei's hand and said, "Hungry, Xiaofei, wash your hands and start eating immediately." ”

"Eat fish again? It's fishy, I don't want it," he said, picking up a large piece of fish that her mother gave her and throwing it into Lin Xiaoyu's bowl. Lin Xiaoyu looked up, lowered his head and continued to eat. "Ouch, Xiaofei, it's good to eat fish, improve your memory, if you don't like it, forget it, I'll take you to a big dinner tomorrow!" Wu Jiaoyan said helplessly. "Dinner tomorrow? Will my birthday party be done tomorrow? Xiaofei asked. yes, tomorrow! Wu Jiaoyan replied.

Lin Xiaoyu's chopsticks paused for grilling rice, opened his mouth to say something, but lowered his head, put a grain of rice into his mouth, and chewed mechanically. Lin Xiaoyu didn't seem to hear the laughter of the family of three opposite. She is indeed superfluous!

Saturday afternoon, the second floor of the Nandu Hotel is a private room. Zhang Xiaofei, Wu Jiaoyan, Lin Dasong and Xiaofei's three female classmates sat around a table and laughed. "Wow, Yueyue, this hairpin is so shiny and beautiful, and I like Lili's bags and dolls so much, thank you," Zhang Xiaofei said happily. "You're welcome, happy birthday Xiaofei," several female classmates replied. "Xiaofei, that parent didn't prepare a gift," Zhang Dasong said. "Huh?" Zhang Xiaofei looked a little displeased. "I gave you a red envelope of 1,007 on your mobile phone, what do you like, buy it yourself!" Haha, Zhang Dasong said with a smile.

"Dad, are you deliberately teasing me?" After Zhang Xiaofei finished speaking, she hurriedly opened WeChat and received the red envelope.

"Da Song, you see it's almost time to eat, why hasn't the light rain arrived yet? Can you give me a call and ask? Wu Jiaoyan said.

"It's too unusual, it's too uncaring, my sister's birthday party is not at ease at all, how can I do my sister?" Lin Dasong angrily took out the phone and dialed Lin Xiaoyu's phone.

"Tut, tut, tut, toot————", didn't answer, hung up. Lin Dasong dialed again, "The phone you dialed has been turned off." Lin Dasong's face turned pale, "It's time to eat, don't care about her, look at how to clean her up when you go back!" ”

The waiter brought up delicious dishes one after another, stuffed sheep's trotters, roasted steak, steamed prawns, hairy crabs, very hearty. After pushing the cup and changing the lamp, after being full of wine and food, Xiaofei said goodbye to the three classmates, and happily pulled her parents home, it was really a happy day, a happy birthday party, and a happy family!

After arriving home, Zhang Xiaofei couldn't wait to sort out her gifts, Lin Dasong and Wu Jiaoyan were drinking tea and watching TV in the living room, it was almost 7 o'clock, Lin Xiaoyu hadn't gone home yet, Lin Dasong's face was a little ugly.

"Click", the sound of someone opening the door, Lin Dasong looked at the door, and saw Xiaoyu walking in with a small bag, his hair was a little messy, and his clothes were a little muddy. Lin Dasong stood up abruptly, strode over to Xiaoyu and asked loudly, "What are you doing with such a mess?" Don't you know your sister's birthday? Didn't you tell you yesterday? You still dare to turn off the phone and not answer the phone, do you still have a father like me in your eyes? ”

Wu Jiaoyan glanced at it, the corners of her mouth rose slightly, and she didn't speak.

Lin Xiaoyu didn't answer, just stared straight at his father. Lin Dasong had never seen Xiaoyu look like this, he felt that this was a provocation, this was a provocation to the authority of one of his fathers, and he became angry for a while, slapped Lin Xiaoyu in the face, grabbed the dirty bag in Lin Xiaoyu's hand and slammed it on the ground, and several cups and small bowls fell out of the bag, fell on the floor, and shattered. Lin Xiaoyu's heart was also broken.

"Father, hehe, father, I almost forgot that I still have a father," Lin Xiaoyu said with tears in his eyes, unhurried. "Every year on this day, when I walk up that hill alone, surrounded by graves, I am a little afraid, I really wish that my father could be by my side, hold my little hand with his big hand, and accompany me to see my mother, not once," Xiaoyu continued with some sobs, "However, when I walked to my mother's grave, I was not afraid, I put incense on my mother, put sacrifices, poured wine, pulled the weeds from the grave, sat in front of my mother, and talked to my mother, I knew that my mother was inside, and she could hear me, My heart was at peace, and my pain was less. My mother is the only one who loves me, and I am the only one who misses my mother, right, father? Lin Xiaoyu stared at his father and asked, "Do you still have a little miss in your heart?" Is there a little bit of a mother's place? Even a little bit! ”

"Get out, what is your attitude, why are you questioning me? I'm your dad! Lin Dasong shouted.

"Really? Do I still have a father? How have I come over the years, have you ever cared about me? Am I not superfluous? After Lin Xiaoyu finished speaking, he turned around and walked out of the door, his steps were very resolute, and he seemed to have made great determination.

"Get out of here and don't go back to this house!" Lin Dasong shouted angrily.

Lin Xiaoyu's footsteps did not stop at all, and continued to walk out, this weak little woman made her own choice on the choice of life for the first time, and it was this choice that turned Lin Xiaoyu's life upside down!