"You go back early, stay with your mother, and you can read books anytime."

"Yes, I should have spent more time with her."

"Well, as a mother, all your thoughts are on the child." Zhao Zimeng said a meaningful sentence.

Lin Di noticed that Zhao Zimeng's eyes were a little moist.

Since she worked with Captain Zhao, she had never seen the captain look like this, except for the matter on the case, this kind of thoughtful words, Zhao Zimeng told her for the first time.

Zhao Zimeng picked up the teacup, opened the lid of the teacup, and took a sip of tea.

"Team Zhao, what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay, I just think of my grandmother and mother."

"Team Zhao, you've never mentioned your parents in front of us."

"I just felt that the mention of your mother reminded me of my grandmother and mother. Don't talk about it to anyone. ”

"Don't worry! Team Zhao, I won't talk too much, unless you tell them yourself. ”

Zhao Zimeng took a few sips of tea and said: "When I was very young, my parents divorced, my mother was an ordinary rural woman, and my father worked as a buyer in the supply and marketing cooperative. ”

"At that time, I was still young and not very sensible, so my mother took me back to my parents' house, but the daughter who married out was the water that was spilled, and my grandmother was a very kind old man, but my uncle and aunt were a different look - especially my aunt was always looking for me and my mother."

"My mother was only twenty-three years old at the time, and she wanted to find another person and take me away from her mother's house, mainly because she didn't want to embarrass my grandmother."

"Later, my mother found a man with good conditions - my mother was very beautiful when she was young, this person worked in the mine and was a small cadre."

"He also has a son, but for the sake of his son, he doesn't want me to live with them, so he promised to give me living expenses and let me live with my grandmother until I grow up."

"My mother didn't agree - she didn't want to leave me alone in my mother's house, and my grandmother couldn't bear me, she was afraid that I would go to my stepfather's house to suffer, so she persuaded my mother to agree to the other party's conditions, as long as there were living expenses, my uncle and aunt couldn't say anything, but it didn't work, so she took me over."

It will be Lin Di's turn to moisten his eyes: "I didn't expect Team Zhao to have such a sad experience." ”

"Although I have lacked father's love since I was a child, I have received more love, my grandmother's love, my mother's love, and my stepfather, although selfish, is also a reasonable person."

"She allowed my mother to come back to her parents' house to see me every once in a while, and later gave her money to buy new clothes for me to wear, and when I was ten years old, he even asked my mother to take me home with me."

"Looking at it this way, this stepfather is not a bad person."

"Yes! But I know that this is all in exchange for my mother's efforts, and my mother later gave birth to a boy and a girl, but he has always been kind to his stepfather and his ex-wife's son, and my mother's behavior has influenced my stepfather, and my stepfather decided to let my mother take me over to live together. ”

"Later, you were with your mother."

"Nope."

"Why is that?"

"Later, when I grew up, I understood some things. I don't want to embarrass my mother, who is more than enough for her. ”

"Besides, I can't bear my grandmother, a few years after my mother married my stepfather, my grandmother took me to be single, and she was afraid that I would be wronged and separated from my uncle and aunt, so there would be a lot less trouble."

"The reason why it happened was that when I was seven years old, my mother wanted me to study, but my aunt didn't agree, and my grandmother was angry and took me alone. If I hadn't read, I wouldn't be what I am now. My grandmother was frugal and raised me until I graduated from high school. ”

"It's not easy."

"Isn't it? In my grandmother's village, there were very few people who went to school, and I was the only one who went to high school. ”

"Didn't your father ever ask you?"

"When I was twelve or thirteen years old, he didn't know whether it was a discovery of conscience or a whim, and he wanted to ask me, but I didn't answer him because he hurt our mother and son too deeply."

"What about after graduating from high school?"

"After graduating from high school, I signed up to join the army. After I was transferred from the army, I was assigned to the Criminal Investigation Department of the Hefeng County Public Security Bureau, and although I often went home to see my grandmother, who was in poor health because of long-term fatigue, I didn't take it seriously. ”

"As soon as I went back, my grandmother would mention my life's events – she wanted to see me get married and have children. I was too busy with work to worry about that. A few tears rolled out of Zhao Zimeng's eye sockets, and he wiped away the tears.

Lin Di had already heard it, and she didn't dare to ask any further.

"I didn't disappoint my grandmother, I put on a military uniform, and later put on a police uniform, the people in the village were very envious of her, and my uncle and aunt also had remorse, and took the initiative to take care of her, her only regret was that I couldn't wait for the day when I led the bride to give her tea, which also became my lifelong regret."

"Team Zhao, I understand what you mean, thank you for telling me about you."

"Let's go back!" Zhao Zimeng said.

"If there's anything to tell me."

"There won't be any new missions for the time being, and when we have clues, we won't be able to rest, so let's go home."

After Lin Di filled Zhao Zimeng's teacup with water, he left. She finally understood the full connotation of Zhao Zimeng's two sentences "Life is the source of all our strength" and "lifelong regrets".

A few years after Lin Di transferred to Jingxi with her parents, her father died of illness - when her father had her, a little princess, she was almost forty years old, and she was a middle-aged daughter.

My father was wounded many times during the war and was in poor health.

When he died, he still had a piece of shrapnel on his body, and after his father left, his mother worked hard to raise the three of them to adulthood, and the two brothers had organized a family, and now, she has become the only person who can't let go of her mother.

After listening to Zhao Zimeng's heart-to-heart words, she was deeply touched.

She didn't care much about it before, but now she feels that she really should think about her personal problems, for the sake of her mother, and for the sake of her own work.

In fact, there are two men who have been pursuing Lin Di, one is her high school classmate - one year older than Lin Di, two years older than her, named Bi Hongkun, tall and thin. After graduating from Northern University of Communication and Communication, he worked as a director at Jingxi TV.

This time, for the sake of the case, Lin Di had to go to Bi Hongkun.

Bi Hongkun has had a crush on Lin Di since high school, but then the two went to different schools and the world was separated, so he had to give up.

After getting in touch two years ago, knowing that Lin Di was still single, he began to openly pursue Lin Di, but Lin Di was temporarily indifferent to him, and rejected him on the grounds that his work was special and it was difficult to take care of his family.

Bi Hongkun said that he didn't care about this, he was the editor and director of the TV station, and his subordinates were a team of more than a dozen people, he was responsible for decision-making, and the specific work was implemented by the people below, and he had enough time to take care of Lin Di and his family.

The other person is Lin Di's classmate in college, his name is Wenbo, Lin Di is one year old, and the young man is very strong.

In the second semester of his sophomore year, Wenbo transferred to the Military Academy, and after graduating from the Military Academy, Wenbo was assigned to the Jingxi Military Region as a clerk, and is now an operational staff officer of the Political Department.

Wenbo's father is a cadre in the military region, and he has a similar background to Lin Di.

In college, Wenbo began to pursue Lin Di, but Lin Di never accepted him.

Lin Di has to admit that Bi Hongkun and Wenbo are both very good boys on the surface, but Lin Di has not yet fallen in love with these two.

She doesn't like Bi Hongkun's nerdness, dogma, and a bit of femininity and lack of masculinity.

As for Wenbo, Lin Di feels that he has a more obvious macho tendency, probably influenced by his family environment and social status.

He is overconfident, even a little arrogant, he also has a strong sense of superiority, he is unwilling to listen to the opinions of others, he is tough in his work, and he does not know how to turn around.

But I'm usually busy with work.,Although they were classmates in the past.,But everyone is an adult.,And now I don't have a lot of contact with these two men.,My understanding of them is limited to the student period.,It's not good to give them an accurate conclusion now.。

Lin Di is a girl who likes self-reflection, she knows that she also has a lot of problems, and it is not wise to label the opposite sex at will, after all, no one is perfect.

So far, she really hasn't met a man better than these two.

Wenbo's family conditions are indeed stronger than Bi Hongkun, Wenbo is relying on the help of his parents to get to today, Bi Hongkun is not, he relies on his own hard work to have today's achievements, he should be more aware of the difficulties of life and the hardships of life than Wenbo.

Lin Di felt that Bi Hongkun's style of acting was closer to herself, and when she was with Bi Hongkun, she felt very comfortable and had a sense of security.

Recently, Bi Hongkun has been chasing after him more closely, often calling her to ask for an appointment, and sometimes he is a little low.

Wenbo and Bi Hongkun are two styles, his pursuit is very strong, with a kind of compulsion, which makes people feel condescending, which may be his machismo doing the trick.

After listening to Team Zhao's words just now, she began to think seriously about this matter and reflect on herself.

She felt that she had been too selfish in the past, and that her mother was getting older and worse, and although her mother understood her personality and took into account her feelings, and rarely mentioned her personal problems, she could not always focus on her work, continue to ignore her, and let her continue to worry about herself.

The family now hires a nanny to take care of her mother, but her mother still doesn't seem to be improving. Now, she finally knows why, her mother has been worried about her life's events.

This morning, when Lin Di went to the TV station to find Bi Hongkun, Bi Hongkun asked Lin Di if he was free and could have a meal together. Lin Di shirked and said that he was very busy at work and had no time to eat, so he refused Bi Hongkun's invitation.

Now, she has a little regret.