In September, autumn is crisp. In the quiet room, only the faint wheezing of me and him remained.

He let go of me and said with a dark face, "She came to you again to intercede?" What did she tell you? ”

I gently stroked his short hair, and my throat seemed to be stuffed with a thousand words, so that it took a while for a while to overflow a trace of voice: "No matter what she says, I believe you, I believe you." ”

His dark eyes were momentary, and his face was full of inquiry, "Did she tell you about the past?" ”

My eyes were foggy, and I nodded dumbly: "Luo Jincheng, I only found out today that they are bullying people so much, and Lu Min is too different." "Actually, I also secretly scolded Yuan Xiucheng for being hypocritical and pretentious, but I didn't mention it on my face. Now that he had seen all his faces, I did not want my righteous indignation to touch the displeasure in his heart.

In the matter of first love, only the parties are qualified to evaluate.

He smiled bitterly, his face full of helplessness, "I knew him when I was in junior high school, and at first I only thought he was exquisite and very good at life. If it weren't for Xiucheng, I think we would have been very good friends. But he won't be careful, his kind of person is too calculating, and he has to pay attention to his dealings, otherwise he doesn't know when he will fall into the pit he dug. ”

I sat down on his lap and held it firmly in his arms, carefully not touching the wound on the left side, and looked up. He put his right hand around my waist.

He never told me about the past, but his eyes were slightly red at the moment. "He coveted Xiucheng for a long time, and I didn't know that the Yuan family's parents had already made the decision to get married. At that time, I thought, I should work harder, work hard for a few years, get more appreciation from my grandfather, and gain a firm foothold in FK, and then I will propose marriage and marry Xiucheng back......"

He turned his head to look at me, "Shuhua, you won't blame me if I say that, right?" That's exactly what I was thinking at the time, can you understand that? ”

I gently stroked his frowning brow, my heart throbbing for him, "I understand, it's all over." Everyone has their past, I have it, we all have it, and it's not our fault. We're all right. ”

We are all right, but we didn't meet the right person at the wrong time, and we wasted our efforts, just like the love with Zeng Weihua back then. Have we ever thought of spending our lives together? However, what is wrong is wrong, and even if you meet briefly, you will eventually miss it. Because we missed it, we found the right person and recognized the right person. This is the happiness that time bestows upon us.

"I've never understood what the show is going to be wobbly? Why are you with me and still involved with him? Why do you continue to keep me in the dark when it's irretrievable? She loved me at that time, why was she so cruel to me? For a long time, I couldn't accept her betrayal, her deception. But I can't hate her. After I came to Luo's house, the only good memory was her, isn't it the same as living in vain to give up those years? When I learned that she and Lu Min had registered their marriage, I couldn't help myself. I buried myself in the Li River for a long time, and I really wanted to lie down in the river and never come out. After my mother died, it was the only wealth I had, why did God even take it away? Just because I'm an illegitimate child, I'm under the fence, and I have nothing? My father was already so helpless when he was alive, why did the same fate befall me? I was bored in the rental house for three days, pouring myself to death, and I thought, the only thing is gone, I can't escape that helpless circle, what else is there to be nostalgic for, it's better to be a hundred. Then I went to the hospital for alcohol poisoning and stayed for two days before coming out.

It was because of that hospitalization that I was truly awake. In this world, the only way to control your wealth is to have more wealth, and only by having more can you not panic when you lose a star and a half, and you will not be controlled by fate like my father. I was desperately running the business, and I thought, I must lay a foundation for the Yuan family's parents, and let the Yuan family's parents see that the incompetent boy they gave up back then can also be famous; I must show my mother that his son is no longer at the mercy of others. Shu Hua, before I met you, I was such a pathetic person. There is no family, no lover, only a more and more successful career, and a group of die-hard buddies. ”

This is the first time I've heard him talk about it. In the years when I had never set foot, this man had always dealt with the wind and rain alone, he had no way out, no choice, he had to move forward, to a place with a thousand rays of light, and only there, he could escape from the darkness and loneliness, and find his existence.

I couldn't help myself, and tears welled up, "But you really did it later, and those snobs never thought that the kid who was assigned to the small market back then would rise step by step, achieving No.1 in performance, and making the performance of the Southern Region the top three of similar local products." They didn't even expect that the poor boy who was abandoned would one day return as a king and dominate the future of FK, the cosmetics kingdom. Luo Jincheng, I'm glad they had eyes and no beads back then, so that I could pick up your treasure more than ten years later. ”

My heart churned, and for a moment tears covered half of his shoulder. He raised his hand and gently rubbed my cheek, wiping away my tears little by little. "Shu Hua, I'm sorry for treating you like that three years ago. I really couldn't suppress those messy pictures at that time, I really hated myself, why did I have such a past, why did I let the past dominate me, and hurt you, and hurt our children. ”

As he spoke, tears suddenly overflowed into his eyes, and his expression was sad, "Later, I finally got your forgiveness, and I was led by Lu Min again, knowing that he was the ghost, but I couldn't restrain the frustration and ugliness in my mind." When I went to Beijing, in addition to looking for help, I actually went to a friend, who is a well-known psychiatrist. I want to get rid of my demons and come back to you, how much I want to make myself healthy and worthy of you. You're so good, you shouldn't be a person like me. Until Xiucheng asked me to meet that day, I didn't see her but was thrown into the moat and almost lost my life. That escape from death was painful for me, you know? The moment I sank into the river, I was suddenly relieved of the woman, and I felt as if I had lost a heavy burden. But at that moment, I immediately thought of you, and thought of you who were still waiting for me to go back in Y City. I was scared, I was afraid that I would never see you again, I was afraid that you would cry for me, I was afraid that you would be sad for me, I was afraid that you would not see me. I tried my best not to let myself sink, thinking that I would go back alive no matter what. ”

It was the first time since the reunion that he told his mental journey over the years. In the past, I only thought that he was deep and difficult to understand, and there were too many things hidden in his heart, and he might never tell others for the rest of his life. I sometimes deal with it carefully, even if he begs me for forgiveness with a dead face, I never point to him to pierce the unspeakable layer. Every time I say to myself, everyone has a story in their hearts, people are not transparent, as long as he can change for himself, why should I dwell on the past?

However, such a person is actually the one who needs to be confided in and appeased the most.

And I really believe it today, he is really relieved of Yuan Xiucheng. His experience in Beijing was a blessing in disguise, and he finally pulled out the stalk that had been thorned in his heart for many years.

At that moment, I couldn't help but be shocked, it turned out that affection was the biggest harm to the breakup lover. Yuan Xiucheng's broken threads made Luo Jincheng deeply trapped in it and unable to extricate himself, which was the biggest harm to him. And the matter of the moat made him instantly understand the meaning of this woman to him.

I gently twisted his head over, my little hands sliding all the way down to trace his handsome face. With tears on his cheeks, he looked like an innocent child in front of my eyes, waiting for my verdict.

I slowly leaned my face over and kissed his dry lips little by little, licking inch by inch. He opened his mouth cooperatively and began to respond to me softly, and after a few seconds, he turned passive and boldly pried open my teeth.

The lingering kiss made me can't help but mutter. After opening my heart, I was more eager than ever to integrate into his body and go to Wushan with him.

My hand unconsciously ran into his collar, fumbling for the button and slowly undoing it.

One, two...... I was not satisfied, so I put my body forward, wanting to give myself to him quickly, peel it to him, and let him love him fiercely, just like back then.

His body moved, but he moved backwards.

I began to be unhappy again, and I opened my eyes suddenly, and looked into his eyes, which were also open, and saw the slightest hint of panic in his eyes.

I was puzzled and dissatisfied, and I touched his earlobes with my hands......

As a result, he finally couldn't stand it anymore and pulled me away, gasping for breath with a frightened face.

"I'm sorry...... I ......"

I raised his head with my hand and asked worriedly, "What's wrong with you?" Are you still having trouble letting go of those things? Why not? ”

He took my hand and lowered his eyes for a moment, his Adam's apple turning slightly, as if he had made a lot of determination, before he raised his eyes. "Shuhua, I don't want to hide it from you anymore. I'm sick yet. ”

I was so shocked that I couldn't close my mouth for a long time, and it took a long time to understand what he meant.

"How so? Wasn't it good before? ”

"Before being thrown into the river, they beat me up and I was there...... Injured and cysted...... I was still taking my medicine and the doctor said to wait a while to see if surgery was needed. So, Shu Hua ...... I ......"

I covered his mouth with my hands, tears raining down. Such a thing that hurts the dignity of a man has happened to him again and again. My heart was churning together. It turns out that his sitting up has not been chaotic in the past few days because of this.

I said in a trembling voice, "What did the doctor say?" Is it serious? I heard that the men's department of ** hospital is very good, Xiaohong said, why don't I go there next time. ”

He suddenly buried his head in my arms and said in a deep voice: "It's not serious, but it can't be ...... for two months The medical records are in the drawer. I thought I'd tell you later, but I didn't want to disappoint you. Shu Hua ......"

I hugged his head tightly and hugged my man's head, "It's okay, it's going to be fine, it's just for a while, don't worry." Those who are wolf-hearted and dog-hearted must not let them go. ”