138. Hate is hate, it's better than forgetting.
Xue Zikun pinched very hard, I was caught by him very painfully, when the finger stirred back and forth in my mouth, I felt very disgusting, I bit his fingertip, he stretched out his hand in pain, I looked at him angrily: "You have no other way than to use this way to me?" โ
"But this method is the most effective, isn't it, Midsummer, who said it, the closest place to a woman's heart is "yin dao". />
After he finished speaking, he didn't stop the movements in his hand at all, Xue Zikun was too dangerous, and he had the intention of eating me dry and wiping it clean between the lines, and I also knew that in the final ending, I might not even have a bone residue left.
His hand tore through the short sleeve I was wearing, and my hand grabbed his arm, my fingernails scratching the blood on it.
Xue Zikun's strength is too great, and now he really can't compare with him before, his arms are full of hard muscles, and he is completely different from him a few years ago.
Between the tears, his bathrobe was open, and I couldn't help but feel sad when I saw the gunfire wound in my heart, and my surging and small excitement were pierced by the hideous wound in front of me.
These wounds reminded me of how painful everything was in the past.
These wounds reminded me of what I had lost and what he had lost.
These wounds reminded me that I and him are not people of the same world after all.
"Why, why don't you want my child." Xue Zikun was like a mad lion, gnawing my lips vigorously, my head was tilted back, avoiding his kiss, my actions angered him again, Xue Zikun's hand grabbed my chin, he bit my chin, "Midsummer, I ate you in one bite, it is difficult to understand the hatred in my heart." โ
"I'm just protecting myself." My jaw hurt unbearably, Xue Zikun didn't let go, I was also anxious, my knees hit him heavily in some hard and fragile places, Xue Zikun "hissed" and snorted cold, turned to look at me, and covered his mind with his hands: "It's not interesting to be submissive, it's better to play something else." โ
"There are so many people who play with you, not to be the only one."
"Jealous?" Xue Zikun's hand slipped on my waist and kneaded it vigorously, "I really fucking love this feeling!" โ
I knew that my resistance was meaningless, so I said, "Xue Zikun, do you know that you are breaking the law?" โ
"When did you break the law with your own woman?" Xue Zikun pulled out the strap of his bathrobe, tied my hands, and then picked me up and threw me directly on the round big bed in the room.
There were a few boxes of Durex on the side of the big bed, as well as all kinds of utensils that used to frighten me, Xue Zikun frowned, ignored those things, and pressed them directly.
"Xia Xia......." He worshiped every inch of my body and kissed me, "How do you say I make your life better than death?" Which do you prefer? โ
"Whatever you want." I closed my eyes, "If you don't want me to hate you for the rest of my life." โ
"Hate as hate, it's better than forget." Xue Zikun has always done whatever he wants, my protest and indifference have no effect on him at all, when he kissed my lower abdomen, he was obviously stunned, he raised his eyes and looked at me, I also guessed what he found, taking advantage of this opportunity, I turned over and rolled to the foot of the bed, Xue Zikun was very satisfied with my performance, and asked me with a gloomy face: "Why is there a scar?" โ
Xue Zikun rushed up to me, pinched my chin and asked, "What about the child?" โ
"No children." I responded to him, "I won't give you a child like this." โ
"Don't tell me it's not a C-section scar, don't tell me I don't have any children, why do you have to push me away? What about acknowledging your own feelings? โ
I know that I can't hide this matter from the child, but I really don't want my dreams to be exposed in front of Xue Zikun.
Xue Zikun will never understand how much pressure I am under, all he sees is his own feelings, and there are too many things I have to think about, in fact, my previous peaceful life was also very good, but I don't know why I have come to this point again.
"I have a child, but the father is not you." I looked at him coldly, and couldn't help yelling anymore, "I'm in love with someone else, I gave him a baby, don't you want to take revenge on me?" Come on! โ
"You're looking for death." Xue Zikun's hand was clenched into a fist and pointed at me, his eyes were full of blood, and his lips trembled, while I closed my eyes and prepared: "Let's fight." โ
After a long time, the fist didn't fall, Xue Zikun took my hand and untied the restraints on my wrist, he glanced at the utensils on the table, and dusted all those things to the ground as if he was out of control, "You expected that I wouldn't dare to hurt you, Midsummer, where the fuck did you get this kind of confidence?" โ
"I don't have confidence, because I'm not the same summer I used to be, and you're not the Xue Zikun I used to be." After I sat down, I tidied up my clothes, Xue Zikun turned his back to me, lit a cigarette irritably, I looked at his back and took a deep breath, "Goodbye, never goodbye." โ
I fled out of the hotel in a hurry, and kept crying in the car on the way home, and the driver was frightened when he saw my red and swollen eyes crying, and kept asking me if I had anything to call the police or something, I took out the mirror and looked at the tooth marks on my chin and the marks on my neck that were gnawed out, and the crying became more and more intense.
I don't dare to go home directly, my mother will definitely be worried when she sees it when I go back like this, and I don't dare to guarantee that Xue Zikun will not send someone to follow me, if he finds out my home address, it will mean that all my lies will be self-defeating.
I called my mom and said that the company training was staying outside tonight, and she told me to pay attention to safety, and I said okay.
I found a cheap little hotel, the kind that doesn't use an ID card, and I sat in bed alone all night, and after the tears flowed away, I woke up and it was already three poles of the day.
The department manager asked me how the contract was, I quickly took a picture of the contract in my hand and sent it over, and when I turned out of the hotel, I looked up and saw that the sun was shining, and I took the bus and went straight back to the company.
The department manager was quite satisfied with the contract, and said a few words of praise and gave me half a day off.
Just after leaving the company, I received a phone call, a customer wanted to buy a school district house, and asked me if I had anything to recommend.
The school district house is the best recommendation, the customer only pays attention to the school district two words, the remaining floors, square meters and facilities or something can be done, I returned to the company, found a few houses to the other party for the most reference, the customer asked me when I can see the house, I contacted the seller again, basically at any time to see the house.
In this way, my half-day vacation in the afternoon was also full, I rode an electric car to the place designated with the customer, the man was stunned when he met me, and the boy next to him said, "Uncle, isn't this Aunt Midsummer?" โ
That's right, in front of me is Tan He, my former psychiatrist.
I haven't seen him for six years, Tan He hasn't changed much from before, he has a very gentle appearance, and he smiled faintly when he saw me.
"What a coincidence." He walked up to me, "You're working as a real estate agent?" โ
I also responded to him with a smile, "Well, it's just a mess, why did you come here to buy a house?" โ
"My nephew is going to junior high school, and the school in the suburbs is a little less stressful."
"People send their children to the city, but you can think of it and let the children go to the suburbs." I smiled and walked in front, "Let's go, I'll take you up and have a look." โ
"This kid is going to the United States in high school, and I don't want him to be too tired in junior high school." Tan He followed me, and when I went up to the third floor, I knocked on the door, and the landlord knew that we were coming to see the house, so he opened the door, and I introduced the advantages of the house in standard words, and also talked about the shortcomings, Tan He's nephew didn't seem to be interested in this place, "Uncle, you have decided on the house, I'll go to the car to play." โ
Tan He smiled and said, "That's it." โ
"Not thinking about anything else?" I pulled out the notepad I had with me, "I also found a few sets nearby, and they were all good." โ
"Anyway, it's only three years, and it's gone in a flash." Tan He said very easily, and then was silent for a few seconds, and asked me, "How have you been doing in the past few years?" โ
"It's good." I asked him to sign the inspection record, and then put the notebook away, "Don't you see, I'm much more comfortable than before." โ
The two of us went downstairs, and when we were about to say goodbye, Tan He stopped me, "I know everything back then, midsummer, in fact, ....... In fact, I have been single for the past six years. โ
I smiled at Tan He, not wanting to delay this good young man, "So what? โ
"Are you happy now?" Tan He suddenly asked me, "I know you are not with your boyfriend, I have inquired about you with Chen Moda for six years, but there has been no news, I think, this meeting is also a kind of fate, if you are also single now, can you, can you consider me?" โ
"I'm sorry." I decisively responded to what Tan He said, anyone who is so gentle as a man will be moved, but I can't hurt him, because I don't love him, I give him hope, and if there is no ending in the end, it will be him who will be hurt. โณโงโณโง๏ผ
I can't be such a cruel woman.
"Why don't we have dinner together in the evening?" Tan He asked me again, "What's the matter, it's a reunion after a long absence, and we can still be friends." โ
"I have something to do at night," I still refused him, Tan He didn't say anything, just grabbed his hair and nodded.
I felt as if someone was looking at me behind me, and when I looked back, there was nothing.
Tan He got on the car, I also rode an electric bicycle, and when I was cornering, a white sports car rushed out, I didn't brake the brakes, and hit it all at once.
The entire wheel of my electric car was crooked, and I fell to the ground, and the scratches on the front bumper of the white sports car were very noticeable.
I dusted off the dirt on my body, ready to apologize to see how to solve it, who knew that after the car window was rolled down, it was Xue Zikun with a triumphant face, he said: "This lady, you hit my car, you have to pay!" โ