"Lin Kai, it's raining outside, you just don't have to go to the cafeteria, you eat the food, don't waste it......" Cheng Lan was not affected by my indifference at all, and continued to persuade.

"Take it!" I keep going.

"Lin Kai, you ......"

"Smack!" I jerked the lunch box to the floor, interrupting her chatter with a defiant gesture as the food was already scattered all over the floor.

Cheng Lan looked at me in astonishment, stunned for a long time, and her eyes seemed to be a little moist.

After a long time, she squatted down, picked up the lunch box, glanced at me, turned around, and walked out slowly.

Staring at her departing back, my heart was sour, and I quickly developed a sense of guilt for her.

Turning my eyes to the steaming white rice on the ground, I looked at it for a while, then I picked up the water cup and slowly slipped the upper layer of rice into the cup with a spoon, and I also picked up the chicken thighs and steamed fish, and washed them with water.

In the end, I was defeated, eating rice and nibbling on chicken thighs, just because I didn't want to waste her thoughts, but my vision was inadvertently blurred while chewing wax......

The strings in my heart fluctuated again, and I felt guilty for Cheng Lan and for the only girl who didn't look at me differently.

I finished the meal with full thoughts, it was already raining outside, and seeing the sunshine that I had not seen for a long time, my heart suddenly brightened, and I inexplicably wanted to go out to breathe.

When I came to the maple forest, I was surprised to find that Cheng Lan was actually sitting on a stone bench in the woods, and soon another girl came next to her.

That girl I know, the object of conversation that is often talked about by those boring boys in the dormitory - Hua Yao Yao of the Department of Psychology of the Academy of Social Sciences.

I didn't know what was going on, but I moved uncontrollably behind a tree and eavesdropped on their conversation.

The first thing that poured into my eardrums was Yao Yao's voice.

"What did you call me for?"

Cheng Lan's voice showed obvious loss: "Lin Kai didn't accept my food, he also threw it on the ground." ”

Immediately followed by the woman's sarcastic voice of Cheng Lan. "I'll just say, if you send her food, he may not be moved, he is a person who is autistic and has problems, and he generally won't play cards according to common sense."

Listening to her words, I was inadvertently a little irritable, but what Cheng Lan said next made my irritability quietly lose a little.

"Yao Yao, don't talk about him like that, he ...... He is quite pitiful, I heard from the counselor, his family conditions are very bad, you say a young man, a meal of steamed buns, how can you eat enough? ”

Cheng Lan's tone was full of distress, my heart trembled inexplicably, and my eyes moved to them.

"How do you know that he has a steamed bun for a meal?" I saw Yao Yao poke Cheng Lan's head with her fingers, and said angrily: "I said you are really worried." ”

"Yao Yao, I didn't lie to you, it was a boy who said that he bought three steamed buns every morning and hid in the study room all day and didn't come out."

"Even that's not something you have to worry about!" Yao Yao continued to persuade Cheng Lan: "I can remind you, people like Lin Kai generally have psychological problems, I think you should stay away from him, in case he ......."

"Yao Yao, don't talk about him like that, he's already very pitiful."

"I know he's pitiful, but we just know it in our hearts, and we'll help him when we have the opportunity in the future, but you don't have to take the initiative to come to him."

After Yao Yao said this, she poked Cheng Lan's forehead with her finger again, and said to her in a mournful tone: "I said that you are really a dog and a mouse meddling." ”

Hearing this, a cloud of anger rose inexplicably in my heart, and I felt that Yao Yao that girl was really annoying.

So much so that when I first married Cheng Lan, I hated her very much, and I was afraid that she would teach Cheng Lan badly.

Fortunately, in less than three seconds, I heard Cheng Lan's crisp voice again: "Yao Yao, if your brothers and sisters or good friends around you are disfigured, will you abandon them?" Will they ignore them?

Even if it's a stranger who has this kind of experience, I think like this, what if it's my loved one? What's more, Lin Kai is still my classmate. ”

As soon as Cheng Lan explained this, Yao Yao, the bad woman, finally shut up!

At the same time, I suddenly felt that Cheng Lan's voice was simply a heavenly sound, more like a spring breeze coming slowly, blowing away the cold that had been sealed in my heart for a long time......

At noon the next day, I continued to nibble on steamed buns, but my eyes shifted from the book to the door from time to time, and my heart jumped up and down inexplicably.

I want Cheng Lan to come over again, because I really want to hear her voice, but I don't want to see her because I don't know how to face her.

I'm really a contradiction at this point.

But what surprised and excited me was that Cheng Lan came again, this time still holding a lunch box.

I lowered my head, my eyes fell on the computer book, and I borrowed my peripheral vision to see her in a white dress, walking slowly towards me like an angel.

"Lin Kai, I'...... I don't know if I have a question today, can you teach me? "As soon as she approached me, she asked me questions like these.

Her voice was clear, but it was timid.

Based on the study and observation of those days, I know that she is a coward, and she is a girl with an extremely soft personality, and even a submissive meat bun.

Because in the classroom, those girls criticized her, not only did she not get angry, but she would give them a lecture regardless of her previous suspicions.

And no matter how much homework is assigned by a teacher, she will complete it very seriously if it is meaningful and meaningless.

It is precisely because of her temperament that after I married her, I always gave strong orders or threatened her domineeringly, because I knew that she was timid and soft.

That's why I started to use those extreme methods to try to tie her to me......

I thought about it for a few seconds, but I couldn't bear to refuse her anymore, and said coldly, "What's the problem?" ”

Her breath was full of joy, and she immediately handed over the question.

I glanced at it, and quickly, gave her the answer.

"Lin Kai, you're so powerful." She folded her hands, tilted her head, looked at me, and said excitedly: "I asked the top students in the class about this question, and they can't do it, but when it comes to you, you can do it in a few seconds, and you haven't gone to the lecture yet." ”

I looked up at her uncontrollably, only to see a hint of admiration and adoration in her eyes.

My thin lips moved, but I didn't speak.

Soon, she said glutinously: "Lin Kai, tell you one thing, don't laugh at me." ”

I quickly squeezed out a nasal voice: "Hmm! ”

"I'm stupid, science is very bad, three years of high school, my parents don't know how many tutors I hired, and the college entrance examination results barely reached the score line of HKUST."

Family education?

When I heard that, I knew that her family should be very good, and it could be seen from the texture of her clothes.

My heart was inexplicably sour, and I suddenly felt that I was not on the way with her.

After I hesitated for a moment, she suddenly said again, "Lin Kai, can I ask you to be my math tutor in my spare time?" ”

I was shocked, I really didn't expect her to make such a request.

"Is that okay? Lin Kai! Cheng Lancan's starry eyes met my gaze directly, and her eyes were full of hope, so I couldn't bear to refuse.

I was stunned for a moment, and squeezed out a word from the bottom of my dry throat: "Good!" ”

"Great."

As soon as my good words fell, the smile on her excited face was incomparably bright, like a beautiful flower, exuding a charming fragrance all the time

"I'll pay you, though." Cheng Lan smiled and said seriously: "You give me a question, how about I give you 10 yuan?" ”

I didn't even think about refusing: "No! ”

"How's that going to work? After all, it's taking up your time. ”

"No!" I'm a little annoyed in my heart, I want to help her, but I can't ask her for money.

"Alright then, I won't give you money. But shall I give you food every day at noon as a reward? ”

I was stunned for a moment, my heart trembled, and my mind instantly popped up her lost appearance after I waved the rice to the ground yesterday, as well as the content of her conversation with Yao Yao's woman.

I don't like to talk, but I'm not stupid, and I know what she's for.

She just wants to help me, and she is still preserving my manly dignity.

An inevitable wave of emotion swept over me, and at the same time, a wave of self-confidence that had only been felt when I was a child when I won a robotics competition.

Intellectually I should refuse, but when I look at her smile like a flower, with an invisible gravitational face, I don't want to refuse.

And I want to hear her so I don't feel so alone.

After a few seconds, I struggled to squeeze out one word: "Good!" ”

She was visibly relieved by my response......

In the following days, Cheng Lan would bring me food at noon every day, rain or shine.

And every night I lie in bed, my ears are full of her crisp and glutinous voice, and my mind is full of her bright smile.

It is undeniable that I am full of confidence in life again, and I will also choose some important courses that I am very interested in to listen to, and when I am not in class, I still hide in the study room to study by myself, I know that I am not abandoned, at least Cheng Lan is willing to talk to me.

Moreover, in this month, I have become a lot more cheerful, I often discuss some things outside of study with Cheng Lan, and we also take care of a stray puppy on campus together: Xiao Huang.

During that time, I was really happy, at least with Cheng Lan and Little Yellow Dog on campus, I was no longer so lonely.

……

Later, I discovered a fact that once again made waves in my heart, but at the same time convinced me that she was the angel whom God had mercy on me and mercifully given to me, my salvation.

It was noon in early winter, and Cheng Lan still came to me, with a big bag in addition to the lunch box in her hand.

"Lin Kai, my parents came to the capital to see me and brought me a lot of delicious food." She pushed the bag full of food to me, "Eat all this, I ..... I want to lose weight." ”

After speaking, her white little face had a touch of shame.