Chapter 210: Unfortunately, there are no ifs in this world
Outside the door, the voice disappeared, and I don't know when, Feisha had already left, leaving Shu Jinge squatting in the corner of the room dejectedly, for a long time, she shed two lines of tears, squatted down with her legs bent, her hands on her knees, looking like a helpless child.
Feisha is not wrong, it is her fault, the millennium is injured by the heavens, it is she who overestimated the power of her heart's blood, overestimated herself, and underestimated the ability of the top of the snow-capped mountain.
It's her fault, it's all her fault, if she had left with Yu Tianqi in the first place and went on the road alone, this kind of thing wouldn't have happened.
If she hadn't asked Millennial to help her find the top of the snowy mountain, this wouldn't have happened.
It's all her fault, it's the innocent person she killed who became the way she is now.
Suddenly, darkness shrouded Shu Jinge's head, like an indissolvable dark cloud, enveloping her layer by layer.
Thinking of the scene where Millennium was injured by Yu Tianqi, thinking of Yu Tianqi being controlled by Fan Jing, his eyes were blank like a puppet.
Thinking of her previous life, she was gouged out by Yu Tiancheng's heart, thinking of her roaring soul and seeing her grandmother standing alone in front of her grave in a daze, thinking of the white hair on her temples at that time, thinking of grandma After losing her, there was only one person left.
A lot comes to mind.
But the culprit of all this is her.
It's that she's really useless, and she will never be able to protect the person she loves, she's just a troublemaker, a useless person, and a nemesis.
Just when a lot of negative emotions wrapped her around and made her unable to escape, Shu Jinge only felt a warm air flow suddenly clear the clouds on her head, and then swam in her body, making her want to stretch comfortably.
Immediately, she came to her senses and heard a cough.
She looked up suddenly, and saw that Millennial was sitting on the bed, her face was pale, covering her lips, but when she looked over, she smiled and said, "Girl, I'm not dead yet, do you want to cry for me?" ”
Shu Jinge hurriedly got up, wiped the tears on his face, stepped forward and asked in a low voice, "Are you okay?" Fei Sha said you can't do it, I thought ......"
"Hehe, you think I'm the same as those mortals? Or distrust in the power of your spirit? ”
Millennium said, looking down at her chest, which was completely closed, and there was no sign of it.
Shu Jinge didn't know what to say, but she was still relieved when she heard Millennium's ridicule.
But before she could speak, Millennial suddenly spat out a mouthful of blood, which frightened her and quickly stepped forward to hold his body that was about to fall.
Millennial lay in the crook of her arm, and when she opened her eyes, the pupils in her eyes were actually condensing, slightly larger than what she had seen on a daily basis.
He smiled bitterly and sighed, "Sure enough, this body is still old!" ”
insisted on getting up by herself, Millennium leaned against the head of the bed, and Shu Jinge's tears couldn't stop flowing.
"I'm sorry, it's all me, if it weren't for me......"
"Girl, you're right, it's me who overestimated the brotherhood between us."
Millennial was stunned: "I have long been a damned person, after so many years of living, I am just greedy for the warmth I once encountered, and now, it is time to give up." ”
Saying that, Qianxi looked at Shu Jinge, and her tone was sad: "Girl, can you take me to meet your father?" These decades have been the saddest I've ever had.
Every day and night, I wondered if he was okay, if he had forgotten me, if he missed him, but I didn't dare to disturb him, because he said that if I disturbed him again, he would die. ”
That shallow smile will appear on the face of the pear vortex, so many years, has always been in the depths of his memory, and now, about to leave this world, he really wants to look at him again.
Millennium turned her head, looked at Shu Jinge's face, which looked like a mother's mother, but with the shadow of Shu Yue, and stretched out her hand to attach it and smiled lightly: "Girl, do you know?" How hard is it to fall in love with someone you shouldn't love? I'm not a good person, and I've thought about imprisoning him directly, but I've tried, but it didn't work, but forced him to lose that beauty, you say, what should I do?
What I want is not a dead man, but a living, splendid person. However, fortunately, you came, and in your body, I saw the confident and flamboyant face again, but unfortunately, you are not him. ”
Qianxi said, already closing her eyes, Shu Jinge hurriedly probed his snort, and found that he had just fainted, and her heart was like a blunt knife piercing in a little bit, her eyes were hazy with tears, and her tone was choked.
"Millennium, don't worry, I will definitely let you see the person you love the most before you die."
Carrying the millennium on his back, he packed up the things he could use on the road, and rode a fast horse to the capital.
When Feisha returned to the palace, he found that Shu Jinge was gone, even with Qianxi, his face was suddenly gloomy, and he searched in the valley for a while, and found the horseshoe prints that left, he looked in the direction and clenched his fists.
Shu Jinge, can you only break your legs, and you will always be by my side? If that's the only way to keep you going, that's all I can do.
Sihuan Mountain is not far from the capital, but Shu Jinge also walked for five days and six nights on a fast horse, and by the time she arrived in the capital, she had already changed three horses.
Shu Jinge entered the capital of Yanguo, went to the Taishi Mansion without hesitation, and when Shu Taishi knew that his daughter was back and hurriedly greeted him, he saw that his daughter was putting a man on the seat in the hall.
"Millennium, can you hear me? Here we are, this is where my dad has lived for decades, haven't you been here? Look at it, the person you want to see is by your side, he is there, you open your eyes and see. ”
Master Shu didn't know what was wrong with his daughter, but when he heard the name Millennium, his body was obviously stiff.
After looking over, he found that the man had raised his head little by little.
As he did decades ago, he hasn't changed at all, and his face doesn't age like an ordinary person.
It's just that the whiteness of the hair made Shu Yue's heart tighten, and he stepped forward to ask, "What's wrong with him?" ”
Shu Jinge sobbed a little and said, "He's going to die because of me." ”
Shu Yue was shocked and looked at Millennium in disbelief, only to see that the other party was smiling at him, and that smile was the same as in their happiest time, there was only Shu Yue in his eyes, and he was alone.
It's just that today's millennium, without the domineering and flamboyant of the past, is fierce and resolute, at this time, he is like a kite with a broken string, his face is gray, there is no trace of blood, and he is dilapidated.
Is this really a millennium? Master Shu didn't believe his eyes.
"Shu Yue, I finally see you again, will you be unhappy? I broke my promise, and here I am again. ”
Millennial looked at Shu Yue, although his beloved had already grown a long beard, but his eyes were still as embarrassed as before, exactly what he had dreamed of.
Once, here, he promised that he would never set foot in the capital of Yanguo for eternity, but he really broke his promise, would Shu Yue hate him?
Looking at Shu Yue's face, Millennium's hand was raised, wanting to depict it little by little, as before, but he found that he was so weak that he couldn't even lift his fingers.
couldn't help but smile in frustration, but he still didn't want to lower his head and looked at him greedily.
Master Shu's fists were also clenched tightly, he couldn't believe that the once powerful Millennium would be what it is now.
How could he die? Aren't all the people who come out of the top of the snowy mountains live for a long time? How could he ruin this fact as always and die now?
That's impossible.
But even though he desperately tried to convince himself of his own judgment, his eyes filled with tears after seeing Millennium's inch-by-inch gray hair in front of his eyes.
If Qu Lian'er hadn't always supported him, he would have fallen to the ground.
Shu Jinge wiped his tears and helped Shu Yue put the snow-white long hair behind his head little by little, so as not to see the heavy mood of the millennium.
It's just that, even if this is the case, how could Millennial not know, because he had already seen himself in Shu Yue's eyes, his hair was snowing, and the wrinkles on his face were getting more and more.
It's just that he didn't grieve, but said with a smile: "It seems that before I die, I can return to my original appearance." ”
Shu Jinge saw that Shu Yue's face had not changed much, but those eyes were becoming natural little by little, no different from ordinary people.
"Millennial ......"
Master Shu only said two words, he couldn't say anything more, he didn't know what to say, he once thought that he would be angry when he saw this person again, but now that he saw it, it was true that the other party was in a state of death, how could he hate?
"It's good that you haven't forgotten me after years of not seeing you."
Qianxi's voice was getting weaker and weaker, but he was still sitting, and the spirit on his body was overflowing from his body little by little, Shu Jinge saw that he didn't know why, but he was held by Qianxi's hand, she looked at Qianxi, and saw Qianxi and said:
"Girl, you know what? If we spirit clansmen die, the spirit will leave my body, and then dissipate little by little, and finally when we die, the spirit will disappear completely, and our body will turn into air, and there will not be even a piece of debris.
But I'm really greedy for this place, greedy for the beauty I once encountered, I can't bear it! So, girl, you take my beauty, live well, and help me fulfill the beautiful vows I can't fulfill, okay? ”
When he said these words, Millennium's eyes never left Shu Yue, and he kept thinking in his heart, if he and Shu Yue hadn't met at the beginning, would he understand the love in this world? If he didn't keep his promise to Shu Yue and stayed by his side all the time, secretly protecting them, would they have a future?
Unfortunately, there are no ifs in this world, and everything cannot be repeated.