It is said to be decoration, but in fact, it is to paint the walls, change the furniture, and reorganize it. The furniture in Su Siqi's house has been around for some years, and the pattern has not changed. She plans to change to the Mediterranean style this time, she has long liked that style for a long time, and she also went to the furniture store when she was in S City, it is really beautiful, but the price is not low, a small piece will cost more than 10,000, it is estimated that she will have to change it in this house for more than 100,000 or 200,000. She was reluctant before, but now this amount of money is completely insignificant to her.

She has been busy organizing her things for the past two days, throwing away the useless ones, clearing out the useful ones and putting them in the upstairs room, and vacating the room.

The last drawer of the desk was locked, and she remembered that it was full of diaries, which she had locked when she left home for fear of her father peeking. As a result, every time she came back over the years, she didn't open it again, and now she can't even remember where the key is.

Su Siqi walked to the staircase and called Su Qirong: "Old man, do you know where the key to my drawer is?" ”

Su Qirong was tidying up the things in the living room when he heard a voice and replied, "It seems to be in the second drawer of your bedside table." ”

Su Siqi said, "Have you opened that drawer and peeked at my secrets?" ”

"Who peeked at your secrets? I'm not afraid to see it! Su Qirong patted the dust on his hands and walked to the side of the stairs to look up: "You left it there by yourself, don't you remember and still come to doubt me?" Besides, what secrets do you have to see? ”

Su Siqi lay on the handrail of the stairs and said with a smile: "After I finish my house, I'll tidy up your house, don't have any secrets for me to see!" ”

Su Qirong raised his hand, "I'm too lazy to pay attention to you, I'll drink water, do you want it?" ”

"No, I just drank it." Su Siqi said: "I went to do something. She went back to her room and found the key in the drawer of the bedside table.

As a result, as soon as she opened the drawer, she was dumbfounded, it was all mold! The white furry grows everywhere, and I feel like I can't get my hands on it.

She went downstairs to find a pair of canvas gloves to put on, Su Qirong saw it, and said, "Are you going to move things?" Daddy going to help you out? ”

Su Siqi sighed and said, "No, you don't usually open that drawer to breathe, it's all moldy!" I can't do it at all. ”

Su Qirong looked helpless: "You are really difficult to serve, open it, say that I peeked at your secret, didn't open it, and blame me for not ventilating your drawer." ”

Su Siqi laughed, patted him on the shoulder and went upstairs.

Although there is mold, after all, it is a diary, and I don't feel at ease if I throw it away, think about it, carefully take it out one by one, and then wipe the mold clean with a damp rag, put it in a plastic basket, and prepare to take it to the rooftop to dry, if the sun is good, it should be better for a few days.

Su Siqi looked at these records of her psychological journey from elementary school to college, and sighed, the first twenty years of her life were all condensed in these twelve diaries.

She remembers that the diary of elementary school was a bit gray, and she always felt pitiful, her father was pitiful, and the home without her mother was too deserted. When she reached middle school, the style of painting completely changed, she didn't feel pitiful at all, and hated the sympathy of others for her the most, because her father gave her double love, although she didn't have a mother, she was also very happy, and she didn't lack anything that other children had, and her words were full of pride and pride in her father. At this time, she is very independent, strong, and has a lot of smiles, but with a thorn in her body, whoever dares to touch her bottom line will end up miserable. And when I got to college, I wrote a lot about the love affair that was just beginning to open.

She caressed through the diaries, thinking that one day she would take the time to go through the old days again and look back. Of course, she didn't plan to open the diary from college, because she didn't want to see Lin Haonan's name again.

The diary was all taken out, but there was an iron box at the bottom, a pink square box, on which a slanted red plum was drawn, black branches, and a little red flower, which looked very charming.

She didn't remember that she still had such a box, so she was quite surprised, as if she had found some treasure, and she was very happy. I couldn't wait to open it, and it was full of treasures, including beads, bracelets, hairpins, headbands, nail polish, lipstick, pens, and makeup mirrors......

There are the most strings of beads, all of which are red, long, short, solid, and with other gemstones sandwiched, which is very beautiful.

She thinks it should be agate, because the artificial beads are put for a long time, the color inside will run away, she once bought a bracelet in the scenic spot, the shopkeeper swore that it was tourmaline, but not long after wearing it, the colorful beads all became transparent colors. But these beads are very good in color, moist like a puddle of water, and even the skin is shining on the hand.

Su Siqi has seen a little bit of the world in the past few years, and knows that this kind of agate with a feel and color should not be a bargain, so she is very surprised, I don't know how she has these things, in the past, she was so poor that she could only buy dozens of artificial beads!

The contents of this box were well preserved, probably sealed, and there was no musty smell at all, and she took the things out as well, and found a handkerchief, which was opened to be a large piece, as if it was used by men, and this thing made her feel familiar, a large pale checkered, with dark lines on the cloth, and it looked very high-class.

She recognized that only Shen Mengqing used a handkerchief among the people, and his handkerchief seemed to be like this!

Su Siqi sat on the edge of the bed, looking at the handkerchief in a daze. It seems that there is still a picture of a handkerchief, and she doesn't remember.

What is it? What did she forget?

She took the handkerchief under her nose and smelled it, but there was no smell, she thought as she folded all sorts of things, flowers, clothes, lanterns, mice, rabbits...... When she turned out the rabbit ears, she suddenly remembered a scene: the rain was pouring down, she was sitting on the ground in a daze, her knees were bleeding, and I didn't know where a person came out, and took out a handkerchief from her pocket to bandage her injured leg......

That handkerchief...... Exactly like this one, she quickly turned on the lamp, and held the handkerchief under the light to check inch by inch, there might be any stains left. But no, the handkerchief was clean and clean, and there was no dirty mark at all.

This doesn't mean anything, and after washing it off, of course, no dirty marks will be left.

That image had also appeared in her mind before, and she had always thought it was a dream, but now the appearance of this handkerchief made her feel that things were not so coincidental.

After the accident, she thought about it a lot and felt a lot, but every time she thought of Shen Mengqing, she stopped, and she didn't want to think about it anymore. She didn't know why? It's like it's a taboo that can't be touched. Now the appearance of this mysterious handkerchief makes it impossible for her to bypass Shen Mengqing anymore.

When she was in the detention center, she had always been puzzled about one thing, why did she only have anger in her heart and no sadness? The pain when she broke up with Lin Haonan for the first time is still fresh in her memory, why was she hurt so badly by him this time, but she didn't have that feeling that she couldn't live?

Does she still love Lin Haonan in the end? Why always avoid his affection, why is there always a lack of enthusiasm for him? Why does it feel different than before?

At first, she thought that it was because they had been separated for too long, the two had their own changes, and they still needed to run in, but then found out that it was not, every time Lin Haonan wanted to kiss her, Shen Mengqing's shadow always appeared in her mind, and she avoided it as if it was a conditioned reflex. Every time she went to see Shen Mengqing, she was so nervous that her heart was pounding, she was always stupidly led by his nose in front of him, she thought she was afraid of him, but in the end, Shen Mengqing was so angry with her that she was like thunder.

Even if she refuses to admit it, she can't lie to herself, she likes Shen Mengqing. But she was afraid, afraid to fall in love with him from now on, he had so many women, where would he take her to heart? So she wanted to run away, and Lin Haonan was her best excuse. She successfully deceived herself, Lin Haonan, and Shen Mengqing, and finally fell into this kind of field.

Shen Mengqing is a noble person in her life, and she has helped her countless times, but they are not suitable, she has always known it, so she is careful not to let herself fall in love with him, but she often walks by the river, how can she not get her feet wet. It's been more than three years, and before you know it, she's sinking.

In fact, thinking about it carefully, Shen Mengqing really let her give and ask for her.

Many times, she stumbled in the predicament of reality, her head was bleeding, and in the most helpless situation, she would always think of him, so she begged with a shy face, knowing that he would definitely help her. There is no way back, and he can also make her desperate. In this way, it gradually became a habit, although he was always impatient with her and always disliked her, but she knew that he would help her, as long as she spoke, he would help her.

He has always stood silently in that place, helping her block the storms of life and helping her hold up a clear and bright sky.

She is always stupid in front of him, exposing her weakest and most helpless side in front of him, no matter how embarrassed she is, because ...... Just because he likes her.

Once they quarreled, Shen Mengqing said: "Su Siqi, you just rely on me to like you!" ”

When she heard that, she felt a stab in her heart, but she refused to admit it. But she knew he was right.

She always knew that he liked her, but he was not her lover, and the distance between them was too far for her to expect.

This time, she knew that it was dangerous, and she might really stay in prison for the rest of her life. But she refused to beg him, knowing that he had always been there, and that if she turned back, as long as she spoke, he would once again save her from misery as before, but she did not want to do that.

She was to blame for everything, and she didn't want to let him see her embarrassment after hurting him.

In this life, she only wants to look at him from afar, watch him admired, watch him high-spirited, and watch him fly higher and higher in his world...... She will spend the rest of her life looking at him from afar and blessing him.