Chapter 126: Unbearable
Next to the dilapidated carriage on the outskirts of Beijing, Song Zhan's body was separated, and blood was bubbling out, and the gifts he brought back to everyone were scattered around, including the crab shell green Chengni inkstone that Song Yan wanted in his heart.
Song Yan can almost remember the smell of blood at that time, and he said: "I was so scared that I didn't dare to tell your grandmother, so I asked someone to go to your uncle for advice." When your uncle came, he said, "Let me kill all those who know about it, and then go back and tell your grandmother that I am the only one who has escaped and ascended to heaven...... So I ...... O iniquity, I was confused for a while, and I listened to your uncle's words......"
Song Yuning was almost stunned, opened her mouth but couldn't speak. She looked at her father, who blamed herself and felt guilty, and she couldn't even say words of comfort. She stared at him blankly, her lips almost lost blood, and it took a while for her voice to find her voice: "Father...... Kill all the people who followed you to pick up the third uncle? ”
"Yes...... All killed, the corpses are mixed with your third uncle's people......" Song Yan kept carrying his shoulders, as if he was pressed by sin and couldn't raise his head: "Then your uncle left quietly, and I ran all the way back to the house to tell your grandmother that we met thieves, and I was the only one who escaped......"
Song Yuning's heart almost jumped out of her throat. "Grandmother...... I don't know until now? ”
Song Yan shook his head: "I don't know, if she knows, maybe the Song Mansion doesn't even have a place for me......"
Song Yuning's face was white and almost transparent, her lips trembled uncontrollably, and she asked, "Father didn't dare to compete with the big house for so many years, is it because of this?" ”
"Yes......" Song Yan was ashamed, and didn't dare to raise his head in front of his daughter, just like he had deliberately ignored his wife Li for many years, for fear that she would ask about the reason for the incident back then. Compared with your uncle, I am close to your third uncle's age, we grew up together since childhood, and the relationship is the best, although your third uncle is a few years younger than me, he thinks about me everywhere and lets me. It's because I'm sorry for you and him, and I don't have the face to fight for this family business...... I have nightmares every night, and I can only barely survive by being drunk and dreaming all day...... Ah Ning, I'm a sinner...... Your father is a useless bastard! ”
Song Yuning didn't expect that things would be like this back then...... She breathed deeply, and deeply, desperately trying to remove the fear from her body. However, she was unsuccessful. She wanted to say, 'Father, it's not your fault. But for a long time, I didn't find a suitable reason to do such a consolation.
Song Yan's eyes were full of tears, he looked at his daughter's pale and frightened face, and muttered: "Ah Ning, it's the father's incompetence that has caused you and your mother to be looked down upon along with me......"
Song Yuning didn't react to what this meant at first, but then she understood and staggered back two steps. Oh, yes...... Since the eldest uncle knows about this, does the rest of the big house also know about it? must know, at least Song Yuheng must know...... It's no wonder that the second room has such a big handle in their hands...... Song Yuheng is so fearless, he never obstructs himself in currying favor in front of his grandmother......
It turned out that their second room, including her, turned out to be fish on someone else's chopping board......
She slumped into the chair behind her, her eyes blank and empty.
Song Yan was taken aback when she saw her expression, and hurriedly went to Song Yuning and asked, "Ah Ning, are you ...... What happened to you? He immediately regretted that although his daughter was wiser than others, she was still a child, how could he tell her such a thing? He sighed in a deep voice, and his worries about his daughter slightly dispelled the previous regrets, and gradually separated his thoughts from the pain of the past. "Ah Ning, can't you forgive your father too? The second room fell into the way it is today, it's all my father's fault......"
Song Yuning's mind was blank, imagining the bloody case that happened in the suburbs of Beijing that day, and the details of what his father said echoed in his ears over and over again. Suddenly thinking of the letter she saw in the Evergreen Pavilion today, she grabbed Song Yan's sleeve and asked, "Father!" Have you seen a piece of blood jade in the relics of the third uncle? ”
Song Yan was stunned for a moment and said, "What blood jade?" ”
Song Yuning thought for a while and asked again: "Didn't my father say that the third uncle brought a lot of things back with him, and there was a piece of blood jade among them?" ”
"No, since your third uncle was looted by bandits, how could the gold, silver and jade be left? The rest of the things are mostly calligraphy and paintings. There are also inkstones, paperweights and other things sporadically. The thief must not have known the value of these things, or he thought they were easily recognizable, so he did not take them with them. How could Ah Ning ask about this, and what was the matter with the blood jade? ”
Song Yuning pondered for a moment, and then told Song Yan in detail what he saw and guessed today. Song Yan was stunned for a long time and said, "Among those corpses, there are two women, but they are just maidservants. He thought for a while, frowned, and said: "When you say this, it's indeed a little strange, your third uncle has a neat temperament, and he is not a person who is greedy for pleasure, and he is bitter and tired when he goes out to travel, how can he take his maidservant to increase trouble?" ”
Therefore, these two handmaidens are more likely to belong to someone else, and they are women. Could it be that before her father got there, the third uncle desperately fought for her a chance to survive, so that she could escape with the child in her arms? ”
Song Yan was thoughtful, and Song Yuning gradually calmed down.
Before, she thought that it was a bad thing for Sanfang to have descendants, but now she suddenly felt that this event was a good thing. Anyway, their second room has been held in the hands of the big house, and there is no day to turn over at all, so it is better to take the initiative to admit to grandmother what happened back then, and inform grandmother of Ji Erlan's existence, even if they can't get forgiveness, at least they can't move without others pinching it in their palms. She said, "Father, did you say you would protect your daughter?" ”
Song Yan vaguely guessed what she wanted to say, nodded and said, "Naturally, what else does my father have to lose?" Only your mother and daughter are willing to follow your father and suffer from the eyes of others. ”
Song Yuning walked up to Song Yan and knelt down, and said, "Father, instead of being held in the palm of your hand by your eldest uncle, it is better to ...... Tell your grandmother everything. What could be the worst? Could it be that grandmother will really break off the mother-son relationship with you? Anyway, you are also her biological flesh and blood, she has lost her third uncle, do you want to lose you again? ”
This kind of life of being controlled by others and unable to get ahead, Song Yan didn't want him to end, but the guilt and self-blame over the years made him only know how to escape numbly. It wasn't until what Li said today that he suddenly woke him up. His A Ning has grown up, and he will be married in a few years, and he will be bullied at this time, and he will not have the support of his mother's family in front of his husband, what should he do? "What if your grandmother really broke off the mother-son relationship with me? Father deserves it, but what should you and your mother do? ”
Song Yuning gritted her teeth and said, "Father, the third uncle didn't die at your hands...... Even if you arrived in time at that time, it is unknown whether you can save the third uncle, and maybe even you will suffer together...... Grandmother should be glad she didn't lose you! ”
Song Yan looked at her flower-like daughter in a daze, took a deep breath, and said, "What Ah Ning said is that instead of living like this, it is better to accept the guilt happily. It's just that...... The matter of the blood jade is still uncertain, if your grandmother hears that your third uncle has a queen, but in the end it is not, wouldn't it be empty of joy? ”
Song Yuning thought about it in her heart and said, "Father's words are wrong. Whether it is right or not should be left to the grandmother to judge. What's more, my father didn't know if the third uncle had also explained something to his grandmother before. What if Grandmother knew more clues? If it is true that Ji Erlan is the daughter of the third uncle, she can also recognize her ancestors and return to her ancestors as soon as possible, and make her grandmother happy. ”
Song Yuning's thoughts in her heart were very clear, Ji Erlan was not a person, because of Song Yaoxian's affairs, there was a mustard between her and the Song family's big house. Therefore, if she returns to the Song family, there will be no loss in the second room, and Ji Erlan is just a daughter anyway. But it is a strong rival for the big house.
Song Yuning saw that his father had been shaken, and continued: "My father has concealed this matter for more than ten years, isn't it just an opportunity to explain the truth? Otherwise, my grandmother would have thought that my father was doing something else......"
Song Yan fell silent for a while.
His mother has a strong temperament, suspicious and cautious by nature, and after so many years of rustiness and mustardiness, will he be easily forgiven for his momentary confession and begging? If he reveals the truth inexplicably, maybe his mother will think that he is for the family business, for the second room, for his wife and daughter, and will never think that he is sincerely repentant.
Song Yuning said: "Father believes in his daughter this time, no matter whether Ji Erlan is the daughter of the third uncle or not, there is always a chance that there will be nine times out of ten, right?" In this case, even if you are wrong, your grandmother will not blame you, and she will be soft-hearted for your merits and good intentions. You're her own son after all! ”
Song Yan muttered: "Ah Ning is right, but before that, my father must first confirm Ji Erlan's identity. His gaze became complicated, if the dead third brother Song Zhan really had a daughter, then what face should he use to see her? After a moment, he asked: "You said, back then, the Qin family took their congenitally deficient daughter to Nuluo Nunnery to pray for blessings, right?" ”
Song Yuning nodded and asked, "Father wants to check it himself?" ”
Song Yan said: "Since you want to be honest with your grandmother, you must first clarify the matter. One possibility is that your third uncle's woman escaped with the child in her arms, and the Qin family saved Ji Erlan Li Dai Taozhuang, who was carrying blood jade. There is also a possibility that the Qin family is involved in the person who killed your third uncle, and the blood hosta was obtained from the murderer. ”
Song Yuning was stunned, indeed, she didn't think of the latter possibility. But whether it is to find the descendants of the third uncle or to find the clues of the murderer, it is beneficial to them. It's just that for the Qin family and Ji Erlan, it is a blessing and a curse. If Ji Erlan is not the descendant of the third uncle, and the Song family cannot find the murderer of the third uncle, it is likely to transfer the anger to the Qin family and Ji Erlan.
Everything, just depends on Ji Erlan's life.