Chapter 189: Dream Words Pierce the Heart
Ma Shuo walked into the room lightly and sat on his own bed, Hu Xianxian leaned against the door, and they quietly listened to Cheng Haofeng's whispering.
He lay on his side, his lips twitched, and said, "Laboring hard is empty, and when you get it, you ...... in a dream."
As he spoke, he spoke loudly, not like he was talking in a dream, but really talking to someone. People who don't know will think that he is pretending to be asleep, but Hu Xianxian knows that it is a sign that he is in a state of confusion and unstable soul.
"I know that after all, I am 'bothering to work for nothing, and when I get it in a dream', it is a futile ...... When I was in Qingqiu Kingdom, I saw the last heavenly thunder, and I already understood......"
"That's not the evil thunder, it's caused by spatial shock, and it's deliberately caused by the shock to punish you! It's punishing you...... But it's warning me......"
"They know I won't watch you be crushed to pieces, and they know I'll take on a portion of the thunder for you. They...... It's just warning me that even if I break through the undersea holy realm, it will only be an inevitable process of space merging...... I'm just going to do it straight and stiff......"
As he spoke, the expression on his face became a little angry: "I still can't change any results...... Instead, he helped Zang Xuanjiao solve a problem that they couldn't solve...... They have long wanted to occupy the Undersea Sacred Realm! Hmph, I'm not going to let them get their way...... Even if you can't reverse everything, you can't let them take advantage of it so hard......"
After saying this, he was silent for a long time, sometimes holding his head tightly with his hands, and sometimes lying upright as if he was not breathing.
Hu Xianxian's heart was tense and wanted to probe his snort, but he spoke in a low voice.
"I don't dare to meditate anymore, I have a splitting headache when I practice...... It's time to disappear so soon......"
"I don't want to give up, I really don't want to give up...... I think I'm already capable of splitting space, even if it's a small space, so can't it just be just the two of us in it? ”
"As soon as the soul melts, I will take you to our own space, even if it is only for one day, one hour......"
"I don't expect to be a relatively independent mirror fantasy space like Qingqiu Country, I just want to talk to you...... Speak well, even if I am destined to disappear, I can go with peace of mind...... Dissipate without resentment against all that is in the heavens and the earth......"
Hu Xianxian remembered what he said before the two of them fought, it turned out that he had misunderstood him, and tears welled up in his eyes. She quickly covered her mouth to keep herself from crying, and once she woke him, it was impossible for him to say any more.
His brows furrowed, and his nose furrowed aggrievedly: "You don't even want to listen to me, you always refuse to believe me...... I really don't know how to talk to you, I just want you to stay with me......"
"You're the Seventh Senior Sister...... It's a dream of mine...... After all, there will be no one in this world, I am the person, how can it be you? Why do you think it's me who wants you to disappear? Whether you're in vain or not, you're just a dream of mine......"
"I just want to leave this world with a dream, I know that Hu Xianxian hates me, that's why I want you to combine souls and practice clones...... I still have a choice, right? Maybe the other one you don't hate me? I really didn't want you to disappear, I just thought you didn't want to accompany me...... You are so strong, you will definitely face the arrangement of fate calmly and take on the mission of the eternal realm......"
"You will definitely be strong to take on the mission, laugh at me for being cowardly...... You are stronger than Bai Huifeng, she can be a mortal for all beings in the world, and you will not be willing to accompany me, a coward. I'm a selfish and cowardly person, and I really don't want to leave no trace of myself in this world......"
"I thought it would be good to let you take on the mission with a strong person, and then share one of your clones with me, I thought it was the best of both worlds...... But why are you hitting me? ”
He suddenly curled up and said with a crying voice, "Do you blame me for being too stingy, too selfish, and not manly? It must be...... You are so ruthless, do you think that 'hating iron does not make steel'? Master often said to me, 'I really hate iron but not steel,'......"
"Where have you been? And just like that, it's gone...... I thought about it for a long time...... You're on your way to another world. There is no one more fit to reach eternity than you, how could they possibly make you disappear......"
"I really understand that even if I can split the space, I don't want to take you away...... When I went back to Yizhuang, I cursed God all the way......"
As he spoke, he cried out: "I know that I should not exist in this world, I have tried to owe as little as possible to this piece of heaven, this piece of land, I don't want to ask for anything...... I wore my own linen preaching robes, which I planted, knitted, and sewed, and I used bamboo hairpins to pull my hair...... I will never owe a penny to this hateful heaven and earth! I'm going to disappear myself, I'm not going to be in this world......"
Ma Shuo's eyes were red when he heard this, he got up and walked to the door and whispered to Hu Xianxian: "Why can't he think about it so much...... What doesn't owe heaven and earth...... It is said that it is better to die than to live, is he angry to die to make it like this? ”
Hu Xianxian couldn't cry anymore, she covered her face with her hands and kept shaking her head, Ma Shuo didn't understand what she meant, so she had to sigh softly on the side.
He said repeatedly, "I just want her to accompany me......
Hu Xianxian rushed to the side of the bed, half-knelt on the ground and held him, saying, "I just thought that if I didn't disappear, Bai Huifeng wouldn't be able to come back......"
Cheng Haofeng's curled body suddenly straightened, Hu Xianxian thought he was going to wake up, and he lay on his side again.
He was still talking, and his voice was much calmer, "There are footprints on the grass ash behind the house, I know that they are spies sent by the Ghost King...... I knew something was going to happen, but I wasn't conscious, and I couldn't figure out what was going to happen......"
Hu Xianxian remembered that there was a strong smell of grass ash around this Yizhuang, but he didn't expect that this was his trick to prevent spies.
"The beasts they want me to blackmail me just want me to help them control the black ball...... They also want me to help them stabilize the space for the black ball...... Though I hate all that is in the heavens and the earth, I do not want to be ...... them as a spear."
"I know you don't want to see the lives of you, how can I be your enemy......
His expression became worried again: "The Ghost King's intention is not only to blackmail me, but also to blackmail you. When you are relieved of the unjust soul, their power is weakened, and they can take advantage of the opportunity to seize you and coerce you...... It turns out that they have known for a long time that you can reach the realm of eternity......"
Hu Xianxian suddenly remembered what he said when he first met Mo Jinmian by the Mojiang River, and remembered what Zang Xuanjiao said when Bai Huifeng fought Zang Xuanjiao, it turned out that they had always wanted to let themselves do things for them.
If they do succeed against the odds, they will also want to dominate forever. To maintain the balance of space forever, it is also necessary to have an eternal state of mind.
Hu Xianxian's tears stopped, he had been running around in a daze, thinking that he understood everything but making a big misunderstanding. But Cheng Haofeng has been worrying about these things, and he didn't understand it at all, so what right did he have to cry?
Cheng Haofeng said and smiled bitterly, "They didn't expect you to suddenly reunite again, right?" ”
"I didn't expect it either...... How so...... Things may be more complicated than I thought...... I couldn't understand all the truths even with all my might......"
"It was only after taking those souls to the underworld and suffering from the twenty-one deaths and then lives that I was completely willing to believe that I really should not have survived...... The fact that I can attract the souls of so many people at the same time is not because I have high mana, but because I can just absorb their souls together, I am a thousand strands of love, and all sentient things can be adsorbed ......"
Ma Shuo's mouth pursed, "Love? How can a big man be in love? “
Hu Xianxian agreed indifferently: "He is the love thread condensed by all the sentient things in the red dust." If he dies this time, it is impossible for him to be reborn in the world, and he will be scattered again into a thousand threads of love between heaven and earth......"
Ma Shuo's mouth was wide enough to stuff an egg, he didn't know how to express his doubts, and finally closed his mouth after opening it for a long time.
The sky was slightly bright, and pillars of light penetrated through the windows, and Cheng Haofeng was still waking up like a dream: "I was born to summon small birds and beasts just because they are also sentient beings. Zang Xuanjiao's people and ghost kings also coerced me repeatedly because of my natural skills, and they didn't dare to kill me...... Only I can control the beasts of the Black Ball......"
"I can even command beasts, why don't I always know what you're thinking...... I didn't know when you were in vain, and I didn't know it later...... If you can't understand, stay away, you'll forget about me sooner or later......"
He said it very indifferently, but in an instant, he asked with grievances: "How can you really be cruel to me...... You really want me dead, don't you...... If you knew this was the case, why did you ...... in the first place? Why bother so much in the first place? Why bother......"
"Why bother, why bother? If you knew this, you should have exploded and died in the world! “
As he spoke, he whimpered, "You didn't listen to me and made it clear...... But when I wanted to retreat, I threw a flying needle at you, exactly in the direction you could avoid...... I only parry with my hands and feet to protect myself, I don't use weapons......"
"It's good to use your hands and feet to parry, I'm afraid it will really hurt you...... Parrying with your hands and feet will also have a countershock force when it hits you, and I will hurt myself a few points if I hurt you a little...... If you slap someone, your hand will hurt, but if you stab someone with a knife, will the knife hurt? ”
Hu Xianxian wanted to stop crying, but tears unconsciously overflowed his eyes. The scene of beating him that day reappeared in front of him, he was really ruthless, even if he had to force him to do it, why couldn't he punch and kick? The ancestor left behind an artifact, and one of them can make ordinary people in the Dao Sect show off their might, and he actually used all three of them on him!
The Huixin jade sword stabbed him, the fog was hidden and the net trapped him, and the red snow whisked the dust even harder! I didn't use the magic weapon so well when I was fighting the enemy, but I used all my brains on him!
Hu Xianxian's eyes were overlapping phantoms, she really wanted to grab one of the phantoms and go back to that time, and cut off her own hand!
A huge tear fell from the corner of Cheng Haofeng's eyes, "I don't want to fight you, I accepted your magic weapon, and you still won't stop...... Why do you hate me like that...... How can you hate me like that...... Why don't you want to think about why I didn't use these weapons to beat you when I could have taken your magic weapons......
"Well, anyway, you're going to forget about me sooner or later...... Maybe this will make you forget a little faster......"
Hu Xianxian felt that her internal organs were about to explode, she cried and shook him awake, "I was afraid that you wouldn't be able to bear to beat me, so I forced you to make a move...... I thought that in this way, you could destroy me with peace of mind and go to live a free life with Bai Huifeng. I really didn't know how things were at the time, I was carried away by jealousy, I always thought that you just wanted to go back in time and see Bai Huifeng, I didn't know that you wanted to turn back time to change the final outcome. I don't even know that the final result of the Eternal Realm is not only related to Bai Huifeng, but also to me......"
Cheng Haofeng opened his eyes slightly, and his gaze fell on Hu Xianxian with desolation and surprise.
She laughed self-deprecatingly and tearfully said, "Do you believe that there are fools in the world who are jealous of themselves? “
Cheng Haofeng shook his head lightly, looked at Ma Shuo with a gloomy face, and asked him: "Why didn't you wake me up earlier?" ”
Cheng Haofeng struggled to get up and coldly withdrew his hand from Hu Xianxian's hand. The tears in the corners of his eyes were still there, but he said coldly: "Miss Hu, the sky is getting bright, are you ready to make plans?" The affairs of Qingqiu Country are not over yet. ”
Ma Shuo opened his mouth to explain, and Hu Xianxian walked out of the house silently. Ma Shuo pointed at Cheng Haofeng and said "sigh", and went to stop Hu Xianxian.
Ma Shuo asked Hu Xianxian how he could bear to go, Hu Xianxian lowered his head and said, "I should go, how can such a vicious woman as me deserve to stay with him...... I'm gone, and he might be able to spend his last days in peace......"
Cheng Haofeng told Ma Shuo to prepare the potion quickly, don't stop Hu Xianxian, Ma Shuo was so angry that he beat his chest.
Seeing Ma Shuo's appearance, Cheng Haofeng comforted him: "You don't have to feel sorry for me. You don't know, I'm self-inflicted, everything is self-inflicted. From the beginning, it was destined that I should suffer, and I tried again and again to change. If you think about it, in the face of ignorant and ruthless people, wouldn't a person who has been reborn with a thousand threads of love only ask for hardship in whatever he does? “
Ma Shuo patted his head with his hand, "What did I create?" How did you run into these two enemies? He shook his head a few times and still didn't understand what they were talking about, but he felt uncomfortable thinking about what Cheng Haofeng said, so he persuaded again.
Cheng Haofeng turned a deaf ear to his words, and when he turned around, he saw that Hu Xianxian was about to fly away when he walked into the courtyard, and shouted anxiously: "He's all down to this point, can't you do something for him?" ”
Hu Xianxian had already flown far away from the wind, and her cold and hard voice came from the air: "Don't you understand? No matter what I do, I'm going to hurt him by mistake! ”