Chapter 364: I'm Not Worthy
"What I'm going to tell you next is a painful past that I can't look back on, and I once ...... I paid a terrible price for this, and I also committed sins that I will not be able to forgive myself for the rest of my life. ”
Song Meixin's tone of voice was choked when she said this, but she seemed to be just infected by her emotions and didn't care about the questions and questions posted by netizens on the screen.
After hiding her face with her hands and trying to adjust her breath, she raised her head again, faced the camera and said, "This is an unbearable past that I have always wanted to forget but can never forget for the rest of my life."
At the age of seventeen, I was ...... by several What I thought was a good buddy QJ, in a dark alley......
I cried and screamed, but they didn't let me go.
I went home the next morning, and after being bullied, I didn't dare to tell anyone, I didn't dare to say anything.
Later, I became pregnant unmarried and gave birth to a child, but I ...... who the father of the child was. I don't know! ”
As soon as Song Meixin's words came out, the entire live broadcast room was about to explode.
The people who eat melons were caught off guard and were stuffed with a big melon, what is the situation?
Song Meixin was a little sister before she was seventeen years old, she was once QJ, and she gave birth to a wild seed who didn't know who her biological father was?
Oh my god, that's too much information, right? I've never heard of it before!
It's jaw-dropping!
On the screen of the live broadcast room, the barrage almost filled the computer screen.
And Jiang Ruotong, who was watching the live broadcast, also subconsciously clenched her fists, looking shocked, completely unable to believe that Song Meixin's body had suffered such a terrible and painful injury.
So, her half-brother Ji Yunting was pregnant and gave birth to her after being like that?!
Jiang Ruotong's mind seemed to have been violently impacted by some kind of force, his eyes instantly reddened, and tears fell involuntarily.
Seeing this, Wei Chun just gently held her shoulder and hugged her into his arms.
At this time, who was also sitting in front of the computer and watching Song Meixin do a live broadcast, there was also Jiang Ruotong's half-brother Ji Yunting.
Ji Yunting has never heard his origin from Song Meixin's mouth, he doesn't know who his biological father is, and he is not interested in knowing who the other party is.
When he was young, he knew that he was not loved or needed, and his biological mother, Song Meixin, wished that she had never given birth to him.
is also because he was abandoned since he was a child and was regarded as a burden that should not exist, he only has resentment towards Song Meixin, and he has no expectations and desires for the biological father who abandoned Song Meixin but left him behind.
He thought that he was just an irresponsible product of Song Meixin after messing with a man when she was young, but he didn't want to think that his birth was so unbearable!
He's a kind of QJ prisoner left behind!
No wonder Song Meixin hates him so much and abuses him like that!
Ji Yunting's whole body was trembling, his heart seemed to be on the verge of deflagration, his body was extremely angry, his bloodshot eyes, and the center of his pupils seemed to be brewing a storm, which could absorb people anytime and anywhere, and then smash them hard.
In the live broadcast room, Song Meixin's confession continued.
She told that after she gave birth to that child, she often abused the innocent child because of resentment, and later, because of the unfortunate death of her biological parents, she suffered from depression and once wanted to die with the child.
Song Meixin said that she really almost strangled her son to death, but at the last moment, she came to her senses and stopped her hand.
Later, in order for the child to grow up in a healthy environment, she gave her own son to a distant relative for adoption, she said that she knew that at that time, she was completely incapable of raising a child, giving him a good life and education, and the child would only suffer if he followed her.
Later, Song Meixin said that she had changed her mind and looked for a job, she worked as a cleaner in a teahouse, distributed flyers on the street, sold beer, and sold movie tickets.
Because of a chance, Song Meixin saw that a TV station in Haicheng was recruiting actor training classes, and she went to participate in the interview with the attitude of trying it out, but she didn't expect to be lucky to be selected.
After that, she became a contracted actress on the TV station and began to play small roles in some crews.
Gradually, Song Meixin became a supporting actress from a dragon set, and began to serve as an important female third and female second in some dramas.
I met Liu Shengzhe when I co-made a movie with him, and Song Meixin didn't know that Liu Shengzhe was a family man at that time.
The two played a couple in the movie, but because they were too deep in the play, they turned out to be a real show, and they began to develop a romantic relationship in private.
Liu Shengzhe is a Malaysian-Chinese actor who did not bring his wife and children when he was working hard in Haicheng.
Therefore, when Song Meixin developed an intimate relationship with him, Liu Shengzhe did not be honest with her, which indirectly caused Song Meixin to bear the reputation of a 'third party interference', and was abandoned from the beginning to the end, and was banned and spurned by TV stations and media audiences, and had no place to stand in Haicheng.
Song Meixin said that she wanted to commit suicide by jumping into the sea at that time, she felt that her life had no hope, no light, and her life was ruined by men.
She said she was standing on the shore and was about to jump when the child in the stomach kicked her several times.
It was because of these kicks that she finally gave up the idea of suicide.
She couldn't bear to kill the innocent life in her belly, and then, she went to Suicheng and gave birth to her second child in Suicheng, which was exposed, her biological daughter Jiang Ruotong.
Song Meixin said that she was actually mentally prepared to raise her daughter by herself, but at that time, she did not withstand the temptation.
There was a pregnant woman in the same ward, who gave up a place to study abroad, Song Meixin learned that the school was to study the acting department, and the opportunity was rare, after some weighing, she was ruthless, and decided to give up this child who could tie her hands and feet, restrict her development, and make her unable to turn over.
When Song Meixin talked about her move back then, she cried bitterly, and she couldn't cry at the camera in the live broadcast room: "I've always felt guilty...... I'm ....... Regret!
The sins I have committed in this life will send me to hell, but ...... This is what I deserve, if Hitomi is not wrong, I am not worthy of being a mother, I am not worthy! ”
Song Meixin cried loudly in the live broadcast room, and the original netizens' doubts and abuses against her gradually disappeared from the screen, replaced by sympathy and comfort!