Although Empress Shen didn't know how long this long-term boundary was, she knew that as long as she kept getting used to her, she would eventually get used to it, after all, she had endured so many years of hardship, and when she was lonely, there was no one around her, even the people she loved didn't like it, so she survived like this. What is it, it is nothing but pain.

But when she felt most fortunate, she hadn't eaten much sweetness over the years, otherwise she might not be able to get used to this kind of pain now, and the most painful thing is not to let the person who has eaten sweetness give him a hard slap again, which is the most painful. People like her, who have never been sweet, as long as they give her a trace of sweetness, they can be all satisfied, so even if it hurts, it doesn't matter, anyway, it's the same as before.

Although she thought so in her heart, she couldn't see how desperate her expression was, so she didn't know what others thought, she just kept telling herself in her heart that things had developed like this, and she must not let others look down on her anymore, she could be a person without anything else, and her dignity must be kept to the death.

Love is something outside the body, there is no such thing as nothing, she has been forced for so many years, and in the end it is also a bamboo basket for nothing, no matter how hard she presses, she will not get any good results, she has given up, and it is good that the emperor's feelings are buried deep in her heart, after all, there is no way for the person she loves not to love her, so many years, she has not worked hard, but her own character has always been like this, but she can't get the love of others, what's the use?

Today is also the end for her.

All of this is telling her not to be entangled in a fruitless relationship anymore, Li Ting will not like her, and she will not like her in this life and the next.

So let all these mistakes have their own results, let's end it, she has already been strong enough to become a queen with such a temperament, and the reason why she was able to sit in the position of queen in peace was also because her feelings for Li Ting were too strong, just because she had a falling out with a former friend.

Thinking about it now, she felt that everyone around her had seen the final outcome clearly, she was the only one who was deeply involved in it, and she couldn't see it clearly, how could the emperor like her, it was really ridiculous, but now she only wanted to sneer a few words when she thought about it, and felt ridiculous for her so many years of innocent dedication, who took it seriously? She's the only one who takes it seriously.

If the emperor had the slightest liking for her, then the current scene would not be like this, so why bother with her to find evidence to prove herself! For the person she likes, she has subconscious trust and no doubt, even if she likes it a little bit, she doesn't have to fall into the current predicament, but the final result can only prove that the emperor really doesn't love her.

After so many years, she is still full of distrust in her.

She knew that she shouldn't blame Li Ting, what was this, but he didn't like to be afraid, how could she get a good result if she forced this kind of thing?

It's just that she complained in her heart, did she really not get the slightest return for her feelings for him over the years? Is Li Ting really that cold-blooded? Even if a pet accompanies him, he will have a little affection for so many years, but she is a living person who has been by Li Ting's side for so many years, and she has such strong feelings, can Li Ting really not feel it?

No, you can't feel it? Or are you unwilling to give him the same affection? I'm afraid the answer is the latter, he is unwilling to give her such feelings, in the end it is because he doesn't like her.

Oh, it's sad and ridiculous, what is my unhesitating dedication and companionship over the years? It's really ridiculous, no matter who listens to this matter, they think it's ridiculous, a queen has been by the emperor's side for so many years, and she can't get any emotion.

That's right! She is a dignified queen who is not as good as other concubines, and she can only see the emperor on the fifteenth of the month, but what about other concubines, which one has more grace than her? And what's the use of seeing the emperor that night? Li Ting's expression sometimes really made her can't help but say, "If the emperor doesn't want to come over, just leave first." ”

But damn it, she was reluctant to see the emperor once a month and let her leave, even if she was selfish, seeing Li Ting's unhappy appearance, she also wanted to be able to take a good look at him by his side, and after a month of not seeing him, she would also worry about whether he said that he was uncomfortable, although she knew that the probability of this was very small, because after all, there were other concubines who could take good care of him, but in the end she would still be worried if she didn't stay by his side all the time, because that was the person she liked.

Now it seems that all this is her one-sided self-inflicted passion, and she suddenly realizes now that she has lived in vain for so many years, but what if she does it again? I'm afraid she will do this, after all, when she fell into that relationship, she already knew that she was finished, the relationship of the Son of Heaven's family was the most terrible, and falling in love with the emperor was the most terrible thing, but she just let her meet, otherwise she would not have become the queen with such an indifferent temperament.

She never liked to stay in the harem, this atmosphere made her feel a little suffocated, but the person she loved was in this harem, he was the emperor, so if she wanted to be a little closer to him, she had to be a concubine, but who knew that she would become the queen like that! But no one told her that even if she became queen, the person she loved would most likely not come to see her, and that's it, only one day of the month was worth looking forward to, and the rest of the days were spent in endless waiting and insomnia.

She couldn't sleep, she couldn't sleep when she thought of the emperor.

Those days were too painful, the long nights were long, but she could only keep her eyes open until dawn, and she sometimes felt a little hopeless, when would such days end? But I just can't sleep.

She knew that if Li Ting came to accompany her, she would definitely be able to fall asleep, but how could she say such words, what kind of identity did a queen take to say such things?

If she said this to the emperor, then she would definitely be labeled as a champion of favor, not to mention that, just saying it to Li Ting simply and straightforwardly, it would be even more mindless, but she really wanted to say a word to Li Ting, Your Majesty, can you come and accompany me, I really can't sleep, I really want to sleep well at night!

It was too painful to live like this, but fortunately it was over, and from now on she would no longer need to keep her eyes open until dawn every night, because the person she loved had really disappointed her, and she had finally recognized this fact after all these years.

The one she loves won't love her.