His tone was familiar and intimate, I seemed to be accustomed to it, nodded slightly and walked towards him, he poured water from the high water tank with a scoop and poured it into the copper basin, and handed me a clean handkerchief, I took it and soaked it in the water, gently wiped my cheeks, and the ups and downs of the past few days, blurred the sun, and asked him, "What time is the beginning of the year?" ”

He continued to fetch water in his hands: "Three days later, it will be Chinese New Year's Eve. For more up-to-date chapters, visit: щ. . ”

The days passed quickly, pinching my fingers, I and Li Xuan have been separated for more than half a year, there are only three or two months left before the one-year period, I lightly raised the corners of my 'lips', unconsciously laughed out loud, the cold-faced man heard my laughter, his face was soft: "Qinzhou's Chinese New Year's Eve every household is very lively, do you want to go down the mountain with me?" ”

The original plan was to live in the Qing'lu' temple for a small half a month, the environment in the temple was hard, I was used to living a small fight, I came here to live for more than ten days and I couldn't stand it, I was bored, listened to his words, and my heart was stupid 'desire' to move: "You and I will leave like this, how should the abbot 'hand' the generation?" "Qing'lu' Temple has strict rules, and the abbot finally allowed us to stay and stay, so it doesn't seem to be very kind.

"Master Abbot is not a pedantic man, and I have informed him in advance, and he is very pleased that you are safe and sound. If you want to leave, the carriage will wait at the back 'gate' of the Qing 'Lu' Temple, and we will go down the mountain immediately, and no one will reveal our whereabouts. ”

He thought about it thoroughly, and did not forget to ask: "I have prepared a set of 'female' clothes for you, this monk's robe is not to be worn, so as not to be recognized." ”

After he said this, I remembered that this light gray 'colored' monk's robe on my body had been worn for several days, and there was no change of clothes after falling off the cliff, so I had to wear this monk's robe again and again. It's not good to sniff with your nose on the spot, and it's very embarrassing.

My head was lowered, he didn't notice my embarrassment, and only said, "The dress is in the baggage on the table, you go and change your clothes, and I'll wait for you outside the house." ”

After listening to this, I ran away, and entered the house and slammed the door shut, and the ghost sent me to raise my arm and smell the smell of my body, but fortunately the weather was cold, and the clothes that were dried by fire in the mountain 'cave' did not leave a strange smell. I opened the burden that the cold-faced man said, and there was a azure 'colored' dress lying inside, the style was elegant, the fabric was of high quality, and I knew that it was worth a lot at a glance, I took off my monk's robe, and quickly changed it, the cut at the waist of this dress was excellent, I sat down on the stool, untied the hairband of my hair, and simply pulled up a bundle of hair.

There is also a plain hairpin in the baggage, the hairpin tail is a blooming jewel 'flower', I don't want to obliquely *'insert'* into the hair, the new clothes are very comfortable to wear, I opened the 'door' and walked out, the cold-faced man stood with his back to me, I stepped forward and patted him on the arm at will: "Let's go." ”

When he heard this, he turned around, and when he saw my dress, a moment of surprise flashed in his deep eyes, and his eyes stayed on the blue hairpin on my head, and he said approvingly: "This dress is very flattering to you, Qin Xi." ”

My heart was inexplicably quiet, and I couldn't tell what it was like to feel at the moment, it was the first time he had called my name, but it was like a thousand mountains and rivers away, his eyes were burning at me, I tried to evoke something from these dark eyes, but in vain.

I tried my best to think about it, I didn't taste the sharp pain I imagined, my mind was just a big blank, and my memory started from the day I married Li Xuan.

I asked, "Where have we met?" Did you and I know each other before? Did I forget you? "I never asked him what his name was, and subconsciously felt that I was forced to come to Qinzhou, and I didn't need to know his surname when I met him, but a person I had never met, why did I feel so familiar?

"You are in Daqi, and I am in Qinzhou, how can you and I be old acquaintances?" His expression was clear, and he did not appear to avoid the "color", and I suddenly wavered, could it be that I was too careful?

He seemed to be afraid that I would be too careful, so he said in a cold tone: "Qingben beauty, bright eyes and bright teeth, I was 'fascinated' by your appearance for a while, I saved you just to live up to the trust of the city lord, and I hope that Princess Xuan will not think too much." ”

A cold sentence opened the distance between the two of us, but I was amorous, my face was not good, and he said coldly: "This is what I think about too much, please don't be surprised." ”

As soon as I was angry, I walked ahead of him, and my 'chest' cavity was blocked by a mouthful of turbid air, and I kicked the pebbles I encountered on the side of the road all the way to vent my sullen breath, and never looked back at him.

If I am willing to turn my head to look at him, I will easily see that his words are insincere, when he was forced by the situation, he had to let me fall into the hands of Li Xuan, and he was already ashamed of my father Qin Cheng, and then I heard that I almost died under the disgrace of all my thoughts, and I regretted it even more, the love of childhood sweethearts and my father's reconstruction, he took me back to Qinzhou, where is he willing to make me sad? Fang Cai's words didn't want me to be suspicious and add unnecessary troubles, and it was the best thing for him that I could live well.

I was far ahead all the way, and he followed silently behind me, without meaning to be side by side with me. There was an ordinary-looking carriage parked at the foot of the back mountain, and the wind shadow sat in a daze with the unknown grass in his mouth, I stepped forward, lifted the curtain and got in, he jumped out of the car in shock, and looked at the cold-faced man who followed with his head in confusion, and asked: "My lord, this-"

The cold-faced man didn't look at him: "Set off and go down the mountain." Then he got into the carriage, and as soon as his tall body entered, the whole carriage became narrow, and I shrank in the corner of the carriage with a cold face, and sat down on my knees, with my head buried deep in my knees, and assumed a posture of not bothering to pay attention to him.

He didn't speak, but sat down next to me, and outside the curtain the wind shadow waved his whip *'pump'* on the horse's back, and the horse was in pain, and he lifted his feet and walked away, and the sound of wheels rattling in my ears was heard, and I was still depressed in my heart.

I don't know why I'm annoyed by his cold rejection, and why do I care so much about what he thinks, and he's not a very important person to me?

His voice was dark, and he seemed to be struggling to speak: "The memories of the past, are they really that heavy?" Your current wealth and glory are beyond the reach of many people in this life, why are you not satisfied? Not to mention Li Xuan, he-"

He didn't continue to say the rest of the words, it was nothing more than Li Xuan's dedication to me, our husband and wife are deeply in love, and I am also happy to be relaxed, I can do what I want to do, why cling to the past?

My face stinks between my knees, and the tone of my speech stinks, everyone makes me enjoy the present moment and choose to cover my ears and steal the bell, but why should my past be discarded as a matter of course if my past is not important?

"You know what? I often wake up from nightmares, in my dreams there is a handsome man playing the flute, but I never really see his face, whenever he is close to me, I will dream that Li Xuan stabbed me in the abdomen with a sword in his hand, which scared me into a cold sweat. ”

"I obviously love him so much, I think he has to live this life, but I can't figure out why I always dream that he kills me. How can a person dream of being killed by someone of their choice? ”

"Every one of you has a past, but I don't. Because I have no memory of the past, my life is destined to be incomplete and at the mercy of others. I didn't do anything wrong, why should it be me? ”

"Li Xuan, he knew my past at all, but he didn't say a word, and even Long Xiao threatened to get rid of people related to my past. I simply didn't have a choice. ”

I have told Aunt Yun more than once about this dream, but she didn't believe me, but let me forget this dream, not to mention it to others, let alone to Li Xuan, I still remember the first time I talked to her, the panic on her face couldn't be hidden, she was so in awe of Li Xuan, for fear that I would annoy him.

But how aggrieved and resentful am I in my heart?

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