I don't know how long I knelt before Xiao Ye and I stopped crying, and our eyes were so red and swollen that they looked like walnuts.

I asked Xiao Ye what her mother looked like, Xiao Ye blinked at first and said that her mother was the most beautiful and best woman in the world, and it didn't take long for the light in her eyes to fade after speaking, she said that she actually couldn't remember what her mother looked like, she was not even ten years old when she was sold to Xuan Wangfu, and her impression of her mother was vague and she couldn't remember clearly.

I listened to her, and my heart was very blocked, everyone has a mother, and I finally recognized Mrs. Su as a mother, but she died, and I have no mother. I threw the paper in my hand into the brazier, and the red flames spread wildly, and in the end only ashes remained.

Outside the house, the rain was louder, and the raindrops the size of beans hit the ground with a muffled sound. I looked at the rain curtain hanging in the sky, and I was secretly distracted. Mrs. Su's words before her death have always lingered in my mind, she said that she fulfilled her mother's heart for my mother, and she also called my mother a little sister, is my life experience really as Li Xuan said, is it the daughter of a famous family in Beijing?

The sky was gloomy, which made people a little depressed, I saw that Xiao Ye looked haggard, let her go and rest for a while, I want to stay here alone to accompany Mrs. Su, and do the last bit of filial piety. The rapid wind poured into the mourning hall, which was somewhat terrifying, but my heart was very quiet, if Mrs. Su really came back to Su Mansion, I must ask her about my mother.

Of course, I didn't wait for Mrs. Su, but Li Xuan came. Calculate the time, not long after he went down to the court, Mrs. Su is his nominal mother-in-law, and it is natural for him to appear, but I didn't expect him to really come to Su Mansion to worship.

He was wearing the crescent-colored prince's regular clothes, handsome and compelling, and when he knelt down beside me, I noticed the wetness on his clothes, which showed how rushed he was on the road, and my heart was warm, but I couldn't be happy because I remembered Lord Su's admonition.

Li Xuan's side face is handsome and extraordinary, his dark eyes are as bright as stars, he looked at me and didn't say a word, silently held my cold hand, his palm was wide and warm, calming people's hearts, his eyes reflected my shadow, hesitant, weak and helpless.

He explained softly, "I'm late. The emperor convened the ministers to discuss an important matter, but I couldn't push it away, so I had to come back after the court. From now on, I will take care of you, and I will use the power in my hands to keep you safe. ”

It seems that taking into account my feelings, Li Xuan wants to give me an explanation. He put down the posture of the prince and important minister in front of me, and spoke softly, without the harshness and harshness of the past, such beautiful words made me feel distressed, and my nose was sour, and I almost had to believe it.

I only asked him, "Li Xuan, why did you marry me?" ”

"I am grateful that you have treated me well and have not treated me badly. But I feel it, you don't like me. I sometimes can't help but wonder if your tenderness to me is another sweet dream, and when I fall into it, you will leave me like Mrs. Su. ”

Li Xuan is like a dream, he gives me the feeling that it is always hazy and unreal, I don't want to live in an illusory illusion, thinking that I have happiness in my arms. The heart of the dream is broken, it hurts too much.

Li Xuan looked at me quietly, his eyes exuded a soft luster, and his soft eyes made people's hearts warm, and he said seriously: "Xi'er, why do you think I married you?" I, Li Xuan, will not marry a woman I don't love, you have your pride, and so do I. ”

"You have a cold attitude towards me, deliberately avoid me, and even fear me for no reason, I don't feel it. I want to be close to you, but I don't know how. ”

I was stunned and looked at him blankly, what did he mean by that?

Li Xuan smiled, his smile was bright and dazzling, he suddenly hugged me into his arms, hugged me very tightly and hard, my head was buried in his arms, the two of them were very close, the breath of the breeze and bitter bamboo on his body came to his face, and he rushed into my internal organs domineeringly.

His heart beat a little, and the rhythm was very steady: "I wish to win the heart of one person, and the white head will not be separated." I remember everything you said. I won't say sweet words, but I will spoil you and protect you, so that you can live freely and worry-free. ”

"I thought I would lose you forever, but fortunately, God favors me, and I still have a lifetime to cherish you."

Li Xuan's handsome face had a warm smile, his eyes were like the warm sun in spring, warm and attached, I looked at him quietly, slightly distracted. There is no woman who would not be moved by such affectionate words, I buried my head in his arms, shed tears, and the uneasiness in my heart dissipated, although I did not fall in love with him, my heart no longer rejected being with him.

For the next six days, Li Xuan ordered someone to fetch my usual things, and he stayed with me in Sufu until the end of the funeral. I lost Mrs. Su, but there was more Li Xuan on my side, although he didn't have a tear, although he didn't talk much, but he was busy and took over the big and small chores of Sufu, which made me feel that he had finally become my dependence.

My feelings for Li Xuan just came to an abrupt end after I returned to Moyuan, I couldn't get rid of the identity of Princess Xuan, let alone Li Xuan's concubines, I couldn't share a husband with other women, and I couldn't let go of my last pride.