On the reality plane, Dugu Yihan has experienced the dark side of the world, crying every day, having countless suicidal thoughts, and the idea of killing his parents, the theme song of the movie "Youth", the adapted version of "What to Ask for in Life" is his favorite song, because there are some lyrics in it that he has experienced, and only writes about some important experiences, tragic situations.

When I was 4 years old, my family was running a supermarket, one day I went to play with a child in another supermarket next door, and in the process of playing with him, an aunt came over and took the child's hand to hit me, and the child cried when I returned the hand, and the aunt threw all the responsibility to me, saying that everything was my fault that I hit him, and then I and the child, the relationship between our two families became very bad, but I saw the ugliness of society for the first time.

When I was 5 years old, I went out on my bicycle to play, I met a bear child, he kicked my bicycle, I went over and kicked him, just when his dad passed by, he saw it and immediately scolded me, and then I scolded him, he said he was going to cut me with a knife, I also said I was going to hack him to death, and then I cried and went home, and then whenever I played with his son, he would come and scold me!

When I was 6 years old, my memory was a little vague, I only remember that I didn't want to go to school, pulling the railing of the school gate, and my dad pulled me and insisted that I go to school, but he couldn't pull it, and then he was very angry, punched me, and my nosebleed all over the ground, and I also saw that those people were all with an attitude of caring about my, and experienced the ugliness of society for the second time, when I was still young, I didn't know anything, if it was now, I would definitely sue him.

When I was 7 years old, I got into a fight with two small children and they both got nosebleeds, they went to my house to complain that I was scolded for a few hours, my memory is a little blurry, I just remember that they provoked me.

When I was 10 years old, the more I grew up, the more cowardly, because I knew what was right and what was wrong, what was dangerous and what was not, not as fearless as when I was a child, someone robbed me of something, I snatched it back, he snatched it back, I snatched it back, and then we fought, my eyes were swollen by him, but I realized a truth, and when I fight with others, I have to fight until he can't fight back, otherwise it is yourself who is injured.

When I was 12 years old, I didn't know why I was called to the police station by the police, saying that I sent a picture of a spoof attendance, I was confused at the time, and then they checked my mobile phone and didn't see it, just when the director came, I insisted that I had never sent it, and the director insisted that the system would not be wrong, and the above said that you sent it was what you sent, and I was under 14 years old at the time, so I didn't have to go to jail, so I signed a guarantee and confiscated my mobile phone and left, but I hated this society and hated the chairman, I saw a news on the Internet, some people insulted the martyrs in front of the martyrs' tombs, and were arrested by the policeI scolded the police for praising those people, I was cursing the chairman every day, and after a semester my dad spent thousands of dollars to redeem my mobile phone, because I was more heartless, and I didn't hate the society too much, but I hated the chairman and the police who dealt with it.

When I was 13 years old, the network cable in our classroom was not plugged in, I was kind enough to help them plug it in, but the kindness was not rewarded, the teacher said that if the computer broke down, you should be responsible, and then the teacher forced to sign some unequal treaties.

To be continued...