I'm Qingling, and I have a master named Yi Wu.

Actually, I knew from the beginning that it was Master who killed my parents, and I knew it from the beginning.

When he killed my parents, I saw the back of the teacher from a distance, and when he came to me, I still saw his back, and I was sure from the beginning that this person was actually the enemy who killed my parents.

At first, I actually wanted to follow Master all the time, and when he taught me all the exercises and I could kill him, I didn't hesitate to kill him.

If I miss this opportunity, I may never find out where my enemy is, I don't even know the name of my enemy, how can I find it? So I chose to pretend I didn't know him and stay with him.

When did I start to change?

Did Master know that I had been crying and said "early" in order to protect my young self-esteem? Or when Master saw me crying and stood beside me helplessly, or when I wanted to plant roses, and He asked me to plant roses?

I don't know when it started, it changed.

Master is really very good to me, almost as long as I say it, I like it, I don't get it, many times I feel that even if I want stars in the sky, as long as I can, Master will take them off for me.

But I understand that Master has been so kind to me many times because of guilt.

What kind of feelings do I have for Master?

I've heard from other people in the gang that Master is actually a very cold person and a very rational person.

I thought for a long time, since Master is such a rational person, how could he not know, if he killed me, he would not have to worry about me.

Don't worry about killing him when I know the truth in the future, don't worry about anything.

How could a person as rational as Master not think that if I knew the truth in the future, I might do something to kill Master, and how could someone as smart as Master not think of it?

But he still saved me, in fact, many times I think in my heart, I hate him for killing my parents, but I can't attack him, because he also saved me, and he treats me very well.

Later, Master accepted the assignment and did not return for three years.

I don't know his life or death, I don't know how he is, I don't know what kind of life he is doing, and I have always been very concerned about him.

I think it would be nice if the master wasn't the one who destroyed the sect in the first place.

It was also during that time that I knew that Master had killed my parents because of the order of the helper, and I had been brought out by him, and he had actually done his best.

Elder Aoyama is a close friend of Master, and he has always thought that I don't know the truth, so in order to prevent me from killing Master in a fit of anger in the future, in fact, Elder Aoyama told me the truth in the three years that Master left.

Elder Qingshan said, "Qingling, don't blame your master, in fact, he is also forced to do so. He owes it to the gang, so he has to be used as a tool by the gang all his life, and the old gang leader saved him and hurt him. ”

I still remember Elder Qingshan's eyes, and he told me very seriously, "Qingling, in fact, your master already knows that he has done many evil things, but no matter how many evil things he has done, he still loves you. As long as you want his life, he will not hesitate to give it to you. ”

"Qingling, you believe me, Yi Wuta loves you."

I have always felt that love is a very difficult word for people to understand, but when it comes to Master, I can clearly feel that Master actually loves me very much.

Later, Master returned.

I've been worried, I'm worried that Master has left me forever, and in the past three years, I have actually found that after Elder Qingshan told me the truth, my heart is actually much better than it was at the beginning. I don't worry about the dispensable illusory stuff anymore.

When Master is by my side, I feel very good.

I didn't intend to tell Master that I already knew the truth, I wanted Master to tell me himself, so that Master would feel better in his heart, and I would feel better in my heart. But I never waited for the day when Master confessed to me.

I tentatively mentioned, "Master, I want to go to the Autumn Pavilion." "How could Master not know what I was going to do? It's just that I didn't expect Master to let me go, and I never confessed.

When I saw the Pavilion Master of the Autumn Pavilion, in fact, I just smiled at her and said, "Pavilion Master, don't tell him what we said when someone comes in later." The pavilion master just raised his eyebrows and smiled, "Okay." ”

In fact, Master only needs to be careful to find out that I already knew the truth, and at that time, I didn't actually blame him in my heart.

I know that he can't help himself, but I just want him to tell me that my heart has never been able to pass that hurdle, and I must tell Master himself about these things.

Later, I waited until the helper asked me to kill Master.

I agreed because I was afraid that Master would be killed by the other elders, so the helper only gave me a month's time.

A month has passed so fast. Before I could tell me the truth by Master, time had already passed.

I'll leave a letter, if only I could come back alive.

But I'm dead.

I was dead before Master bought me trinkets.

Even the master himself probably didn't expect it, but in fact, I watched him buy things through Huangquan, and I watched him go to the helper, and I even watched him cry at the end.

The first time I saw Master crying.

Master is actually a person who doesn't smile, doesn't like to laugh, and never cries. It's just that I didn't expect to see Master crying for the first time at such a time, and I watched him plant roses and nightshades, which was actually like a knife.

Master, I'm sorry.

Actually, as long as I'm being brave, it seems like we're not going to be like this.

I looked at Master and committed suicide.

As I listened to Master tell me and his stories, I almost cried many times.

It turned out that Master had always felt so guilty about me.

It's not that he doesn't understand all my hints, he's just scared, afraid that one day I'll really leave him, so he never says anything.

But if we were both brave enough to tell each other the truth, would the outcome be different?

Actually, I told Meng Po that I would stay in the Lechuan River for the master for thousands of years, and if I still remember him after a thousand years, I would definitely go to him.

I don't know if I'll make it to that point, but I think I'll try.

Master and I, in fact, if I had told Master the truth from the beginning, and if Master had told me the truth from the beginning, I think we might have left the gang and gone to live in a place where no one knew us.

But how can there be so many ifs in the world?

I didn't dare to go to see Master, so I had to watch him go to reincarnation and jump into the Lethe River.

For thousands of years, I watched Master go to reincarnation again and again, experiencing his stories with others, and I suddenly felt that I didn't need to bother him anymore.

Thousands of years later, I finally stayed by Meng Po's side and became a little ghost in charge of the spoon, serving Meng Po soup for them.

When Master passed by me, he had actually forgotten about me a long time ago, and I still couldn't help but tremble a little in my heart.

I handed him the soup bowl, and I watched Master drink it and handed it to me, and then asked, "This girl, I see that you are a little familiar, have we met before?" ”

I said, "Never." ”