Chapter 67: Self-abandonment

My heart was beating wildly, and in its place I was filled with joy, and after all these terrible things had happened, I finally heard good news. In the few months that Li Xuan returned to Daqi, he lived safely, and nothing was more important than this. Just when I thought we were about to forget about to be forgotten, he sent me this letter, and lived up to my previous worries and thoughts.

The housekeeper observed the words: "The eldest lady's brow has not been stretched for several days, it seems to be a letter from the old man." ”

I put the letter away and nodded in response, "It's an old man." He was okay and relieved. ”

The housekeeper smiled kindly: "That must be someone who is very important to the eldest lady." ”

I didn't want others to know about my affair with Li Xuan, so I just said: "It is indeed a very important friend." ”

Thinking about the well-being of the people I care about, I can finally worry less.

The night seemed to be extraordinarily long, and it was approaching late at night, and I was so tired that I just wanted to sleep quickly, so I went to my father's house with the butler. There are lights all the way to the Qin Mansion, which is the reason why I was stubborn when I was young. At that time, I often deliberately hid at night and hurt a group of maidservants to look for me everywhere, once accidentally broke my leg in a dark corner, my father was angry and ordered someone to light the lamp of Qinfu all night, saying that I was messing around with it is better than falling with fewer arms and legs. Dad is sometimes clear and unreasonable.

The housekeeper carried a lantern in one hand to lead the way for me, he was my father's confidant, and he watched me grow up since I was a child, and he was the old man that my father and I could trust the most, except for what my father confessed, he never hid it from me. I started chatting with him without a word.

I got straight to the point: "Xi'er has a few questions, please ask the old man to solve the confusion on her behalf." ”

He bowed down and said respectfully: "What the eldest lady wants to know, the old slave must know everything." ”

"Good. Then let me ask you, my father has been in charge of Qinzhou's affairs for decades, why have I never seen anyone from outside Qinzhou visit? ”

The booklet in the secret room recorded the people my father had met in recent years, not to mention dozens of people, many of whom were nobles and held a powerful party, why haven't I met since I was a child?

"Eldest Miss, have you ever noticed anything unusual about the waterfall where Young Master Qi practiced swords?"

"Waterfall?" The waterfall is nothing special except for the sound of the mighty sound, like the galloping neighing of thousands of horses. Not to mention that I've been running around everywhere since I was a kid, and if there's anything unusual I won't notice?

"Looking at the eldest lady's expression, she just didn't pay attention. In fact, walking from the rockery behind the waterfall, it leads to a courtyard in the Qin Mansion, the existence of this courtyard has never been told to the eldest lady, and it is normal for the eldest lady not to guess. ”

"The other courtyard of the Qin Mansion?" I didn't know my dad had any other property.

"Exactly. After all, this annex was built before the eldest lady was born, and it was originally given to his wife by the master. Later Mrs. ...... Since then, the annex has been used for other purposes, and it is there that the lord meets with the distinguished guests of various countries. ”

I wondered, "That's strange, who did my father see and hide from me?" I don't ask what is going on with him, why should you avoid me? ”

The housekeeper explained: "Yes, the eldest lady is not sensible, and she can't make any trouble, and the old slave also thinks so, so he asked the master, only to know that there was a time, a general of Daqi happened to see the eldest lady, as if he said that the eldest lady looks a little familiar, and I can't remember where I saw it again. ”

I pondered it, became suspicious, and came to a conclusion: "You mean that my father doesn't want outsiders to see me, and wants to hide me." "This reason is strange, when I grew up, every time I ran out to play, my father rarely stopped me from going, and if I slipped out of the door, I was seen by people on the street. It's a contradiction to think that way.

"The lord is such a child as the eldest lady. Xu didn't want the eldest lady to be involved in those things, it was inevitable that there would be a few disgraceful things, and it was better for the eldest lady to have less contact. ”

The butler's words are also reasonable. I asked again: "Uncle, do you have any impression that there are people who have formed a bond with my father, but few people know the details?" ”

A flash of inspiration flashed in my mind, and I blurted out: "Or, outsiders never thought that he would have a relationship with this person?" On the surface, they have never interacted, but in fact they are inextricably linked. ”

By the way, what Qi Ao reminded me was to find someone who had an enmity with my father, but thinking about it from another angle, is it possible that my father protected the relationship with this person for some reason, and this person had a beneficial transaction with his father, but in vain, he wanted to put his father to death?

This time, the housekeeper did not answer me directly: "Miss, your bedroom has arrived." ”

He avoided answering, telling me that there was indeed such a person, and my father had told him not to reveal this matter to me, which meant that as long as I could find clues about this person in the booklet, I would be one step closer to the mastermind behind my father's murder.

I feigned emotion and followed the butler's words, "Really? But after a little gossip, time flies. ”

The housekeeper said respectfully: "The eldest lady went to bed early, and the old slave retreated." ”

Entering the inner room, I sat down at the table, took out the booklet and read it carefully, from the inside to the outside I read every page again, the booklet was of medium thickness, and it took me two hours to read it once, but unfortunately there was still no new discovery.

I've reached the limit of my energy, and it's probably going to be hard to hold on. In a few moments, when the day was about to dawn, I simply hid the booklet under my pillow and fell into a deep sleep. I didn't drink soothing tea that night, I woke up after a short sleep, got up and asked the maid for the hour, and after a simple cleanup, I ran to see my father.

Dad is still in good spirits, and is about to have breakfast, I took the bowl of porridge in the hand of the maidservant, sat on the round stool next to the bed, took a spoonful of porridge, blew the hot air, and handed it to my father's mouth: "Dad, you are still recuperating, the doctor explained that you can only eat some liquid and light things, if you feel bored, I will let the cook make some fresh ingredients stewed in it later, and make up for you." Don't get excited in the past two months, be careful with the wound, if the wound cracks again, the doctor will scold me. During the days you were unconscious, he was almost driven crazy by me. It's easy for you to wake up, his waist is stiff, and he is waiting to bully me in turn. You don't have to worry about the big and small things in Qinzhou, Qi Ao handled it well, he was brought out by you, and it shouldn't be embarrassing for you. If you really lose face, wait for your father to get better, and then punish him. Dad, you are not bored, I will go to the study to get a few books for you, I have heard that people say that they recover slowly when they are bored in the house. ”

After a long speech, there was no small half bowl of porridge, I wanted to feed my dad again, my dad waved his hand, and I said strangely: "Dad used less last night, so he ate so much this morning?" Is it unappetizing? I said that the porridge has no taste, so Dr. Rausch insisted on letting his father eat this. ”

Dad smiled helplessly, and his complexion was a little better: "Dad woke up this time and thought that his daughter had changed someone. When did Daddy's Xi'er become so nagging? Daddy almost didn't recognize it. ”

I pretended to be unhappy and complained, "It turns out that my father dislikes me for talking too much." Well, since my father doesn't want to see me, I'll change with Qi Ao when I go back and let him take care of my father. In front of a stuffy gourd, Dad was happy. ”

My father always knew my temper: "I don't know who this sharp tooth looks like." Dad's fine, Xi'er, you're too nervous. ”

Knowing the daughter Mo Ruo's father, my father saw it at a glance. In front of my father, I couldn't hide my emotions. These days I have been living in unrelieved fear and tension, and all I have to think about is finding the person who killed my father and killing him. Other than that, I don't know if there's any other way to keep my dad alive. The enemy is unimaginably powerful, my father, Dugu Shibo, Dugu Hao, Qi Ao and the housekeeper are all silent about me, refusing to say who that person is, I can only rely on my own strength to find him out, and then find a way to get rid of him.

My eyes darkened, I put the bowl down, met my father's calm gaze, and said sadly: "Dad, my daughter can't lose you." You're your daughter's only relative. I don't have a mother anymore, and I can't live without a father anymore. ”

Dad stretched out his palm and touched my head, I lay on the brocade quilt covering his legs like a little daughter, tears moistened my eyes, fortunately Dad couldn't see it, otherwise he would feel sorry for me.

"Dad, you don't know how scared I was when you were unconscious. I'm most afraid that someone will rush to find me, and hear the news that you are gone. ”

He stroked my head lovingly: "Silly girl, how can my father be so fragile? When you were not born, your father traveled all over the world and experienced life and death. After you were born, your father had a weakness, so he was reluctant to die. Dad is reluctant to leave you alone. ”

I don't know how sad my father was saying this to me, but he knew that he wouldn't last long, but in order to comfort me, he still made a gesture that he would get better. But I'm so an afterthought.

I raised my head and wept, "So my father still won't tell me the identity of that person?" Would a father rather live under the man's threat than let his daughter take revenge? ”

Dad's expression seemed to be painful and stunned: "Xi'er, this is a matter between my father and him, don't get involved." ”

My heart ached: "He wants my father's life, doesn't my father understand?" That's my father-killing enemy, how can I turn a blind eye? Does Daddy want me to watch you die? My father just said that he was reluctant to abandon me, is it my words? ”

Tears are like beads of broken threads, falling big and big, I can't care to wipe them, I am very sad.

Dad sighed and said, "If you still treat me as your father, promise me not to avenge me." ”

My heart felt as if a sharp knife had been stabbed into it, and I couldn't see the pain of blood, and my voice trembled violently: "Dad won't let me take revenge because he is someone I can't afford to provoke, and if I annoy him, I will die, right?" ”

"Xi'er—"

"My daughter is not afraid of death, my daughter is only afraid of living with regrets, if my father dies like this, I will never live alone."

Dad can't help me, he knows my stubbornness: "You are still young, and you still don't understand many things." That's it, dad is tired, you go out first, so that you can think about what dad said. ”

Dad drove me away, the moment I closed the door, my tears couldn't stop flowing more fiercely, Dad was so self-abandoned, he didn't take his body to heart at all, if the enemy really wanted to kill me, would it be able to arouse his desire to survive?

In order for my father to live, I will find out who man.