Chapter 65: Awakening

I left Dugu Mansion as if fleeing, my temples were beating wildly along the way, knowing Dugu Hao's heart for me, I couldn't calm down. He is so arrogant, and our relationship that has finally improved will only get worse in the future, how can things get to this point? I'd rather he wanted to marry me out of interest, and Sister Ruoying might be so sad when she heard the rumors.

The road back to Qinfu became extraordinarily long, and the night was quiet, and my mind became chaotic with the sound of Dada's horses' hooves, and I remembered Dugu Hao's words again.

"I admire you, so I want to marry you. Do you understand? ”

His ** gaze made me unavoidable, my face burned red, and I couldn't find the words for a while. I stood up in a panic: "You shouldn't have said this, if someone else hears you-"

"Are you referring to my father or Murong Ying? My father saw through my mind early in the morning and had already warned me that he had nothing to do with me when he was old, as for Murong Ying, there was no possibility between me and her, and she would figure it out sooner or later. ”

"You don't understand how much she loves you." I frowned: "It's better for you to like anyone than me, if it were someone else, maybe she wouldn't be so hurt." ”

He stood up and took my shoulders with rare tenderness: "I am cruel to her when I give her hope." ”

I was overwhelmed by his sudden affection, brushed his hand away, and said as tactfully as possible: "Dugu Hao, I am very grateful for what you did for me, whether it was sacrificing your life to save me or not alienating me when I was in trouble, we have been fighting against each other over the years, but you have never really hurt me, I remember it in my heart——"

He interrupted me without a trace: "You can consider my proposal, you don't need to answer me so quickly." ”

"It's not you that I like."

I instinctively replied to him, maybe in his opinion, everything can be measured at a price to make a transaction, in order to get anything can be handed over in exchange, in fact, he wants anything I will not refuse, only feelings, only feelings can not be forced.

I can't sell my feelings like a commodity, marry him without loving him, not only insult him, but also despise myself, and my father will feel guilty about me for the rest of his life.

"I'm sorry." I didn't know what to say to him.

I replied simply, his calm and chic almost couldn't be maintained, as if a gap was about to crack through his flawless face, and he laughed at himself: "So your choice is Qi Ao from beginning to end?" For the sake of the throne, he doesn't have you in his eyes at all. Why do you have to suffer for yourself? I know you too well, you like him, and he won't let go without being bruised. ”

"Qin Xi, should you say that you have a heart or not? You can see Qi Ao's depression and Murong Ying's pain, why can't you see me for so many years? Everyone likes me very much, but you don't take me seriously. Am I ridiculous in your eyes? ”

"Forget it, you go, I'll give you another day, this is the last time I give you a chance."

I didn't explain to Dugu Hao that what I like is not Qi Ao, it doesn't matter, it's a lot wrong to say it at this time.

Tired back to the Qin Mansion, passing through the main hall and seeing Qi Ao waiting for me, I walked towards him, he seemed to have waited for a long time, his expression was a little trance, I asked him: "It's so late, why don't you go to rest?" ”

"Ah Hao didn't send you back?"

His voice trembled slightly, and I said truthfully: "I ran for nothing, so I don't have to bother him to send him off." ”

"You rejected him."

I was surprised, "How do you know?" "Could it be that Dugu Hao revealed the news to him in advance?

"If I can't even see this, I'll be friends with him all these years."

I was so tired that I didn't want to talk about it anymore: "I'll go see my father." ”

"Master hasn't woken up yet, you go and rest, I and the housekeeper take turns to guard, and if there is any change, let people notify you immediately. You haven't slept much in days, and you won't be able to eat it any longer. ”

I really want to sleep, my body is no longer crying out for tiredness all the time, but I can't relax at this juncture, it's not that I haven't tried to sleep, but as soon as I close my eyes, I will be awakened by nightmares, in which my father's body keeps gushing out bright red blood, and I can't stop it.

"Qi Ao, I can't sleep. My dad is not out of danger yet, and I can't feel at ease. ”

I turned around and walked towards my father's residence, Qi Ao followed me silently, quietly accompanying me, my spirit collapsed for too long, he saw it in his eyes, persuaded and persuaded, but he couldn't resist me.

Dad fell asleep for several days, his chin grew a blue stubble, I took the decoction in the hand of the maidservant, personally fed my father to drink, took a wet handkerchief for my father to wipe his face and hands, and folded the silk quilt, my father's breathing was steady, I breathed a sigh of relief, the doctor said, in two or three days, Dad will wake up. I have a lot to say to my dad.

Qi Ao and I walked out of the house, I gently closed the door, walked to the porch, and I told Qi Ao: "I will not marry Dugu Hao, and this matter is not allowed to be mentioned to my father." ”

From Dugu Hao's point of view, I can understand his approach, but if his father knows, it is difficult to guarantee that he will not have an opinion on Dugu Hao, after all, Dugu Hao is not a big traitor, and the friendship between the two families does not need to be affected by his absurdity.

"Are you really not thinking about it anymore?"

"Don't talk about it again."

I haven't been back to Xiyuan since my father was injured, so I ordered someone to clean up two clean rooms next door, and Qi Ao and I lived here for a few days in a row, taking care of each other. I went back to the room, changed into a loose middle coat, sat in front of the dresser and combed my long hair, this temporary room was far less exquisite than my boudoir, except for a change of clothes and some jewelry I liked, I only brought the painting that Li Xuan gave me.

I hung the painting in the inner room, and the girl in the painting was bright and moving, just the age of ignorance, and she looked like she was not afraid of the sky and the earth, and the red dress was particularly conspicuous. I like to ride horses since I was a child, about this is the first time I ride a horse on the street, I was seen by Li Xuan standing in the crowd, I was impressed, after all, few girls dare to ride horses on the street, if they hit someone, they will be caught and convicted by the government.

The fate is really mysterious, I have known Dugu Hao for ten years but I haven't had the slightest love between men and women, and I met Li Xuan within half a year, but I already decided that he was the one who promised.

I don't know how Li Xuan's affairs are doing in Daqi, has he heard the news of Qinzhou when he is far away in Daqi, if he learns about his father's recent situation, will he think of rushing back to see me? He left Qinzhou for a few months, and he didn't even send me a letter, and the Qin family's money village in the capital of Daqi did not receive guests similar to him, and he seemed to have disappeared.

Because I had nightmares for several days, I didn't sleep well and was very haggard, Qi Ao asked the maid to add sleeping powder to my tea, and I couldn't resist the sleepiness and fell asleep. It's rare that I didn't dream anymore and slept well.

I didn't know about sleeping pills in advance, I slept for two days and two nights after being tired, and missed the date agreed with Dugu Hao, I woke up and heard the news that my father woke up, and I forgot about it after I was happy, and I never explained it to him, so that he kept holding a grudge and mistakenly thought that I despised his feelings.

I haven't eaten a bowl of soup yet, the maid ran to me in a panic to tell me the news that my father woke up, I was so shocked that I stood up and rushed out of the door, walked outside the door I took a deep breath, heard a brief conversation between my father and Qi Ao, I pushed the door in, my father half sat on the bed, in good spirits, my eyes were hot, two lines of tears slipped down, and a thousand words turned into a choked sentence: "Dad——"

Qi Ao retreated in time, there were no outsiders in the house, I lay on the edge of the bed and cried even more fiercely, and couldn't help but complain about my father: "Dad, why are you hiding it from me?" If it weren't for her daughter's intuition and rushing back, she would now be separated from her father's yin and yang, how much should her daughter blame herself? ”

Dad sighed, touched my head, and said helplessly: "There are some things that Dad doesn't want you to get involved in." My Xi'er should grow up happily, get married, and have children, instead of getting involved in right and wrong that has nothing to do with you. ”

"But I'm my father's daughter, if my father is gone, what face does my daughter have to live alone in the world?" I sobbed: "My daughter only hates that she didn't listen to her father well in the past, and she didn't grow up, so she will be helpless today and can't come up with a solution." ”

Dad looked at me lovingly and said with a smile, "My Xi'er has grown up." Don't blame Dugu, it's my father who doesn't want him to *interfere*, this matter has nothing to do with Dugu's family. ”

Dad takes love very seriously, although I am angry with Dugu Shibo alone, but I don't want to upset my father, and said in a muffled voice: "My daughter knows." My daughter is just too anxious, how do you feel, Dad? Does your injury still hurt? ”

"Thanks to Xi'er, my father escaped. After recuperating for a while, this injury can be healed by half, you don't need to worry too much, Daddy's body Daddy knows it. ”

I didn't know at that time that my father had little time left, the damage to his heart was irreversible, he would only weaken day by day, and the reason why he could survive for more than a month was all due to his perseverance, and he wanted to use the last time to arrange everything for me. The person I love the most is thinking about me from birth to death, and instead of giving him something in return, I led a wolf into the house and killed him, which is really unfilial.

Dad talked to me for a while and got tired, I helped him to sleep, stared at the crying swollen eyes and walked out, I didn't want Qi Ao to still wait for me, I stepped forward and asked, "Do you have something to tell me?" ”

He hesitated for a moment before he said: "In the past few days when the master has been in a coma, I have managed the affairs of Qinzhou on my behalf, and now that he is awake, I have a few things to discuss with him. ”

He has been brought by his father since he was a child, because he is the royal bloodline, his father has always been interested in cultivating him, Dugu Hao has a good saying, Qi Ao will sooner or later return to the south to compete for the throne, he is cultivated according to the emperor's standards: "Dad trusts you and entrusts the Qin family to you, I only believe in you, Dad is sober, and his body is still very weak, if it is not for the fire eyebrows, wait for him to be better and then negotiate with him." ”

"You've changed." His expression was dark.

I looked at the clouds in the distance, these days I have been holding on not to show fragile emotions, it has always been my father to shelter me from the wind and rain, in fact, I am very afraid, very afraid that my father will not be able to hold on and leave me: "Who can not change?" ”

"Before my father's accident, I thought that I would have a more difficult time in this life than now, I was really selfish, selfishly living under my father's protection, enjoying all the glory of the Qin family, ignorant and ignorant of growth, I didn't do anything that really made my father happy."

"Qi Ao, I don't deserve my father's life to give up his life for me."