90. The verge of collapse
Li Xiaohan, who accepted it when he saw it, saw that Lu Yanyue didn't study deeply, so naturally he was polite, and left immediately with the child. Song Anxiao looked down at Lu Yanyue in her arms, her eyes faintly showed a little worry, and she was a little at a loss, so she had to take Lu Yanyue and go straight back to the Song Mansion.
After entering the Song Mansion, Lu Yanyue ignored Song Anxiao at all and walked straight to his house in the Song Mansion. After returning to the house, he closed the door tightly, and even Qiqi was stopped outside the house.
From the time Lu Yanyue turned around and left the opera garden, Song Anxiao has been following behind her, taking her back to the Song Mansion, which was Song Anxiao's initial plan. It's just that I didn't expect that it would be unusually smooth, and I also called Chen Chenyi back to the capital.
After returning to the Song Mansion, Song Anxiao noticed that something seemed to be wrong in the mansion, looked at the attendants who came and went around him, and frowned slightly.
"What's going on in the house?" Lu Ming is naturally aware of it, although there is no earth-shaking change, but there is always a little bit of indescribable difference. Grabbing an attendant who passed by, Lu Ming cautiously asked.
"Back to the prince, there are a few more attendants in the house. It was arranged by the young master, and he was instructed to take care of the young lady's thoughtfulness. The attendant replied to Lu Ming's words respectfully, and after speaking, seeing that the two of them were silent, he turned around and continued to busy himself with the work at hand.
Lu Ming and Song Anxiao glanced at each other, both of them with an unclear meaning.
"Prince, do you need me to replace all these attendants?"
"No need."
Song Anxiao said coldly, and then walked towards his house.
On the other side, Lu Yanyue, who was hiding in the house, didn't seem to be very good.
Lu Yanyue in the room sat at the door and leaned against the door, holding her legs and burying her head deeply. Staying motionless, as if he was asleep, Qiqi, who was guarding the door, did not dare to act rashly, so he had to stay at the door peacefully, waiting for Lu Yanyue's orders.
Qiqi knew that Lu Yanyue was in a very bad mood at this time, so bad that he couldn't comfort him......
Lu Yanyue, who was hiding in the house, seemed to be blaming herself and seemed to be laughing at herself: Why did it become like this? obviously wanted to help Chen Chenyi, but he forced him to the periphery of the cliff step by step.
It's really a trouble to think about yourself, and it should be the most appropriate to describe it as doing bad things with good intentions, right?
Now this unexpected ending, she has become the crown princess? Chen Chen completely hated Song Anxiao? What happens in the end? A break in military power? The General's Mansion was involved in the plot to usurp power?
There are hundreds of possibilities, which Lu Yanyue can't even think of. Why the hell are you here? Is it to ruin their brother's relationship? Or is it to assist them? Is it your own method that is wrong? Or should I be?
Countless questions frantically hit Lu Yanyue's brain, and Lu Yanyue felt as if she was about to explode. Obviously, at the beginning, it was to give them the opportunity to negotiate peace, but the goal was not achieved, but they put themselves on the hook.
From the very beginning of the first encounter, Lu Yanyue was lucky, glad that she could meet Chen Chenyi and get Chen Chenyi's protection; Gradually, countless times of self-blame and countless times of firmness, self-blame for always causing trouble, firm that he must help Chen Chenyi; But in the end? What did you do in the end?
Become a crown princess? Let Chen Chenyi fall into such a sad mood? Is this what Lu Yanyue wants?
No! It's not! Lu Yanyue is not uncommon, this princess! I don't want Chen Chenyi to be sad because of himself!
But is there a turnaround?
Countless emotions of sadness, irritability, and self-blame are attributed to one place, which provokes Lu Yanyue all over her body, as if all the strength of her body has been withdrawn. At this time, Lu Yanyue wanted to cry, but found that the tears were exhausted, and not a drop could be shed. I wanted to laugh, but I realized that I didn't even have the strength to raise the corners of my mouth......
Originally...... When people are sad to a certain extent......
It will really be to express all your emotions with "indifference".
All thoughts overlap infinitely in the mind, and infinite replays of past scenes are staged. Chen Chenyi's gentleness, Song Anxiao's indifference, and Qiqi's care even before coming here......
Missing father's love, powerless mother's love......
The ridicule and prejudice of countless people, spent days in exclusion, and tormented in loneliness and coldness every night......
Lu Yanyue felt that her mentality was about to collapse......
Lu Yanyue felt that she had no strength to face all this, she was not a hero in the first place, let alone the fate of the protagonist. It has always been only because of Chen Chenyi's goodness that Lu Yanyue lost herself and fell deeply into it, which caused today's situation......
I don't know how long I sat on the ground, Lu Yanyue could clearly feel that the brightness around her was gradually dimming, and the cold of the night gradually penetrated through the cloak and invaded Lu Yanyue's limbs from the floor.
"Miss, let's have something to eat."
Outside the house, Qiqi's concerned voice came, and Lu Yanyue wanted to speak out, but found that she didn't even seem to have the strength to open her mouth.
Qiqi, who was guarding outside the house, wanted to push open the door, but found that the door seemed to be blocked by something. didn't know Lu Yanyue's location, Qiqi, who didn't dare to mess around, had to frown, and looked at Lu Ming who was holding the food uneasily, his face was full of helplessness and helplessness.
"I'll go find the prince." Seeing this, Lu Ming handed over the things in his hand to Qiqi, threw down a sentence and turned to leave.
Lu Ming's words naturally reached Lu Yanyue's ears. Lu Yanyue wanted to stop it, but it was as if she had taken root on the ground, unable to move, and unable to make any sound.
Lu Yanyue was tired and didn't want to struggle. If the night and cold are a monster that eats people, then Lu Yanyue is willing to give up resistance and become the hearty dinner in the mouth of the monster.
Maybe in this way, it can be liberated.
"What are you doing?"
Not long after Lu Ming walked away, Song Anxiao's cold voice came from outside the house, and there was a slight anger in his tone.
Lu Yanyue wanted to answer, but she didn't want to answer, and the feeling of powerlessness made Lu Yanyue stop struggling and continue to sit on the ground.
Song Anxiao, who was standing outside the house, saw that Lu Yanyue didn't answer, and was about to break down the door, but was stopped by Qiqi, "Prince, Miss seems to be leaning against the door......"
Song Anxiao's face was displeased, and when he heard Qiqi's words, he frowned tightly, and turned around angrily. Qiqi thought that Song Anxiao had given up and was about to leave like that, but after a while, he heard movement in the house, and it seemed that something had been broken.
Qiqi was so panicked that he didn't know what to do for a while, and wanted to push open the door but was afraid of hurting Lu Yanyue.
"Don't panic, it's the prince who has gone in." After Lu Ming noticed Qiqi's expression, he calmly opened his mouth to comfort him. When Qiqi heard this, he relaxed a little, but except for the sound of broken objects in the room, he returned to silence again.
In the house, Song Anxiao, who opened the window and entered, accidentally knocked over the cup when he entered the house, which made a breaking sound. Because the room was pitch black, in order to adapt to the darkness, Song Anxiao stood in place with his eyes closed for a short while, and only then did he get used to the brightness around him a little.
After getting used to it, Song Anxiao slowly walked towards the position at the door, and vaguely saw Lu Yanyue sitting at the door, curled up and sitting on the ground. Somehow, seeing Lu Yanyue's appearance, Song Anxiao's heart melted unconsciously, his brows stretched, and the displeasure in his expression gradually dissipated, and a distressed shadow crept up.
Slowly walked to Lu Yanyue's side, stroked Lu Yanyue's head, and asked in a low and gentle voice: "What's wrong?" ”
Sensing the temperature from Song Anxiao's palm, Lu Yanyue still didn't react in the slightest, but curled up even tighter. After Song Anxiao noticed Lu Yanyue's actions, he subconsciously put his hand on Lu Yanyue's hand, but at the moment of touching, Song Anxiao was stunned for a moment.
Those slender hands seemed to be a block of ice, without the slightest temperature, and the cold was suffocating. Song Anxiao frowned, a trace of panic flashed in her eyes, and she no longer waited for Lu Yanyue's reaction, picked up Lu Yanyue and kicked the door open.
Qiqi, who was guarding outside the house, was also frightened, and looked at Lu Yanyue who was held in Song Anxiao's arms.
And Lu Yanyue seemed to be attracted by Song Anxiao's temperature, and reached out to hug Song Anxiao's neck, Song Anxiao did not refuse the chill coming from her neck, but the strength in her hand increased slightly. Seeing that Song Anxiao did not refuse, Lu Yanyue boldly buried her head deep in Song Anxiao's arms, feeling the temperature on Song Anxiao's body to the fullest.
Song Anxiao also let Lu Yanyue act in his arms, and took him back to his house with a cold face. As soon as she stepped into the house, Lu Yanyue felt the change in the temperature around her, after all, it was winter, and Lu Ming naturally lit the stove in Song Anxiao's house as soon as she returned home.
Slowly walking to the bed, Song Anxiao planned to put Lu Yanyue on the bed, but who knew that the height of her hand had just dropped a little, and Lu Yanyue hugged Song Anxiao nervously. Seemingly, it is a refusal.
"I'll ask Qiqi to change your clothes and lie on the bed."
Song Anxiao said in a low voice, no emotion could be heard in his tone, but at least it sounded no longer cold.
Glancing back at the closed door, the corners of Song Anxiao's mouth suddenly turned into a light smile, and Lu Yanyue in her arms didn't seem to be ready to let go. "Otherwise, I'll change your clothes?" Song Anxiao's voice was low and terrifying, and Lu Yanyue couldn't help but tremble slightly when she heard this, and then let go of her hand.
Seeing this, Song Anxiao gently put Lu Yanyue on the bed. Then he coldly opened his mouth and called Qiqi into the house, and at the same time asked Lu Ming to prepare a hot dinner and send it in.
After Qiqi changed Lu Yanyue's clothes, Lu Yanyue wrapped herself in the quilt and stuffed herself in the quilt.
Song Anxiao waited through the screen for a while, estimated the time, walked in and took a look, and when he saw this, his eyes crossed with suspicion. Signaling Qiqi to retreat, he also came to Lu Yanyue's side, sat on the edge of the bed, and said in a distempered tone: "Do you want to suffocate yourself to death, and then blame me?" ”