Chapter 56: Inexplicable jealousy
"Mao Xiaoer, your movements are so strange!" The smack voice said.
That's when I noticed that it was Qiao Qiao, who was doing radio drills while tilting her head and looking at me curiously.
"What's weird?" As I spoke, I still looked at Lin Ximeng.
"Why do you keep turning your head to one side?"
"Oh, huh? You've noticed. ”
"What are you looking at?"
"Nothing." As I turned around, I faced Qiao Qiao to answer the question.
"You can't be watching Lin Ximeng, right?" Qiao Qiao said playfully, her head swaying lightly with her movements, and at first glance it looked like a bobblehead doll.
I couldn't help but feel shocked, this girl was really weird, and she actually guessed my mind at once. But the way she talks to me while making movements is quite cute, like an elf in a cartoon.
"Hehe, you're so smart." I laughed.
"Hahahaha......" she laughed too, innocently.
When my body turned back again, I continued to look at Lin Ximeng. Through the afterglow, I saw that Qiao Qiao was also looking in that direction, as if trying to follow my line of sight to find who Lin Ximeng was.
There are a lot of people in sight, so many that it is difficult to distinguish, I don't expect that it is impossible for her to find Lin Ximeng like this. She didn't give up, looking at me from time to time, and then at the person in the sight, but she didn't ask me anything more.
There was a boy in the class who had a close relationship with Qiao Qiao. In my experience, this boy likes Qiao Qiao nine times out of ten and is always courteous. As for Qiao Qiao, she can talk and laugh with this boy, and maybe the relationship between the two is like me and Lin Ximeng.
With a little curiosity, I tried to spy on Qiao Qiao: "You seem to know XXX very well." ”
"Oh, he, we sat at the front and back tables last year." Qiao Qiao said happily.
"Look at the two of you, it's quite intimate." I narrowed my eyes and stared sharply at her.
"Why, just ordinary friends." Qiao Qiao grinned.
"Ordinary friends send you candy, snacks, and homework every once in a while?"
"Ang, can't you?" Qiao Qiao smashed these eyes, so innocent and cute that people couldn't refute it.
I suddenly felt that I was running out of words, and I couldn't come up with any new evidence, and it was inconvenient to break the casserole and ask the end, so I gave up on the matter. However, my strong curiosity still instructed me to continue to pay attention to the people and things around Qiao Qiao, which stimulated me to dig out the truth.
The boy still came to Qiao Qiao's desk from time to time, almost every day between classes, in the morning, in the afternoon, and the gap between evening self-study did not fall. He stood, Jo sat coincidentally, and they talked and laughed like this for a whole class, as if there was never enough to say.
I've never had such a happy chat with a girl, never with Yan Jinfeng, and never with Lin Ximeng. When I walk with Lin Ximeng, I will also be nervous, I will also be uneasy, I will forget what to say, and I can't find a topic for a long time.
On the other hand, when I walked with Lin Ximeng once, I seemed to be satisfied, and I didn't have much motivation to be so eager to talk to her every day, and even felt that it was a kind of pressure to encounter every day. Isn't it embarrassing, depressing, and headache if you encounter it but don't know what to say?
And the boy and Qiao Qiao in front of me really made me jealous, how could they do it, they couldn't stop chatting, and they were so gentle when they talked angrily. There seemed to be a constant ambiguity in the air, which made me very uncomfortable.
The other pair in front of me is also so ambiguous. Tian Xiao often turned around and asked the two of us top students questions. Turning around from her perspective, the first person she saw was naturally Yang Mo. Yang Mo is always actively cooperating, usually answering questions before me.
They lay on the desk face to face, looked at the scratch paper between the two, and chatted and chatted about life problems, from life problems to relationship problems. Yang Mo spoke very carefully, Tian Xiao listened very happily, the two of you say a word to me, sometimes if you are not careful, it is a whole evening self-study.
The two of them are definitely closer than Qiao Qiao and that boy, and they are definitely several times closer than me and Lin Ximeng. However, for the two of them, I was not so jealous, and I didn't even bother to pay attention. I can always eliminate the homework in my hand with peace of mind, and I don't mind that they discuss problems next to me, and I don't mind that they fall in love next to me.
However, when that boy came to chat with Qiao Qiao, I was so concerned, so unhappy, and even felt a trace of worry, and I didn't know where to worry. It's weird!
The relationship between Yang Mo and Tian Xiao continued to heat up. They care about and help each other, go to the cafeteria to eat together, run on the playground together, listen to music with headphones together, and even sometimes Yang Mo will buy breakfast for Tian Xiao.
At the self-study that night, Yang Mo held a rolled-up note in his hand and gently tapped Tian Xiao's back. Tian Xiao turned around, bared his teeth and smiled, and took it with understanding.
After a while, Tian Xiao also rolled up a note, turned around and lightly placed it on Yang Mo's stationery box. Yang Mo opened it and took a look, and couldn't help but giggle, the corners of his mouth raised like a devil.
Presumably, what is passed between them is a top-secret love story, which I see in my eyes and am sweet for them. The closer they were, the happier I became.
I also see them as role models, and I look forward to the day when Lin Ximeng and I can be so close.
However, when almost the same intimacy happened between that boy and Qiao Qiao, I felt a little sour in my heart, it felt like when I saw other boys appear next to Yan Jinfeng. Why is this so?
"That boy comes to you every day for nothing, you must have that relationship." I probed Qiao Qiao again in a mocking tone.
"No, no, you misunderstood."
"You two are so gentle when you talk, isn't it ambiguous?"
"What are you talking about, it's not." Qiao Qiao said confidently, with a hint of a smile on his face, and he didn't show a shy look, "Tian Xiao and Yang Mo are ambiguous." ”
"Eh, don't pull me and Tian Xiao out to talk about the problem." Yang Mo said with a smile.
"Ahh Qiao Qiao smiled awkwardly.
If you want to ask about this topic again, everyone will be very unhappy, so let's stop quickly, I said, "Okay, okay, I'm just teasing, no offense." ”
"Eh, how have you been talking to Lin Ximeng lately?" Qiao Qiao teased me in turn, smiling evilly.
"Hey, let's stop, hurry up and do your homework." With that, I pressed the workbook under my arm and plunged into it, probably like an ostrich.
I don't know why I'm so interested in digging up the truth about Qiao Qiao, maybe I'm interested in Qiao Qiao?
Qiao Qiao, beautiful and cute, moves like an elf innocent and lively, and when she is quiet, she lazily leans back against the desk and chats with us like a fairy. Especially when she was wearing that dark green trench coat, the combination of the innocence of the students and the elegance of the ladies really made my heart throb a little.
Come to think of it, I've never had such a good conversation with a girl, and it doesn't seem like that. Qiao Qiao gave me a sense of affinity that I had never had, and in just a few months of getting along, when I talked and laughed with her, I didn't have to be afraid of anything, I didn't have to care about the scale of my speech, and I didn't have to worry about what kind of expression I had to make. Every moment is so natural and harmonious, like walking with clouds across the sky, like flowing water blowing through mountain streams.
Thinking about it again, when I faced Lin Ximeng, I would be nervous, would retreat, would speak incoherently, and the meeting would be red-eared, and I would still have palpitations in retrospect after each conversation, and I was afraid that I had said or done something wrong, and what I should have said and done at that time. In contrast, the light-heartedness and unscrupulousness when I was with Qiao Qiao seemed to make me happier, more like, and more addicted.
No, that's not right! What the hell am I thinking? How can I indulge in the world of Georgy?
The person I love is only Lin Ximeng!
How can I like other girls! That's not right! This mood must be delusional!
If I still like other girls, then what's the difference between me and Yan Jinfeng? What's the difference with the person I hate?
Only Yan Jinfeng, the ugly mind under the disguise of her beautiful appearance, would make such a half-hearted act. I will never forget the pain she brought me, I liked her so much, she liked me so much, but suddenly left me that day, leaving me with eternal darkness.
I hate people like her, I won't be like her, how can I be like the people I hate!
"But you're like that!" An ethereal voice burst into my ears.
"Who's talking?" I looked around. This is my bedroom, the door is locked, no one else.
"Have you forgotten the wives and wives in kindergarten?" The voice continued to echo.
"Nope! I just think of them as friends. ”
"Nope! You really like them. ”
"Nope! There is always only one person I like, Yan Jinfeng is the first, Lin Ximeng is the second, and I only like Lin Ximeng after I broke off my thoughts about Yan Jinfeng. ”
"Nope! You've liked both of them at the same time. ”
"Nope! I may have been deceived by Yan Jinfeng's beauty, but now I only like Lin Ximeng, and I yearn for her beautiful heart. ”
"Only those who are in the dark desire to embrace the light. You know how dark your heart is. ”
"Nope! People like Yan Jinfeng only deserve to be spurned by me, and she is not worthy of being the first person I like. The first person I really liked, my first love, should be Lin Ximeng! ”
"Do you know what it means to be liked? Do you really know what's really going on in your heart? ”
"I know that feeling, the feeling of liking a person, it only belongs to Lin Ximeng!"
"Then is there any difference between how you feel about Qiao Qiao now and when you liked Lin Ximeng?"
"Definitely different! I...... How I feel about Qiao Qiao now...... That's right! It should be a feeling between good friends! ”
"So can you tell what friendship is and what love is? Do you think there really is a pure friendship between men and women? ”
"I, I'm ......" I was anxious to say something, but I couldn't find the right language. What kind of friendship and love are between men and women? I guess it's two different feelings. But I seem to have only experienced one feeling, and that is the feeling of wanting to be close.
"Hahahaha, think about it again...... Hahahaha...... "The laughter swirled throughout the room, fading away until it died down.
I'm still thinking about the whole thing. So is this kind of love for girls that I have generated a desire for friendship or a yearning for love? What kind of relationship is the relationship between Yang Mo and Tian Xiao? What kind of relationship is there between Qiao Qiao and that boy? What kind of relationship will Yan Jinfeng have with so many boys?
Yes...... It's annoying! Why should I think about these questions? I just need to think about Lin Ximeng, I believe that my love for Lin Ximeng must be love, I was determined after experiencing the baptism of my heart that day, and I was even more determined after praying to heaven that day. You can't go wrong!
However, when it comes to Lin Ximeng, it seems that I haven't met her on the road for a long time. Did something happen to her?