"I decided! I want to join the party! At the beginning of the senior year, when this sentence came out of Geng Qiming's mouth, Peng Xu and I were stunned.

"Did I hear me right?" I leaned my back against the escalator of the dormitory bed, and I felt a chill down my spine. It was a real feeling, not in a dream.

"You are an angry young man who usually complains about the society, this is not good, that is not good, why is your consciousness so high suddenly?" Peng Xu frowned rarely.

"yes, I figured something out." Geng Qiming said very firmly, "There are all kinds of dark sides in any society, and I have only seen too many dark things before, but I have not been able to see the spreading light with the eyes of development." ”

"What do you mean by that?"

"No one is perfect, there are always shortcomings, and the same is true for the party. But in recent years, I have seen its efforts to deal with all kinds of social diseases, and I believe that it will get better and better, and only it can dispel the darkness and make the whole society better and better! ”

"Shouldn't it be your family who enlightened you?" Peng Xu said with a smile, "She successfully applied to join the party because of her good grades when she was a freshman." ”

"No, when I talked to her, I found out that she didn't really care much about society. She only got a place to join the party because of her good grades, and she didn't think independently about why she wanted to join the party at all. Geng Qiming retorted.

"And you can still have such a lively discussion with her?"

"It's because her views are not perfect, so I analyzed a lot of social phenomena with her in detail."

"I'm afraid you tried to convince her, but she corrected her, haha." Peng Xu still smiled suspiciously at Geng Qiming.

"Oh, I don't reason with you, it's easy to be led astray by you. No matter who you are, your thinking is always sublimated during the discussion. She must have opened her eyes a lot, and I must have seen more deeply into reality and raised my consciousness. ”

"Now that I'm in my senior year, I'm the last batch to join the party. The good grades in the sublimation class have basically joined the party, and there are only three of us left, and the quota is just three, so let's hold a group. I suggested.

"Yes, the competition is not fierce anyway, and there is a chance not to enter in vain." Peng Xu said.

Geng Qiming sighed: "You guys are also blindly following the trend, I should really reason with you." ”

"Haha, you and Mao Xiaoer can talk more, and I'll be exempt." Peng Xu said with a smile.

"What's wrong with you?"

"I've made a big decision! I'm going out and renting a house! ”

"Why do you have to spend money to rent a house to live in if you don't live in a free dormitory?" I asked.

"I guess I want to be more free and live with my sister." Geng Qiming squinted at Peng Xu and said.

"Why do you keep thinking of me so obscenely? I just want a more independent and comfortable space to study. ”

"What are you studying?"

"Sprint and strive to be able to stay in school!" Peng Xu said with an oath.

"What? Where did you get the news? Didn't the teacher say at the beginning that we can only keep our school? Geng Qiming asked puzzled.

"You know, I'm very well-informed. As the first sublimation class, the students expressed their dissatisfaction with the fact that they could only keep the school, and after the joint book, the teacher made a concession and allowed to give a place to be able to keep the school. Peng Xu explained.

"Well, I don't have the heart to do that." Geng Qiming said.

"Haha, I don't have that in mind." I laughed.

"I even planned to give up graduate school and go straight to work." Geng Qiming added.

"Huh? Why not get a graduate diploma for nothing? ”

"I want to go to work early to support myself." Geng Qiming sighed, "Hey! In fact, I am still struggling, and maybe I will choose to study here in the end. ”

Peng Xu and I just didn't know what to say, and together with Geng Qiming, the three of them looked at each other and fell into a short silence. One wants to go to another school and obtain a more weighty graduate diploma; One wants to directly pick up the salary that can be held in his hand, after all, the computer industry pays more attention to ability. Human beings are complex. And I just want to quietly get what I want and can easily obtain. Like the afternoon sun shining on the steps, I love the feeling of sleeping with it on my pillow.

So, throughout my senior year, I didn't have much contact with Peng Xu, but I met him during class group activities. He seemed to be in good shape, and with a confident smile all the time, he occasionally talked to us privately about his tireless efforts to obtain parole status.

I listened to his narration and admired him from the bottom of my heart. I hope he gets his wish, but I also know that he has at least one strong opponent, and that is Fang Cuilan.

After class, Fang Cuilan still walked with me, Peng Xu and Geng Qiming, chatting about the interpretation of the recent course content, their views on current affairs, their outlook for the upcoming graduation season, and their general plans for the future.

However, unlike usual, I noticed that Fang Cuilan would pay more attention to me, especially when talking about some important topics, as if she wanted to talk to me specifically.

I felt flattered, afraid that Fang Cuilan would be interesting to me, but I felt a trace of inexplicable joy and excitement.

I tried my best to restrain the joy and excitement in my heart and shifted my attention to Geng Qiming. Looking at him, I suddenly remembered myself.

I suddenly felt that Geng Qiming was like me, Fang Cuilan was like Lin Ximeng, and I was like Song Hongyi.

I love Lin Ximeng deeply, but Lin Ximeng always puts more attention on Song Hongyi, and I can't help but suspect that Lin Ximeng likes Song Hongyi. But I know that Song Hongyi will never have thoughts about Lin Ximeng beyond friendship, he has his goals, so I can give him 100% trust.

Geng Qiming should also like Fang Cuilan deeply, but now Fang Cuilan is paying more attention to me, and I can't help but suspect that she likes me. I knew I had a firm goal in my heart, and in that far east, I shouldn't be moved by Fang Cuilan. Geng Qiming also knows this about me very well and will give me 100% trust.

But I often sigh that if I hadn't been exiled here, if I hadn't thought about parting ways after graduation, if I was willing to go to any Internet company like Fang Cuilan and the majority of computer students, maybe Fang Cuilan would be my best choice, maybe avoiding her liking me would eventually leave me with endless regrets.

In any case, this is the choice I made after all, and I determined that long-term Lin Ximeng, and for her, I rejected a Fang Cuilan who liked me and maybe should be my best home. I won't regret it.

One day, I was eating lunch leisurely in the cafeteria alone, and Fang Cuilan slowly walked over with a plate and sat opposite me, just like during the summer training.

"Are you going to be on parole?" She looked at me gently.

"I didn't plan to do that, and the test results I've already achieved won't allow me to do that." I teased with ease.

"Are you going to stay here for another three years?"

"Yes. Uh, that, how prepared are you? ”

"At the moment, there is still hope that I will be released on bail, but this makes me feel uneasy."

"Oh? Why? ”

"Maybe I have feelings for this school, and I am reluctant to leave. For four years, every grass and tree, every brick and ...... tile here," she looked out the window, thoughtful, and then turned her head to stare at me, "and familiar people and things......"

Her eyes were full of affection, like a lake reflecting the moonlight, shining with deep and distant sparkling waves, and I couldn't help but feel that my heart was stirring, and I felt that she meant something. Time may have thought so too, so at that moment everything around him froze, silent and overwhelmed.

"Haha" Fang Cuilan suddenly squinted her eyes shyly and laughed, her crooked eyes were just like elegant crescents, very beautiful and cute. Then, she looked down at the plate and said, "And the delicious food in this cafeteria!" ”

"Oops, it seems that there are too many dishes today, and I can't finish eating, so I'll leave this chicken leg for you." Still smiling shyly, she took a wing and placed it on my plate.

My mind suddenly replayed what I had said on the phone with Lin Ximeng a few days ago.

"You're about to graduate, are you going to work directly, or are you going to graduate school?" I asked her.

"I haven't decided yet, I'm looking for a job, and I'm also preparing for the graduate school entrance examination. What about you? ”

"I'm ......" I hesitated for a while, but I still didn't want to tell her about the graduate school, "It's difficult to find a job and prepare for the graduate school entrance examination at the same time, so I think I should focus on the graduate school entrance examination." ”

"Haha, Xueba is really still Xueba, I believe you can."

I lowered my head in shame on the other end of the phone, compared with the classmates in the sublimation class around me, I am simply a scumbag, where can I still deserve the title of "Xueba"? It's just that in Lin Ximeng's heart, my so-called image of "good grades" is still so deep-rooted. Besides, do I have any other image in her mind? Is the fact that she has been able to chat with me so happily lately proves that she likes me?

Now that I'm destined for graduate school, is she just as capable of going to graduate school as I am? I hope she can get in, no matter where it is, and I want me to graduate at the same time as her, and go to work at the same time, preferably in the same city. Otherwise, if she had joined the work first, perhaps she would have been snatched away by others first. And I, still trapped in a cage in the Exiled Lands, can only watch as she is snatched away.

"Why are you stunned? The dishes are going to be cold. Fang Cuilan's voice broke my contemplation, and I noticed that she was looking at me suspiciously.

"Ah, nothing, thank you for the drumsticks." I quickly ate a few bites of food to ease the worries in my heart.

The senior year was busy and short, and when the dust settled, I heard that Peng Xu's parents actually came to the school and were busy negotiating with the school leaders.

"What's going on, what's going on?" I asked Peng Xu.

"My overall score was 1 point less than the first place, and my parents came to help me try to fight for the school, and it also allowed me to stay outside the school."

"How's it going?"

"The school simply refuses to be accommodating, I'm X! I'm not convinced! Peng Xu had never had such a stern tone, how much weight the qualification for bail should have in his heart! I could understand his feelings, but I couldn't accept his thinking. Perhaps, this is the world in the eyes of the real "scholars".

"Who's the number one?"

"It's Fang Cuilan!"

"Does that mean she's eligible for school parole?"

"Of course, so I'm not qualified, so I can only keep the school!"

I looked at Peng Xu, who was still angry, and didn't know what to say. In fact, he is a little bit away from realizing his wish, not a little bit of that 1 point.

That day, Fang Cuilan actually took the initiative to tell me that if I was willing to accept her, she was willing to stay for me.

And I rejected her after all.