"You're drunk."

The boy woke up at some point, took the empty jar in her hand, and took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears, but he couldn't wipe them off.

"I want to get drunk too, maybe I'll wake up and go home."

Su Jinluan looked at him helplessly and desperately.

"But I can't go back."

"It's not good here at all."

"Do you know that Yang Jinluan is dead? She's dead. ”

"I don't dare die, I'm afraid I'll miss the opportunity to go back if I can."

"But I don't know how to live."

"Here my father doesn't love my mother, Fangcao is dead, Yu Bo is dead, someone wants to kill me, in broad daylight!"

"What a! Can't you even live with grievances?! ”

"But what is the purpose of living? Stumbling and stumbling until the age of fifteen, he will get married and have children, and he will be reincarnated for the second time? ”

"Even if you are lucky enough to give birth to a child safely, then what? Trapped in the backyard for a lifetime, the husband and the child, the red face is not old and the old is broken first, only to see the newcomer laughing, how can I hear the old man crying? ”

"Go to the special three wives and four concubines! I'm disgusting, you know? Disgusting! What the hell is a woman here? Hell, men are inferior to women, why! ”

She grew louder and louder, and tears welled up as if the floodgates had opened.

"It's not fair."

"I'm going back. I don't like crossing, I don't like it here. Why me? Why? ”

"It's all a lie in the novel! It's so hard to cross! Soap glass is not easy to make, I can't even make sodium hydroxide, let alone hydrochloric acid! I'm not fit for crossing at all. Singing is also suspected, and it is even more impossible for women to dress up as men to take the imperial examination, and those candidates can't hold back and go directly to the airtight examination room in public for convenience, vomiting ......"

The boy covered her mouth with a headache, and his temples jumped abruptly.

He also drank a lot, and he drank in a hurry, and he was not comfortable, and he could not listen to these tasteful words.

"You're drunk, don't make a fuss."

The little girl under her hand whimpered and wept, as if carrying the sorrow and sorrow of eternity, unwilling and uneasy, but there was no way to get rid of it.

He sighed and whispered in her ear:

"Don't be afraid, I'll be good to you."

Su Jinluan looked at him with teary eyes, and seemed to look at the ethereal past, or the future, through him.

"A man's mouth, a deceitful ghost."

The young man sighed again, lifted up the little girl who was about to collapse from crying, took a half-dried handkerchief, and carefully wiped her white and tender face.

"Zi said, since ancient times, there have been deaths, and the people have no faith and do not stand. Brother Xu never lied to Sister Jinluan. There is no shortage of affectionate and righteous good men in the world, don't be scared by your father, I'm not like him, I'll really be good to you. ”

"We've been in church, forgot? Don't cry, I'll marry you, I'll be good to you for the rest of my life, don't be afraid. ”

"Good only for me?" Su Jinluan was drunk and sad, and he didn't forget to seek benefits for himself.

"This life is the same." The boy solemnly promised.

"Don't." Su Jinluan pouted. "You speak sourly, and you always say, it's like reciting a mantra, and your head hurts when you listen to it, so you don't want to be talked about for a lifetime."

The boy was dumbfounded.

never knew that his words and deeds that were praised by others would be disliked by her.

Is this a drunken confession?

Su Jinluan was still chirping and saying some drunken words:

"It's not good here, it's not human, it's not pleasant at all. I can't eat or sleep well, I don't even have toilet paper to go to the toilet, I have to chew branches to brush my teeth, and I'm not a sheep. ”

"There is no electricity, no internet, what kind of old-fashioned ghost stories are written in the book? Either the scholar abducted Miss Qianjin and eloped, or met a glamorous ghost vixen, really when the women were blind, no one wanted it? ”

"I want to rub the Internet to watch dramas, I want to chase novels and comics updates, I want to play scumbag games, I want to go shopping, I want to code words."

"Do you know how my codeword phone came from? It was the younger brothers and sisters in the courtyard who picked up the bottles one by one in exchange! ”

"A mineral water bottle is a dime, a few hairy children wander around the street, in order to grab a bottle with a tall adult, they don't dare to go separately, they meet a group, and whoever grabs the bottle will run first;"

"It's good to be scolded for the rest of the people who can't run away, maybe they will be pushed, and their pants and legs will be torn, and they won't cry with tears in their eyes."

"They just picked up bottle by bottle, saved dime by dime, and finally saved enough money to buy a second-hand smartphone, and happily bought it for me, smiling so sweetly, exactly like angels."

"They said that Sister Jinluan likes to read, there are many books on the Internet, Sister Jinluan can read it, she can read anything she wants."

Su Jinluan closed his eyes, the corners of his mouth curled, and tears flowed quietly.

"They don't know that there is no Internet in the hospital, they can't read novels, and they have to charge their phone bills every month, otherwise they will be shut down."

"But I'm still very happy, I can write novels, I can sign a contract and I can earn manuscript fees, and when I have money, I can do a lot of things. So my younger siblings started picking up bottles again to help me charge my phone bill. ”

"Later, a well-wisher from the long-term funding home came to see us, saw my precious mobile phone, was silent for a while, and bowed to me apologetically."

"She said, I'm sorry, I can't fund a good mobile phone, or a laptop that is obsolete, because there are more and more bitter and difficult children who need help, and they can only wronged me."

"She's a star, you know?"

For the first time, there was a smile in her voice, and the tears stopped.

"She is what she is talking about! She deserves to be grateful and honored for helping so many people in need, but she apologizes for not being able to give me a good phone, and feels guilty for wronging me for helping other children. ”

"Where is the grievance, I feel sorry for her grievance."

"She owes me nothing, she doesn't owe anyone, I owe her. I want to write the best script for her, invite her to play the female lead, earn more salary, realize her kindness and kindness, and don't make her sad and guilty. ”

"There are many, many kind-hearted people, and there are mothers who have never abandoned our motherland, I want to go back, and I haven't repaid them yet......"

The voice grew lower and lower, until it was never heard.

A tear slipped from the corner of her eye and disappeared into her wet hair.

When the young man saw that she had finally stopped, he exhaled tiredly, pinched the handkerchief and tried to help her wipe away her tears, but he took out a drop of water, hurriedly moved it to the side and dripped it to the ground, and sighed secretly that she was really made of water.

Raising his fingers and rubbing his aching temples, he pulled a woman's coat and put it on her, the young man picked up the teapot and poured white water over the two cups, poured the residual water into the wine jar, took the semi-wet coat he had put on for her in the morning, quietly covered the door with the wine jar, and struggled to climb over the wall and return the same way.

After listening to her childish drunken words, although she did not get a glimpse of the beauty of fairyland, it can be seen from her deep nostalgia that it must be excellent, and waiting for her excellent relatives and friends made her unable to let go, and she actually gave birth to a world-weary heart and wanted to follow it.

Seeking but not being able to do so is suffering, and gaining and losing is even more bitter.

Xu Changqing sighed again, shook his head, endured the rising wine, and tried his best to return home steadily.

"Mother, you ask someone to go to the Yang family to propose marriage, and set up a sister Jinluan for me."