Chapter 42: Farewell Tears (Part II)
Riding a horse all the way to the north, my mind turned sharply, since Miss Su Yu is fleeing, she will definitely not take the official road, and will definitely choose the sheep intestine path. But she is a woman, if it is too remote, I am afraid it is not appropriate, think about it, I chose an unknown and not dark path along the road, this road is not an official road, but it is not a remote road, straight to all over the big towns and villages, the road is flat, and there are many people coming and going.
However, this road is not a straight road to the north, but a detour, and it actually goes around to the territory of Hubei. Three days later, I found a nearby town to inquire, only to find out that not far ahead, it was the very famous Gurungzhong. Gurungzhong, it is the Three Kingdoms period, Liu Bei Sangu thatched cottage invited Zhuge Liang out of the mountain, this place has been out of Longzhong three strategies, so even the place name has been changed to Gurungzhong. Just to commemorate Zhuge Liang.
Miss Su Yu is also a talented woman, if she passes through this place, she will definitely go up the mountain to visit the virtuous, or visit this place. Thinking of this, I led the horse slowly into the mountain, but not far ahead, I saw a group of villagers around a mountain col, everyone talking about something, and from time to time a few people sighed. I saw it in my eyes, but I was puzzled, and I couldn't help but step forward and ask, "Dare to ask a few fellows, what happened in front?" ”
A recent old man turned his head to look at me, and sighed casually: "Alas, I don't know where a woman came from, maybe she was desperate, or maybe she encountered some difficulties, but she actually found a short time on this Luoyan Cliff...... Now the corpse has fallen in the col, and it is so miserable! After saying this, the old man kept shaking his head and sighing, but when I heard it in my ears, I felt my ears buzzing, and immediately threw off the reins and ran quickly towards the col in front of me.
My heart suffocated for a while, and I vaguely felt like something had happened, and I walked through a grove of trees, and I looked at the pool of blood, which had already flowed all over the ground. Looking further, I only felt as if my head was rushed up by a stream of blood, and for a while, those memories of the past were like a mountain and a sea, pouring out. I recognized it, and I remembered it, that, the corpse that fell to the ground, no, wasn't it the person with whom I was destined for three lives?
"Su Yu!"
I ran to Qiu Suyu like crazy, at this moment, the bones on her body seemed to have been broken, and on her head, there was already seven holes bleeding, I trembled my hands, and held it in my arms little by little. It's quiet, it's quiet, but after it's quiet, I hugged Qiu Suyu's body and cried...... "Why don't you wait a moment?" Why? Why?! Woowoo...... It's all my Zihao who has lost you, it's all my fault, it's all my fault......"
The cool mountain wind, unscrupulously blowing on my face, blowing on my body, was cold, but not as good as my heart. My heart seems to have fallen into the ice cellar, into the abyss, only cold teardrops, constantly falling on Miss Su Yu's face, just holding Miss Su Yu's body, I don't know how long I cried, no matter whether the sea is dry or the stone is rotten, I just want to hold her like this, maybe, maybe this is the only compensation I make for her guilt.
Three days later, I was like a soulless corpse, stiffly holding another corpse, tears seemed to have dried up, and during this time, it seemed that countless people were persuading me that if I waited a long time, this corpse would probably stink, so I should be buried in the ground. But I couldn't listen to anything, and in my heart, it seemed that I couldn't tolerate anything except Miss Su Yu. I don't know how long it took, but I only heard Yujiao's cry, which woke me up.
In a trance, I remembered that I already had a family and a lovely son, but what am I doing now? I was confused, looking down at the person in my arms, at this moment, the corpse in my arms had begun to stink, and the scars all over my body had already turned into corpse water...... It seemed that Yujiao gave an order, and someone forcibly separated me from the corpse, and I immediately shouted and screamed, and tears flowed out uncontrollably again.
"Su Yu...... It's all my Zihao who has lost you, I owe you in this life, in the next life, I will definitely pay you back in the next life! "I struggled with my mission, and suddenly I felt a hard slash on the back, and I suddenly felt that my eyes were dark, and I didn't know anything."...... When I woke up, I was on a warm, comfortable bed. My energy seemed to have recovered a lot, and suddenly, I remembered Su Yu's corpse again, and I cried bitterly again.
Two days later, Yujiao and I came to the bottom of the cliff together, and pulled out the sword, and on the stone wall, deeply carved out a few words: "The tomb of the deceased wife Qiu's Suyu ......" was signed...... Husband Fang Zihao...... When the last word was engraved, I went limp, and I collapsed to the ground again.
When I saw the nearby villagers, I couldn't help but ask in a trembling voice: "Dare to ask the fellow villagers, what did my wife leave before she died?" "I really hope that Miss Su Yu can leave a few words, so that I can keep my memories and thoughts for the rest of my life. But I heard the villagers say that Miss Su Yu didn't say anything before she died, just kept repeating an ancient poem...... Ten years of life and death, without thinking, unforgettable, thousands of miles of lonely graves, nowhere to talk about desolation......
Hearing this Su Dongpo's words, I gritted my teeth fiercely, waved my hand to wipe away the tears on my face, slowly bowed my hand, and said: "Thank you fellow countryman for telling me this, thank you ......" After thanking me, I left with Yujiao in a carriage, and set up a spiritual seat for Su Yu in the Prime Minister's Mansion, as well as the spiritual seat of his deceased wife Zheng. Since then, I have loved Yujiao and my children, and my career has gradually risen under the protection of my father-in-law.
But time flies, the years shuttle, and before you know it, it is the ancient year. When I was dying at the age of seventy-seven, in front of the bed, my children and grandchildren kept asking me what my last wish was, and I trembled my hands and pointed weakly to the distance, that, that place called Luoyan Cliff. Inexplicably, the corners of my mouth hooked up a relieved smile, I knew that in that place, there was someone waiting for me, waiting for me to reunite with her, and never separate.
When the last tears fell, I saw a haze in front of me, and then ...... There is no then......
"Ergou, it's time to wake up!"
In the haze, there seemed to be a voice calling out to me, but this voice was so far away, but it seemed to be close at hand. Suddenly, I opened my eyes and gasped for breath, when I saw the bright moon in the sky, when I saw the familiar face of the city god, I immediately opened my eyes wide, sat up in a daze, and in my mind, it seemed that countless pictures had gathered at once, but those pictures seemed to suddenly become unreachable. After a long time, my throat cleared my voice with a bit of dryness, and I asked Lord Chenghuang, "Master Chenghuang, I, how long have I been sleeping?" ”
"Hehe, it didn't take long, it was just a cup of tea." The old man of the city god looked at it with a smile on crutches, and then asked: "Ergou, in the past and present life, have you seen it clearly, have you read it carefully?" ”
"It's just a cup of tea? This, how is this possible?! I, I clearly lived a life in a dream...... "Thinking back to everything in the dream, there is almost no difference from reality, the sun and the moon shuttle, the four seasons change, year by year, month and month, and even day and time, all so clear in the past, until the moment I died of old age, a whole few decades have passed, and in reality, it has only passed a cup of tea? This is outrageous!
The old man laughed loudly: "It seems like a dream, not a dream, a dream, a dream, if it is true, it is like an illusion...... Those are your past lives, and what you see and experience in your dreams are just passing clouds, and you haven't really lived a lifetime in them. Ergou, now that you know the cause and effect, you should have turned the cliff female ghost into a degree! After that, I saw the figure of the old man of the city god flicker, and disappeared from my sight in an instant.
I hurriedly got up and shouted, "Master Chenghuang, if I finish this matter, how can I find your old man?!" ”
"You'll see me then, go......" Lord Chenghuang's words echoed in mid-air for a long time, and slowly, disappeared into invisibility. I turned my head and couldn't help frowning, I never thought that my previous life was Fang Zihao, and if you count it, I really lost Miss Su Yu's life...... Miss Su Yu died because of me, and I just can't escape it. In addition, I promised her that I would repay her debt in the next life, but her obsession was deep-rooted and she failed to reincarnate for a long time, so this debt has been delayed until now.
In this case, it is reasonable to go to see Miss Suyu now, and completely dissolve the complex of hundreds of years ago. But, but when I think back to myself in my dream, I think back to my previous life, and my heart obviously prefers this Miss Su Yu a little more, but when I think about it, my previous life was really a bastard enough to be a nest, but I had an accident when I entered Beijing to catch the exam, and I also lost my memory, and I accidentally entered the Prime Minister's Mansion as a son-in-law, and was assigned by the old prime minister all my life.
In the end, even the person he loved the most was disappointed. If the current self faced himself in his previous life, I am afraid that he would have beaten him. It's just that when I think about it now, I can only smile bitterly, after all, the past has long passed, and no matter how much I remember, I won't reverse it back. Putting aside the hard thoughts in my mind, I walked down the cliff quickly, and now, it seems that there is no cliff ghost in my heart, there is only a trace of guilt in my heart.
How to face the guilt that has been accumulated for hundreds of years, how to face the deep affection that has been waiting for hundreds of years? How can I resolve Miss Suyu's attachment? I don't seem to have an exact solution, and I don't know where to start, but I've come to this point, no matter how difficult it is to solve, I can't delay it any longer, it's time to end, it's still to end!