I always believe that fate will always let me meet Yan Jinfeng at an inadvertent time and in an inadvertent corner.

With this belief, I have been chasing the revelation of fate on campus.

That week, in order to prepare for a final similar to the Mathematics Olympiad on computer programming, I and other students were given the privilege of staying in the computer room and doing exercises all the time, completely ignoring the cultural lessons.

This week has been a very torturous week for me, not only from the finals, but also from the fact that I don't know how to face Yan Jinfeng. I knew there would be a time during the week when it was Class 7 and I would meet her and spend 45 minutes in the same classroom. At that time, what will she think when she sees me? How should I deal with her when I meet her?

It's better not to run into her, I thought. But how is this possible? I can only hope that the time to meet is not today, every today. But she will always appear tomorrow, and it may be tomorrow. It was like a giant hammer hanging over my head, and I didn't know when it would come down, but I knew it would come down at any moment, and it would break my head and bleed. For this, I was nervous, scared, and avoided.

And that day finally came inadvertently.

I sat in the middle row of the computer room, facing just enough to see the main entrance. Whenever the door is lively, I can't help but take a look to see if there will be familiar people from familiar classes.

On this day, it was Zhang Hong who appeared at the door first. Obviously, his arrival indicates that the next computer class of Class 7 will be, and it indicates that Yan Jinfeng will also arrive soon. His arrival also made me feel a lot less stressed, at least leaving me a few minutes to sort out my mood and be fully prepared for Yan Jinfeng's arrival.

Zhang Hong also saw me, he was stunned for a moment, and after making sure that the other classmates around him were in his own class, he swaggered in, and then came to the place where I was sitting.

"Why are you here?" He asked.

"I'm not just here, but three people like me are here." The corners of my mouth lifted proudly.

"So what are you doing here?" He leaned on the computer desk and sat down next to me.

"We're going to have a coding competition for the weekend."

"The one you attended in elementary school?"

"yes, junior high school continues to participate. Look over there, the sub-book is also there. I gestured to the seat in the back row.

"Really." Zhang Hong stretched out his head and looked, then turned back to me and said, "Yan Jinfeng will be here later, how about letting her sit over?" ”

"Would she like to sit down?" I scoffed, I didn't have to think about it to know it was unrealistic.

"How do you know if you don't try, I'll call her later." After speaking, Zhang Hong and I watched the door closely.

Yan Jinfeng soon appeared and came with her best friend.

Zhang Hong stood up and waved his hand to Yan Jinfeng: "Yan Jinfeng, come and sit here." ”

Yan Jinfeng smiled happily, and trotted with his girlfriend to the intersection where we were, and then suddenly he was stunned, and the expression on his face disappeared instantly.

Apparently, she found me. And I kept my eyes on her.

Yan Jinfeng quickly made a choice, and when her best friend didn't react to what was going on, she pulled her and continued to trot along the wall all the way to the innermost row of the computer room, like a mouse uneasily from the wall in a big circle, and then picked a position in the corner and sat down. The frightened face was full of unhappiness, which was obviously a kind of evasion, and my mood suddenly fell to the bottom.

Although I had expected such a result, I had known that she didn't like me, I had known that she had been avoiding me all along, and I had been mentally prepared to think that I didn't care. But when she really showed it in front of me, when her beautiful eyes were full of contempt and hostility, when she suddenly changed from ecstatic to cold and unforgiving, I still felt a pang in my heart.

But I still pretended to be calm and said to Zhang Hong: "Look, as I said, she won't come." ”

"Don't be sad, you have to believe that you can do it."

"Forget it, I don't know what her attitude is towards me? I've gotten used to it, I've become numb. I sighed, glanced in Yan Jinfeng's direction, and then turned to face the computer. Get ready for class, no more. ”

"Mm-hmm, I'm ready for class." Zhang Hong also faced the computer that had been turned on, and silently clicked on the minesweeper.

I repeatedly thought about Yan Jinfeng's expression when he first entered the door and looked at Zhang Hong. It's been a long time since I've seen her smile so happily, it's still so sweet, especially the iconic little dimple, I still get intoxicated, and I haven't seen a second person with it. However, why was she so happy when she saw Zhang Hong? Almost trotted all the way over? I didn't see them like this when I was in elementary school, did I?

The more I thought about it, the more I felt that something was wrong. Could it be that Yan Jinfeng likes Zhang Hong? Could it be that Zhang Hong also fell under Yan Jinfeng's pomegranate skirt? Zhang Hong, as my undercover agent, appeared under Yan Jinfeng's nose beside me, and talked to me cordially, wouldn't it be exposed?

From time to time, I glanced at the location where Yan Jinfeng was. She also seemed to be secretly looking at me, with that alert look. If the two of them had become good friends, would it have been revealed that I had arranged for Zhang Hong to go undercover? Could it be that I have been kept in the dark all along, thinking that I am monitoring Yan Jinfeng's every move through Zhang Hong, but I am actually being monitored by Yan Jinfeng through Zhang Hong?

There was also a boy sitting next to Yan Jinfeng, neither the originally thin one, nor the tall one seen at the school sports meeting, but another person I didn't know. He also interacts with Yan Jinfeng from time to time, and he looks very intimate, which makes people envious and jealous. Is there a new love again?

I didn't ask Zhang Hong on the spot, after all, he took the initiative to chat with me does not mean that he is my undercover agent, but if I take the initiative to ask him and also point in the direction of Yan Jinfeng, wouldn't it be true? I still have this awareness.

So I endured a lesson, a very restless lesson. The heart completely ran to Yan Jinfeng's side, and he didn't know what the code in his hand was.

At the old time, in the old place, I met Zhang Hong again and asked the new boy.

Listening to Zhang Hong's description, it turned out to be the same person I saw.

"You don't have to mind too much, it won't last long anyway." Zhang Hong said confidently.

"I also think that she is basically changing different boys every semester." I smiled indifferently.

"I don't need to use every semester, in my opinion, it has to be called 'a small change in March, a big change in May'."

"This word is used, do you think it is Cao Cao's kindness to Guan Yuna, is it really such an exaggeration?"

"Really, I don't lie to you, the boys who are good with her are in line."

Shocked, I had nothing to say, and my mind kept recalling what she looked like when I first met Yan Jinfeng. The beautiful and innocent little girl who once came to my world like an angel, exuding a holy light, spreading her snow-white and soft wings, made people fall in love at first sight and feel irresistible warmth and beauty.

And then, suddenly, she showed a devilish grin. Today, the holy light gradually turns blood red, and the wings behind it gradually become black and sharp. But the light is still dazzling, the wings are still breathtaking, and it is another irresistible feeling, bewitching and enchanting.

This is not the appearance I liked at first, and the Yan Jinfeng I am pursuing should not be like this. Now this Yan Jinfeng, is it really necessary for me to continue to pursue?

But if I don't pursue it anymore, it means that I will no longer watch outside the classroom at noon every day, I will no longer come to the carport every day after school with expectations, I will no longer seize every possible opportunity to pay attention to her, and I will no longer worry about her all day and night. So what do I have left?

My life will go blank, my heart will be empty, and my spirit will be empty.

No, I don't want that!