Chapter 128 Confess your heart
between the electric light and flint.
As soon as Mo Yan moved, it seemed to be a thunderbolt, it seemed to be Taishan teleportation, Scarlet Smoke only saw a corner of ink-colored robe flying, just in the blink of an eye, the person had disappeared without a trace, Scarlet Smoke thought that he wanted to have a close contact with the ground, but he didn't want to make the last intimate contact, it was actually Mo Yan's hard chest.
Scarlet Smoke blinked, the warm embrace, the hard chest, the inky trench coat...... Like a very person, when the apricot blossoms were raining lightly, he also hugged her like this, counting his carelessness, but his eyes were full of smiles, holding himself and the child in his womb.
Mo Yan tightened the scarlet cigarette into his arms, not knowing that the person in his arms was already full of thoughts, only knowing that he finally had a false alarm and did not let the scarlet smoke hurt himself.
After calming down, there was a nameless void fire in his heart, and he blamed Scarlet Smoke for not knowing how to take good care of himself, and looked at her slightly dull gaze, thinking that she was frightened, and he couldn't bear to blame her anymore, so he had to come to her room with Scarlet Smoke in his arms.
Scarlet Smoke had just sat on the bed, like a fish getting into the water, a carp jumped up from the bed, Mo Yan had just taken the medicine to give Scarlet Smoke medicine, and when he saw this, he couldn't help but have a myocardial infarction, and hurriedly pressed her on the bed. Scarlet Smoke grabbed his arm with his backhand and said earnestly, "We need to talk." ”
Mo Yan pursed her lips and didn't speak, just silently put Scarlet Smoke's hand back on her own thigh, then opened the medicine bottle, and filled it with some medicinal powder, carefully rubbing Scarlet Smoke's arm.
Seeing that he didn't speak, he just acquiesced, so he said: "I think we have all had some misunderstandings these days, whether I help you sort out the medicinal materials, help you tidy up the study, or give you some strange moths, it's just my heart's gratitude." If I don't do this, I can't convince my conscience that a scarlet smoke is a scarlet smoke, and even after this calamity, the idea of reciprocating the grace of a drop of water will not change. ”
Mo Yan lowered his head, gently wiped the worn skin for her, and blew before saying, "I know this." ”
He refused to say anything superfluous, scarlet lowered his eyes, and said, "You still blame me after all." ”
Mo Yan looked up at her.
"Scarlet Smoke, I don't blame you."
His palm covered Crimson's hand, and he looked at Scarlet Smoke calmly, his eyes a little more lingering.
"I'm angry, not because you have worked hard to repay me, but because you are always so desperate, as if you treat this favor as a very high interest rate of money, and want to repay it in the shortest possible time, and never owe each other. I'm afraid that what you miss so much is not a grateful heart, but a ......"
He took a deep breath before slowly exhaling the answer he feared most.
“…… Leave me. ”
Scarlet Smoke's heart jumped, and she wanted to pull out the hand covered by the ink death, but the ink death seemed to have expected Scarlet Smoke to make a move, so she simply held her tightly and did not let her have any thoughts of retreating.
"Scarlet Smoke, I like you."
Scarlet Smoke was stunned - should it come, is it still coming?
Mo Yan looked out the window, and his voice was a little erratic: "The first time I saw you, you healed my leg, and I felt that you were extraordinary. You have superb medical skills, extraordinary perseverance and martial arts, but your eyes are lonely and sad. You will go and seek the man whom you have in mind, and I will not stop you, nor will I try to stop you from finding happiness.
And the second time, it was on the outskirts of southern Xinjiang, you fell in the thorny grass, covered with scars, and I saw that there was no pain in your eyes, only grayness. At that moment, for some reason, my heart ached so much that I almost burst into tears.
Later, I tried my best to save you, and I don't know what kind of coincidence, but I had only one thought in my heart at that time, and that was to save you. I want to see if such a woman, who is covered in bruises and is obviously inhumanly abused, has she also laughed and laughed in the past, and whether she will be able to get out of the haze and fly like the wind in the future?
However, for so many days, it seems that nothing can really awaken the joy in your heart, as if it was once a fire, and then for some reason, the inside is damp, and it can no longer burn......
Scarlet smoke, I want to try to get into your heart, I want to be the flame that burns you, I want you to get out of the past and embrace life again. No matter how dark it was in the past, at least from now on, with me by your side, you will never be alone. ”
The words that came out of Mo Yan's mouth, word by word, hit Scarlet Yan's heart like a heavy hammer, and she was so painful and hateful that she couldn't answer for a while.
It wasn't until Mo Yan looked at her eagerly, the ardent expectation in his eyes was overflowing, hoping to get her affirmative answer but not wanting to force her to make a choice that went against her heart, Scarlet Yan knew that she couldn't escape anymore.
The debt she herself owes will one day be completely repaid, and there will be no more calamity.
"I'm not worthy of you." Scarlet Yan said dryly, "I am already a woman in the lower hall, no one cares about it, no one cares about it, no one cares about it, my husband abandons me, my children are not guaranteed, and you, handsome and chic, stand up to the sky, your future is still very long, why hang yourself on my impure tree?" ”
"Why do you have to be so arrogant?" Mo Yan smiled indifferently, "You look down on yourself too much, and you overestimate me too much." I'm not as noble as you think, I'm just an ordinary man, I just want to have a family of my own, I want a wife and children to be on the kang, I want to have a person, and I don't separate from each other. This person, no matter how she was imprisoned in the past, as long as she is willing to spend her life with me from now on, I will rejoice. ”
He got closer to Scarlet Smoke again, reflected Scarlet Smoke's face in the depths of his eyes, and said affectionately: "Are you willing to let go of the past and start over with me?" ”
Scarlet Smoke hung her head silently and did not answer.
She didn't know how to answer Mo Fu, and she didn't know how to accept Mo Fu's hot and burning love.
He is the rising sun, the bright light stains half the sky red, smiling, walking lightly, and passing through the place is spring.
And she has already turned into a thousand-year-old snow-capped mountain, three feet of ice shrinking herself in a small gray space, both longing to get a little sunshine, but also afraid that the sun will melt the seemingly hard but unbearable ice on her body, from now on, she will be exposed to the dazzling sun, but she is not ready, how to meet the baptism of the warm sun.
Seeing that she didn't speak, Mo Yan was slightly disappointed in her heart, but she still had a warm smile on her face, gently put down her hand, silently sorted out her things and retreated.
He said, "You only need to know your past." Let's know what will happen from now on. ”
"Whatever choice you make, I'll be here, waiting for you," he said. ”
Scarlet Smoke's lips moved, but finally pursed her lips, silently staring at the candlelight.
If she accepts it, it will be tantamount to completely betraying the love between her and Wei Chimu and severing the last bit of connection between them. Maybe from now on, this person will gradually fade out of her memory, and more than 20 years of time have become necessary, but there is a new life ahead, a new sun is rising, which can allow her to leave her troubles behind and welcome a new life.
If she refuses, she seems a little unkind. Mo died and met her in times of crisis, and the friendship of sending charcoal in the snow was so precious. He warms a heart on the verge of being broken with his true feelings, which normal woman can not be moved? Besides, Wei Chimu has no longer interacted with him, even if he guards the prosperous years of his youth day and night, can he get a glance back from his former sweetheart? Maybe he is now with Ning You, you and me, spending the moon before and after, just like they used to linger and sympathize, right?
Scarlet thought about it for a long time, and the headache became more and more intense, so she simply lifted the quilt and fell asleep.
This night, she slept very unsteadily, for a while it was Wei Chimu, the robe was flying in the gale, and her eyes showed sadness: "You have changed after all, ......" After a while, the painting style changed abruptly, and Mo Yan sat sideways in the courtyard of the bamboo house, looking at the sunset, and his voice echoed like a hollow valley: "I will wait for you......"
As a result, Scarlet Smoke woke up on the second day and found that his dark circles had been aggravated, and the clouds were like thick ink that could not be erased, and he looked a little more sad than usual.
Scarlet Smoke stared at the deep dark circles under her eyes and walked out, greeted by Mo Yan's handsome face with a smile.
"Good morning." He smiled warmly, and casually put the jade butterfly in his hand on the table, "This morning, the white jade shrimp cake, let's eat it with clean hands." ”
The tone was as peaceful as ever, as if last night's confession had never happened.
Scarlet Smoke's state of mind is not so natural. She stiffened slightly, then laughed dryly twice, and passed by Mo Xuan.
When eating breakfast, Mo Yan still naturally put a few more chopsticks for Scarlet Smoke: "The willow sprouts mixed with tofu are very delicious, you have always liked it, try it." ”
Scarlet Smoke froze again, and cautiously glanced at Mo Yan to make sure that he didn't mean to show excessive intimacy, so he barely squeezed out a smile and thanked him for his enthusiasm. Later, in order to prevent him from enthusiastically picking up vegetables for himself, Scarlet Smoke simply began to bury his head in cooking, so that Mo Yan had no chance to show affection to her again.
Mo Yan was stunned, seeing that Scarlet Smoke was looking down to pick up rice from beginning to end, and he didn't even want to look up at him, his heart was a little empty, he originally wanted to remind Scarlet Smoke not to eat in such a hurry, beware of choking on himself, but seeing her look like she refused to be born thousands of miles away, he didn't know where to persuade him.
"Ugh!"
The scarlet smoke still choked on it......
Mo Yan sighed, put down the dishes and chopsticks and patted her back, and Scarlet Smoke turned sideways while coughing violently, trying to avoid Mo Yan's touch. Mo Yan's eyes were cold, and he finally sighed: "I knew that after confessing my heart, you would avoid me like a tiger like this, and I wouldn't have said anything last night...... I'm sorry, Scarlet. ”
Scarlet Smoke poured a pot of water and calmed down before saying, "If you didn't say it last night, you will say it today; If you don't say it today, you will say it sooner or later. If you bury feelings in your heart, if you don't break it as soon as possible, when it brews to the point where you can't extricate yourself, who knows what will happen......"
Mo Yan lowered his eyes and sighed: "You don't worry about me after all." ”
Scarlet Smoke was silent, with a cramping pain in her heart, and finally didn't say anything.
Mo Yan slowly left, and Scarlet felt that the figure was extremely lonely for some reason.
After a while, there was a low sound outside the window, low and sad.