Throughout the English morning self-study, Wu Yueming was in a state of confusion, and he couldn't sort out a single thought in his head. In fact, he was in this state all morning, after eating at noon, taking a rest, and in the afternoon, Wu Yueming felt much better, but he was still a little unable to do the test papers, especially when he saw the English questions, he would think of Lei Ruochen. Then, when he habitually used the tip of his pencil to tap Lei Ruochen's left shoulder, he realized that Xie Meimei was sitting in front of him. His arm, along with his pencil, stopped in the air, waiting until he felt the pain in his arm before retracting it.

At night, Wu Yueming lay in bed at eleven o'clock, which made Tang Xiaogang very satisfied. But as long as he closed his eyes, he would see Lei Ruochen's shallow smile. This couldn't make him sleep, so he covered his head with a quilt, took out a diary from the storage box, flipped to a page casually, and read it with the faint light of his mobile phone.

"Today, a terrible thing happened at the school, a senior sister committed suicide by jumping off a building, and she seemed to use her death to tell us what boys of our age were pursuing us for. It is impossible to talk about the metaphysical feelings of Ding'er, and of course it is impossible to pursue platonic love.

However, Wu Yueming should not be blamed on this type of boy. The more famous is a little different from from. Perhaps, in the next period of time, I still have to carefully keep a little distance from him, which can be regarded as a test for him. I hope that in the future, he will forgive me.

Of course, this one is not worried at all, Yue Ming, he will definitely understand my intentions. Sometimes, I can always feel that he knows what I'm thinking before I even say anything. In this sense, he seemed to know me better than my mom and dad. It's just that what he's thinking, I sometimes don't know, should I spend some effort to know more about the name? No, no, no, I had to make up my mind to distance myself from him just now, why do you think about getting to know him better now? Lei Ruochen! Lei Ruochen, I think you are evil. ”

It turned out that Lei Ruochen was deliberately alienating himself after the jumping incident, and Wu Yueming's original conjecture found the answer in this diary. Wu Yueming saw that Tang Xiaogang was already asleep, so he climbed out of bed, turned on the lamp and began to paint, this time, he went to bed again at half past forty in the morning. Needless to say, in what state Wu Yueming spent the following morning and morning. The short break at noon made him feel much better in the afternoon. Then at night, as soon as the body touches the bed, insomnia seems to be doomed, read a diary written by Lei Ruochen, and wait for Tang Xiaogang to fall asleep, then get up to paint.

After lasting for a week, this kind of day was discovered by Tang Xiaogang. It was Friday of the second week, and at three o'clock in the morning, Wu Yueming was indulging in his paintings when he suddenly heard Tang Xiaogang's voice.

"Yue Ming, how long have you been in this situation, get up after I go to sleep and paint."

"More than a week, Xiaogang, I don't want to lie to you, but I can't sleep at all, as long as I close my eyes and my mind is full of Ruochen." Wu Yueming put down the paintbrush in his hand, sat on the bed and said.

"But how can you sleep only two or three hours a night?" Tang Xiaogang paced back and forth in the room, "Let's go to the hospital and ask the doctor to prescribe you some sleeping pills." ”

"Is it that serious?"

"Yes," Tang Xiaogang's voice doubled at this time, "Maybe you should go to a psychiatrist, or psychiatrist, and let them make a comprehensive diagnosis of you." ”

"No, I don't need a psychiatrist or psychiatrist, I just can't sleep at night."

"Okay, we'll go to the hospital to treat your insomnia, today is Friday, they may not go to work on the weekend, we'll go to the hospital at dawn." Tang Xiaogang felt like he had crawled out of the battlefield, and all his comrades had died.

The following week, Wu Yueming was finally able to fall asleep at night after taking sleeping pills. However, even after sleeping seven hours a night, Wu Yueming, who was sitting in the classroom, still couldn't lift his energy, and he began to have headaches, especially as soon as he did the English test paper, which was only English at first, and then spread to all subjects, as long as he first wanted to solve the problem, his head hurt badly. Later, he began to fall asleep frequently in the evening self-study without sound.

One day, Wu Yueming fell asleep in the third evening self-study class, it was Tang Xiaogang who woke him up, and when he woke up, he found that there were only three people in the entire classroom, he, Tang Xiaogang and the class leader. A look at my phone shows that the entire school building will be powered off in two minutes. Tang Xiaogang was waiting for him, and the class leader wanted to lock the classroom door after all the students left. Both of them waited for him for nearly half an hour after the evening self-study class.

Walking out of the school gate, there were few people on the street at this time, only the small shops along the street sprinkled their lights on the stone slabs on the side of the road.

"Yue Ming, I'm so scared if you go on like this. We go to the hospital, the county hospital can't work, we go to the city, the city doesn't work, we go to the provincial capital. Tang Xiaogang stopped his steps and looked at Wu Yueming, whose face was shriveled and yellow, and he was wondering if he should tell Wu Yueming's family about his situation. No, forget it. Wu Yueming's family situation, Tang Xiaogang understands it very clearly, and it is better not to tell them.

Wu Yueming grew up with his grandparents since he was a child, and now they are all over seventy-five years old, not to mention that one eye is not very good, and the other ear is not very good, so why let them worry too much? Wu Yueming's parents divorced when he was six years old, and now one works in Guangzhou all the year round and the other in Shenzhen all the year round, and the only communication between the two of them is about Wu Yueming's tuition and living expenses. Wu Yueming's tuition, the two promised to pay half of each. The living allowance is given to each person in turn, with his mother in one month and his father in two months. Even if they were told about Wu Yueming's situation at this time, the two of them would not ask for leave to come back to see Wu Yueming, at most, they would send some money over and let Wu Yueming go to the hospital by himself.

"What are you afraid of me, are you afraid that if I continue like this, I will die? In the past, the pursuit of my life was Ruochen, but now there is nothing, nothing is important. Wu Yueming's words interrupted Tang Xiaogang's aimless thoughts.

"What about me? You still have my brother. ”

"I know, so I promised you not to be short-sighted."

"Then you promise me that you must live a wonderful life." Tang Xiaogang looked at Tang Xiaogang with pleading eyes.

"This, I can't promise you, I can't control myself." Wu Yueming said, "I try to do it as much as I can." ”

"I don't want to go to the hospital lately," Wu continued.

"Okay, I'm not going to force you."