Chapter 269: Stupid, What Are You Crying For?
Although she had vaguely guessed something in her heart, and although she had secretly prepared for it, when she heard Ji Jinyan's sentence "Let's officially date", Lu Xingchen's heart still trembled uncontrollably, and the blood all over her body seemed to rush towards it, boiling and tumbling.
Time seemed to freeze in this moment, and he still clasped her shoulders and held her in his arms. Her hands were still tugging at the corners of his shirt, and she leaned quietly and softly into his warm arms.
None of them moved.
In the hanging garden, it was so quiet that you could hear the pins falling.
On his chest, there was a sudden feeling of being slightly soaked, Ji Jinyan was stunned for a second, and then his heart became hot, something was constantly melting, and finally slowly let go of her, but the hand was always around her shoulder, he raised his other hand and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes.
"Stupid, what are you crying about?" His voice was hoarse and deep.
Lu Xingchen kept his head down, choked slightly, and shook his head gently, not daring to look at him.
How could she tell him that she was crying because she was moved that the two were finally in love, and because she was moved by all this that he had carefully arranged for her.
Originally, with his identity, in fact, as long as he stood on the street and gently hooked his fingers, many girls would flock to him.
But now he is like a young boy, without his usual calmness and calmness, clumsily using his heartbeat to tell her that he is moved by her.
It is undeniable that at the moment, her mood is sweet and pleasant. But at the same time, it was dazed and at a loss, and there was a voice that kept reminding her from the bottom of her heart-
Ji Jinyan is such an excellent person, do you really have enough ability to stand shoulder to shoulder with him? Being with him means constantly chasing his footsteps, chasing and chasing, will you be tired, right? Will it drain all the love and passion? Lu Xingchen, do you really have confidence that you can be worthy of him?
Yes, such a proud son of the sky, is she really good enough to stand side by side with him?
She did not deny that she was attracted to him, but she also had to admit and accept her fear.
What if he finds out that he doesn't like her that much, and if he suddenly realizes one day that she, who has countless shortcomings, is not suitable to be his lifelong partner?
By then, she would have to be inseparable from him. But if he was leaving, and she couldn't keep it, she would definitely die of sadness.
Salinger once said that love wants to touch and then withdraw its hand. For her today, the same is probably true.
Lu Xingchen's eyes turned even redder, and tears overflowed like this. She still hung her head, but despite this, she could clearly perceive two burning lines of sight locked on her.
So after calming down, the excitement and sweetness at the beginning were replaced by inexplicable panic.
She was panicked, anxious, and cowardly, in the face of him, she was always not confident enough, and even at this moment, when he sincerely confessed his heart to her, she still did not have the courage to desperately fight for herself.
So she subconsciously wanted to break free of his hand and run away, but Ji Jinyan seemed to have expected her to have this reaction, not only did not let her escape, but once again shackled her waist and hugged her tightly in her arms, not giving her a chance to break free.
Ji Jinyan ......" Her heart beat like thunder, letting him hold her in her arms, greedily breathing the crisp and good-smelling breath in his arms, holding back her crying, choked up, "You ......"
As soon as she said a few words, he suddenly interrupted her, "Don't talk yet." Listen to me. ”
Ji Jinyan still kept holding her tightly, her eyes narrowed slightly, "I know what you care about, as well as your current hesitation and entanglement." Although I don't think those things are really meaningful, after all, emotional questions can never be measured by reason.
Perhaps in the eyes of many people, I am an excellent business leader, and the lifelong partner I choose should be at least a strong woman who can help me in my career. ”
Lu Xingchen's tears stopped slightly, it was undeniable that she thought so just now......
Ji Jinyan's voice continued, she obediently leaned on his arms, listening to the sound of his heartbeat, and feeling the slight vibration in his chest.
"However, in front of you, I am not the president of the YAN Group, and I am not the calm, resolute and resolute leader of the group. In your place, I am just Ji Jinyan, I can't help but want to care about you and protect you.
Seeing that you are occasionally stupid, there will be unprecedented pleasure and relaxation. Seeing that you are sad, I can't help but help you solve the problem. Seeing you laugh happily will make you subconsciously happy inside. When you see other men pestering you, you will also be annoyed and concerned.
These emotions cannot be analyzed with accurate data graphs. Just as I am attracted to you, I can't think and explore from a rational point of view. But the reality is, I'm really attracted to you. ”
Lu Xingchen couldn't tell how she felt, and when she heard his sentence "I am indeed attracted to you", her heart seemed to be pinched by a big hand, and it hurt and numb.
There was a very strong and complicated emotion that surged into my heart. Happiness and pain, happiness and restlessness, sweetness and bitterness, contradictory.
She used all her strength to suppress the indescribable restlessness tumbling in her heart, took a deep breath, and said in a muffled voice: "Ji Jinyan, can you give me a few days to think about it?"
She believed that he was serious, and after the two got along these days, she didn't find any clues. Because his kindness to her, as Grandpa Chen said, has completely exceeded the scope of the boss to the employees.
And his concern for her, as well as his subconscious protection, made her heart move.
It's just that she has always been used to ostriches, and if he doesn't say it, she naturally won't ask. Before, it was like a thin layer of gauze between the two, and no one moved to lift it, just let the gauze tent flutter gently, ambiguous and restless.
And today, he suddenly ripped off the veil and stood in front of her, even shackling her strongly and domineeringly, and dissecting his own thoughts to her.
His confession came so suddenly that it completely caught her off guard. And Lu Xingchen's thoughts so far are chaotic, as if there is a mess of yarn entwined in her head, and the more anxious and panicked she is, the more she can't untie it.
Hearing her words, Ji Jinyan's eyes sank slightly, he was silent for a while, and slowly pulled her away from himself, but saw that the little girl even cried red eyes, habitually twisted her eyebrows, and gently rubbed her eyes with her fingertips to wipe away her tears.
But he said: "I didn't find you crying so much before." It seems that in addition to calling you stupid in the future, you will have the title of crybaby. ”
"Hey!" When she heard this, she immediately stopped obeying and glared at him coquettishly, "Which culprit made me cry?!" ”
He hooked his lips and said "Well, it's me." I'm sorry. ”
He admitted his mistake so readily, Lu Xingchen didn't know what to say for a while, and subconsciously puffed out his cheeks and stopped talking.
Ji Jinyan chuckled, pinched her face, and then turned slightly straight, and said seriously: "You don't have to answer me in a hurry." Think about it, but don't think too long...... Because," he paused and pursed his lips slightly, "I can't wait." ”