Chapter 853: How Hard It Is
When Concubine Xian died, Feng Min already had some memories, and in his memory, his mother was a gentle and virtuous woman.
But the palace that eats people and doesn't spit out bones can't tolerate the real virtuous!
Shen Junru looked at Feng Min, who had already faded away from sadness, he was not cold, he just hid too much in his heart.
It doesn't matter, she just needs to take care of these things.
There are many things that Feng Min can't do, she can't express them, or she doesn't know how to express them, it doesn't matter, she can do it.
She took out the incense burner, took out the incense candle and the fire fold, bowed to the tombstone, and then found a branch and drew a circle in front of the tombstone, and then lit the paper money and put the paper money in the circle.
Feng Min watched her move quietly.
Royal worship is different from ordinary people's homes.
Feng Min also saw this kind of burning paper money and worshipping the ancestors during the winter solstice or Shangyuan Festival.
But he never did.
"Concubine Xian..."
Shen Junru opened her mouth and called softly, but some words were stuck in her throat, and she couldn't say it for a while.
She glanced up at Feng Min, then raised her hand and pulled his sleeve, only to see Feng Min stunned slightly, and then knelt down against the tombstone.
Shen Junru hesitated slightly, and knelt down.
Feng Min picked up the incense candle, lit it, kowtowed, and worshipped, all in one go, but without any words.
Shen Junru glanced at him, and then said.
"Niangniang, don't worry, he is no longer alone, I will accompany him in the future."
No matter in the future, whether it is wind or rain, wealth and glory, or the dangers of the knife mountain, he is no longer a person.
Feng Min's Adam's apple rolled, reached out and grabbed hers, holding it firmly in the palm of her hand, and then bowed down to the tombstone.
Although he was speechless, he brought Shen Junru, for the sake of his wife, to his mother.
After worshipping Concubine Xian, the two walked side by side in the bamboo forest.
Feng Min shook off his robe and wrapped Shen Junru in his arms, Shen Junru's small and delicate one looked a little shrunk in his arms.
"Down... I... I want to ask you some questions, but I'm afraid it will upset you. ”
Feng Min's thin lips pursed a slight smile, glanced at her, and said.
"You and I are about to become a family, and you just said that you will accompany me in the future, so you don't have to worry about what will make me unhappy, and you don't have to deliberately please me."
That would be a marked alienation everywhere.
Shen Junru raised her head and looked at him, but from her current perspective, she could only see his slightly scummy chin.
She reached out and scratched it, feeling that it felt good, and then she said.
"I heard that Concubine Xian Niangniang was involved because of King Ning's old case, do you know?"
Sure enough, Feng Min's footsteps paused slightly, and Shen Junru naturally felt this subtle movement.
She looked at Feng Min a little nervously, "If you don't want to say it, you don't have to say it, I... I just want to..."
She just wanted to know him better, to be able to integrate into his life, those things she didn't have the opportunity to participate in in the past, but she could understand and feel distressed.
"There is nothing to avoid, King Ning and his father have been a story of success and defeat. King Ning was originally a son of the emperor, a noble, his father was the eldest son of the emperor, and the concubine was born, in fact, if there is no accident, it should be King Ning on the throne. I don't know much about the previous dynasty, I was still young at the time, but later King Ning treasoned and rebelled, and the iron-like evidence was revealed, and the first emperor personally executed King Ning, and even the last bloodline was not left. After that, the throne was passed to his father, and as for his mother..."
At the mention of Concubine Xian, Feng Min lowered her eyes slightly and chuckled with a bit of bitterness.
"When she was not out of the cabinet, she had a marriage contract with King Ning, but later she made a mistake and was pointed out to her father, who was still the prince, to make a side room. After the mother concubine married her father, she completely cut off contact with King Ning, and then there was me. The father and emperor also loved his mother's concubine, but in the harem, too much favor will inevitably attract envy. It has only been two years since she moved from the mansion to the palace, and at the beginning, it was rumored that the mother concubine had not destroyed the old King Ning, and even sent letters to her father, even if the mother tried to argue to no avail. Later, there was less grace and more quarrels, and even began to spread that I was not from my father, but a wild seed born of my mother's fornication with King Ning. Heh..."
"How... How so... At that time, King Ning was already ..."
At that time, King Ning was already dead, but these dirty gossips could still be circulated, but the original Emperor Qianwen still believed it.
Because a dead man, because a man is dead, there is no proof of death!
She couldn't imagine how desperate the original virtuous concubine should be, and what kind of child Feng Min lived when she endured all this.
At that time, he was probably seven or eight years old.
She held Feng Min's hand distressedly, the two stood opposite each other, Shen Junru instead hugged Feng Min's waist, raised her head slightly and looked at him, and in those beautiful eyes, she did not hide her distress for Feng Min.
"yes... This dead man has become the gap between the mother and the father who can't be crossed, and the father doesn't even know who the mother and concubine are thinking about until she dies. ”
Shen Junru only felt that her breath was suffocated, Concubine Xian was dead, what should the little Fengmin who was suffering from gossip do?
You must know that it was not just a virtuous concubine who died at the beginning, after the death of the virtuous concubine, the mother clan of the virtuous concubine was almost wiped out by the nine clans because of implication!
Probably only the particularly distant side branches were not implicated.
It can be seen that Emperor Qianwen was a ruthless person at the beginning, and also, if he didn't have some ability, how could he sit on the pinnacle of power in that high position!
But in that cannibalistic palace, without the protection of his mother and the escort of his family, how did he survive such a small one?
Feng Min didn't say anything about those, he just said softly.
"Before I was fourteen years old, I was still living in the palace."
The declining master is not as good as even a lowly subordinate!
In the most difficult time, Feng Min dug up mice, gnawed tree bark, and was even splashed with urine by the little eunuch, all of which he couldn't bear to mention anymore and didn't dare to think about it.
Feng Min has come to this point step by step, and it is definitely not something that can be done with the word "forbearance".
Shen Junru was very distressed, hugged Feng Min tightly, and buried her head in his mouth.
I only vaguely heard the sentence "You may not know how difficult it is for a child who has not grown up." ”
Shen Junru's heart twitched fiercely, her eyes were red, and she whispered.
"If only I had met you sooner."
"Actually, that's just right."
If it had been earlier, perhaps, he would not have had the courage and ability to protect her.