Chapter 19: Concern
Hu Xiaona didn't want anyone to know that she liked Wang Dong, she felt that it was her personal privacy. Therefore, Hu Xiaona decided not to answer the question directly, so that there was no suspicion of deception. Wang Erni is her best friend, and she doesn't want to lie to her.
Hu Xiaona smiled and pretended to be mysterious and said to Wang Erni: "Erni, do you like Wang Dong?" Wang Erni was stunned for a moment, then shook her head, and then said to Hu Xiaona: "It's not that I like it, to be precise, it's worship, a boy like Wang Dong is so good, which girl doesn't worship it?" ”
After listening to Wang Erni's words, Hu Xiaona didn't believe it, is there a difference between liking and worshipping? However, Hu Xiaona didn't ask any more questions, and they stopped talking about this topic with each other. But to be honest, when Hu Xiaona heard Wang Erni say this, she was even more convinced that Wang Erni liked Wang Dong, one was her best friend, and the other was her favorite person. How should she deal with this complicated relationship?
More than ten years ago, there was no word for girlfriends, and there was very little news of girlfriends snatching boyfriends, although Hu Xiaona's hometown is not a poor mountainous area, but she is an authentic rural person. Rural people are rustic, aren't they. They are still junior high school students, and they don't know how to deal with feelings.
Besides, Hu Xiaona is originally a person who does not fight, including feelings. Her view of feelings is like this, feelings are not a person's wishful thinking, if the person you like doesn't like you, then take the initiative to choose to give up. Therefore, Hu Xiaona felt that whether Wang Erni liked Wang Dong or not had no effect on her.
But Hu Xiaona is more sure of her feelings for Wang Dong, she not only admires Wang Dong, but also likes Wang Dong more, more than ordinary friends. Because she found that when she was tutoring, she couldn't concentrate on listening to Wang Dong's lectures, and she was always thinking about a question in her mind, how many girls should like someone as good as Wang Dong.
Does Wang Dong not like her, if he likes it, why don't he take the initiative to chase her. Just like the couple in the first and second classes, Hu Xiaona, who doesn't like gossip, also quietly inquired that day, and heard that it was a girl chased by a boy.
Whenever this happens, Hu Xiaona feels sad and lost. Wang Dong must not like her, the more Hu Xiaona thinks about it, the more sad she becomes, she wants to sing when she is in a bad mood, but she always sings out of tune, and now she knows that Zhang Yile is not lying.
At noon, the family took a lunch break, but Hu Xiaona sang in the house, how she wished she could have a radio, this used to be her dream. I heard Zhang Yile say that in a metropolis like Beijing, there must be a radio.
But Beijing is too far away for Hu Xiaona, and Hu Xiaona also thought about asking Zhang Yile's aunt to help bring a radio back, but the next second she immediately rejected this childish idea.
Because on the one hand she doesn't have pocket money, and on the other hand she doesn't want to trouble others. Hu Xiaona thought to herself that when she grew up, she would definitely go to Beijing to take a look, or when she grew up, it would be good to go to Beijing to work. Hu Xiaona is thinking about good things again, she is always immersed in her own world and can't extricate herself. She also fantasizes about becoming a doctor in Beijing in the future, because she thinks doctors can save lives and help the wounded, just like angels.
A long time ago she wanted to be a teacher, and the book said that teaching was the most glorious profession under the sun. But the news of the suicide of the male teacher in the elementary school was once spread in their village. There are all kinds of things, but no one knows the truth. But there is a saying in it that left an impression on Hu Xiaona. Someone in the village said that the male teacher who committed suicide said that he was useless as a teacher.
Is it useless to be a teacher? Hu Xiaona is a person with lofty ideals, and she wants to choose a job that suits her. If the above reasons alone are not enough to make Hu Xiaona shake her original intention, more importantly, Hu Xiaona found that the teaching team is not necessarily a good teacher.
Because Hu Xiaona heard Wang Erni say that the Chinese teacher in their class still beats students, Hu Xiaona is most disgusted with this kind of teacher. Because she was beaten when she was in the third grade of elementary school, she thinks that the teacher who beats the students is not a good teacher!
When Wang Erni told her that day, Hu Xiaona felt that she was clenching her fists, angry for no reason. Should the student be beaten just because he forgot to take his homework book?
I don't know if it's because she was also slapped, Hu Xiaona remembered the student's name at once. Huang San, what a childish name. Huang San or Huang Shan? Why is it not called the Yellow River, Hu Xiaona feels funny when she thinks about it.
Later, when Hu Xiaona went to ask Wang Erni to go with her, she asked Wang Erni who Huang San was, and Wang Erni said that it was the handsome boy. Hu Xiaona took a closer look, the boy was indeed very handsome, tall, wearing a pair of glasses, and looked very gentle. Hu Xiaona thinks he is the kind of boy with a lot of temperament, and he is the type that many girls like, but she only likes Wang Dong.
According to Wang Erni, Huang San is from a neighboring village, and his promotion results are particularly good, and he scored 93 points in the English competition, ranking sixth in the township at that time. Hu Xiaona's impression of Huang San immediately improved, and she admired and admired the boy who studied well.
Wang Erni also jokingly said, why does Hu Xiaona have such a good impression of Huang San? Hu Xiaona smiled and didn't say anything. The girl's mind is the most difficult to guess, and Hu Xiaona also thinks that Wang Erni is interesting to Huang San. But she thought about it again, didn't Wang Erni say that she worships Wang Dong, and worship means liking?
Of course, Hu Xiaona will not ask Wang Erni again, the question is to see who Wang Dong likes, this is the point. Hu Xiaona was thinking about Wang Dong again, she felt that this weekend was very long, although it was only two days, she also felt that it was very difficult.
I don't know what Wang Dong is doing, Wang Dong has a younger sister named Wang Ping, who is in the fifth grade of primary school this year and is in the same class as Zhang Yile. Hu Xiaona heard Zhang Yile say that Wang Ping is very introverted, I don't know if it's because of a single-parent family, she is very introverted, she has no friends in the class, and she is alone in and out of school.
At that time, Hu Xiaona and Zhang Yile said that they would let him take care of Wang Ping more and not let other students bully her, Zhang Yile happily agreed, and Hu Xiaona was relieved. Children from single-parent families are very pitiful, Hu Xiaona has been paying attention to Wang Dong's dynamics since she was in the fifth grade of primary school, but fortunately Wang Dong is very cheerful, which makes Hu Xiaona feel very happy.
I don't know what Wang Dong is doing on the weekend, whether he is doing his homework. Hu Xiaona felt that she missed Wang Dong very much. Why is the tuition program so imperfect? Hu Xiaona felt a trace of regret, why didn't she arrange all Saturday mornings to tutor?
It's all to blame Wang Erni, what do you say about taking a break on the weekend, getting together every two weeks, if you can get together once a week, it will be perfect. Hu Xiaona felt that she was still too anxious, why couldn't she change her temper?
She is very envious of Wang Erni, she is never in a hurry or slow, everything is half a beat slow, as far as taking school and walking together, it is usually Hu Xiaona who calls Wang Erni. If it is now, Hu Xiaona feels that Wang Erni is suitable to live in Chengdu.
Chengdu is a city you don't want to leave when you come, a leisure city that slows down time. Chengdu, a city that is slow and very humane and life-like, makes people forget to return. Many years later, Hu Xiaona chose to go to the big city of Beijing, but she did not choose to go to Chengdu because the Sichuan earthquake made people shudder.
Hu Xiaona heard that there are many delicacies in Sichuan, and she is an authentic foodie. Hu Xiaona once saw in a book that she described Chengdu like this, and she has not forgotten it until now: Chengdu is a city where the wind blows is cultural, and it is very comfortable. A long time ago, Hu Xiaona's first choice was Beijing, and many years later, Hu Xiaona chose to go to Beijing. Many years later, Wang Erni chose to go to Shanghai.
It's really boring for the weekend, Hu Xiaona finished her homework very early, she wanted to ask her sister Hu Xiaoli to go to her cousin's house with her to play, but Hu Xiaoli refused, because there was too much homework. Is there a lot of homework in the second year of junior high school, or is my sister adding more homework to herself? Hu Xiaona thought to herself that her sister was so smart, she didn't need to work so hard.
Hu Xiaona felt that her qualifications were mediocre, and if she wanted to maintain her current advantage, she had to work harder, so Hu Xiaona silently said to herself in her heart. But it's the weekend, on the one hand, the homework is finished, on the other hand, she doesn't want to be too tired and wants to have more time to rest, so Hu Xiaona doesn't plan to review her homework.
Hu Xiaona felt very bored, so she walked around the yard, she looked at the willow trees in the yard, and sighed that time passed too quickly. But why do you feel that time flies too slowly when you are free? Hu Xiaona wanted to keep herself busy, because she was thinking about Wang Dong all the time. Yes, she likes Wang Dong too much, and she likes it more and more. Although she still doesn't know when she started liking Wang Dong, she just likes it very much.
She walked up and down the yard, in a trance, and couldn't think of anything to do, or just do the housework. Thinking of this, Hu Xiaona went to get the broom in the corner of the yard and prepared to start sweeping the floor. Because the ground is a dirt road, it will be dusty when swept away. Hu Xiaona doesn't care, just flick the dust on her body for a while.
Hu Xiaona was still sweeping the floor seriously, when Hu Xiaoli came over and said to Hu Xiaona very unhappily: "Xiaona, what's the matter with you, what are you sweeping at noon, you see that your clothes are full of dust!" Hu Xiaona remembered that her mother usually cleaned the courtyard in the morning, and her sister was right, she might be too bored.
She hurriedly said sorry to her sister, and Hu Xiaoli reluctantly walked away. Hu Xiaona returned the broom to its original place, moved a bench, and then went to the house to get a math book and came over, ready to review the math.
Hu Xiaona felt that since winning the English competition and becoming the representative of the English class, her English score was the best in all subjects. When she was in the fifth grade, she didn't have English yet, and she did the best in Chinese, but her math scores were always unstable.
Now her Chinese scores are in the top three of her class, and her math scores are still unstable, or they are at the middle level. She wanted to calm down and review mathematics well, she remembered what Wang Dong said, mathematics is not like Chinese, mathematics focuses on understanding the meaning of the problem. Hu Xiaona thought to herself, then it would be better to look at more example problems, she thinks that the most difficult thing in mathematics is the application problem.
She still remembers the fourth-grade math midterm exam, and the worst score she ever passed was 61. She still remembers being very nervous when she told her parents and sister. She also remembers that since the first grade of primary school, she would truthfully report her results to her family, regardless of whether it was the mid-term exam or the final promotion exam.
This is also a family rule set by parents very early, and the sisters' achievements must be reported to the family, and they must be reported truthfully.
Hu Xiaona is an honest child, she is not like other children who change their scores privately, she thinks this is a deception.
Hu Xiaona heard from other friends that the repeater was very smart, and the Chinese and math papers he took home were both 75 points.
Hu Xiaona thinks that since the scores have been corrected, why not let the Chinese and math scores be a little different? All 75 points? Wouldn't his family suspect it, was it such a coincidence?
It seems that he is afraid of being a repeater, and he can't pass his parents if he doesn't change his scores.
Hu Xiaona suddenly felt that she was also a little smart, and Wang Dong often praised her for being smart.
Hu Xiaona began to think about Wang Dong again, she really missed Wang Dong. Hu Xiaona saw in the book that there is a feeling called concern. Isn't that so?