Chapter 390: I don't love, but I still understand
When Yin Yan returned to Ciqing Palace, Jinglan's family of three had already been reunited and was about to leave here.
The three of them all saw Yin Yan come back from outside with a gray face, and there were obvious five-finger marks and undried tears on his face.
When Yin Yan passed by the three of them, he turned his face away and quickened his pace.
took him into the hall, Er'er raised his head and whispered to his father: "Brother Yanyan is crying." ”
Jing Lan smiled at Er Er, and then said to An Ge: "You take Er Er to wait for me outside the palace first, I have something to say to the prince." ”
An Ge nodded and led Er'er out.
Jing Lan walked into the hall, saw Yin Yan facing the wall, his back twitched, crying silently, knowing that this child had been greatly wronged, he gently stepped forward and comforted behind him: "Yan'er, this matter is indeed my fault, I really shouldn't have lied to you back then." ”
Yin Yan quickly wiped away his tears and looked back at Jinglan.
In fact, he didn't have any anger, just grievances, he was holding his breath, Jing Lan was the person he had always respected, he had heard all the stories of killing enemies outside, Jing Lan was a figure like the sun and the moon and mountains in his heart, so he always listened to him like that.
If he hadn't been deceived in such a stupid way, and he had been ridiculed by Yin Shuo for a long time, he wouldn't have done such a thing.
At this moment, Jing Lan apologized, and the grievances in Yin Yan's heart also dissipated a lot, sucked his red nose, and asked, "Will Master teach me martial arts in the future?" ”
Jing Lan nodded and said with a smile: "But my martial arts are actually not as good as your father's emperor, I am just slightly better than him in archery, in the future, I will teach you archery, and let your father teach you martial arts, how about it?" ”
Yin Yan nodded, and then his expression darkened again: "Father doesn't care about me anymore, and he still beats me." ”
Jing Lan smiled: "How can a father not love his children? It's normal to beat, and I often teach Er'er a lesson when he is naughty. The depth of love is responsible. ”
Yin Yan was silent for a moment, didn't say anything more, and changed his sentence: "Can I study with Er'er?" ”
"Okay." Jing Lan agreed, and couldn't help but think of the fact that he and Yin Mu practiced martial arts with his father at the beginning, and now Yin Yan and Er'er are also following their path again.
It's just that his father is not as casual as him, he taught Yin Mu carefully back then, and never dared to have a half-point difference, let alone buy cheats to deceive him......
Thinking of this, Jing Lan felt that he was too much, he only wanted to get rid of Yin Mu's shackles, but he never thought that he would bring so much harm to Yin Yan, the child.
Fortunately, he has a pure nature, and he is not as deep as his father at this age, and now he apologizes and has time to reconcile with him.
Looking at the finger marks on Yin Yan's face again, it must have been Yin Mu's beating, Jing Lan said again: "Yan'er, I'll explain this matter to your father later, don't blame him, you are the only choice of the prince in his heart, so he will be more strict with you." ”
Yin Yan said "um", but he knew in his heart that his father was like this to him, not because of Jinglan, but because of ......
Yin Yan hesitated for a moment, looked at Jing Lan, and said, "Master, don't let your master enter the palace again in the future." After saying this, Yin Yan's eyes dodged, and he was a little afraid that Jing Lan would be good if he continued to ask...... He can't say it directly, it's because my father has bad feelings for my mother, right?
Jing Lan thought about it, but didn't ask more, only nodded and said, "Okay, don't worry, as long as the palace doesn't forcibly ask your master to enter the palace, she won't come over again." ”
Yin Yan breathed a sigh of relief, rubbed his eyes, nodded and said, "Well, Master, you can take your master out of the palace quickly." ”
Jinglan promised to come to see him another day, so he left first.
Not long after the family left, the queen also hurried to Ciqing Palace, and the queen looked at the slap marks on her son's face that had not faded, and immediately asked Zicui to go to the Tai Hospital to get medicine.
She wanted to reach out and caress his scars, but she was afraid of hurting him, so she asked distressedly, "Does it still hurt?" ”
Yin Yan shook his head: "It doesn't hurt, the queen mother doesn't have to worry about me." ”
The queen felt more and more uncomfortable, her son was too sensible, he was not afraid of pain or tiredness since he was a child, but the more this happened, the more she felt that she was useless as a mother, and there was no place to say that her son was suffering.
She stretched out her hand and took him into her arms, and couldn't help crying: "Yan'er is good, are you still wronged in your heart?" ”
Yin Yan shook his head and said sullenly: "I am not wronged myself, but I am wronged for my mother." ”
The queen froze, let go of Yin Yan, looked at him and said, "Why did Yan'er say that?" The queen mother's life is good, what are the grievances? ”
Yin Yan was silent for a moment, and cautiously asked the queen: "Queen Mother, do you know that my father and emperor are my master, that is, An Ge......"
The queen expected what Yin Yan was going to say, so she immediately covered his mouth, and understood in her heart why the emperor was so angry today.
She said in a low voice: "Yan'er, remember, this matter must never be said again, especially not in front of your father. ”
Yin Yan took the queen's hand and said in surprise: "The queen mother knows about this? ”
The queen nodded, and smiled helplessly: "Naturally, I know that he is so obvious, who in the harem doesn't know?" ”
"That'...... Isn't the queen mother sad? Aren't you jealous? Yin Yan was very puzzled.
The queen smiled bitterly and sighed: "There are so many women in the palace, if I am jealous, can I eat them?" ”
Yin Yan really didn't see even a little sadness on the queen's face, but he has always felt that there is great love between the father and the queen mother, and the two people who love each other know that there is someone else in each other's hearts, is it possible that they will not feel uncomfortable? Won't you be jealous?
He asked again: "Does the queen mother not love her father anymore?" ”
"How can I say it......"
The queen lowered her head, thinking about how to explain to her son, and after a while, she replied with a low smile, "The reason why people are jealous is because love is too selfish, and if you love someone, you will want to possess the other." At the beginning, when your father only had a queen mother, the queen mother loved your father deeply. But later, Concubine Ning and Concubine Hui entered the mansion, and they took away your father's favor for me, but I am a submissive person, even if I don't like it in my heart, I can only bear it, but I don't love your father so much. ”
"Later, if there is one more woman in the harem, your father's love for me will be less, and likewise, my love for your father will be less. There is not much left now. ”
Looking at Yin Yan's shocked look, the queen smiled faintly, rubbed the top of his head, and said, "Yan'er don't worry, the love between me and your father and the emperor is no longer measured by love, whether he loves me or not, whether I love him or not, it will not affect me to continue to be the queen of the Li Kingdom and your mother." ”
"Moreover, the reason why the harem concubines occasionally had jealousy in the past was because they cared about your father, and now we all have other things to do, how your father is, I don't care anymore, and the other concubines don't care, so you don't have to worry about the queen mother, who he loves and who he has in his heart, it's really not so unacceptable."
Yin Yan lowered his head, thinking about what his mother said.
At this moment, the young man who has been living in the illusion of his parents' affection is heartbroken.
He sympathized with his mother before, afraid that his mother would be wronged, but now he felt that his father was also wronged enough, so many women who shared the same bed, and none of them treated him wholeheartedly?
But if you think about it, who is to blame? Just like the queen mother said, if he has one more woman, the original one will love him less, the love is mutual, he doesn't care about these concubines in the harem, and these concubines don't care about him, they just have habits, or transactions...... Their father gave them glory and wealth, and they passed on the lineage to their father.
When the queen saw him in a daze, she suddenly panicked: "Yan'er, what's wrong with you?" ”
Yin Yan raised his head and looked at the queen for a while, and said, "In the future, I will definitely treat my wife wholeheartedly." ”
Don't be as pitiful as your father......
The queen smiled lightly and nodded, "Well, if anyone can marry us Yan'er, it will be really blessed." ”
He said this on his lips, but he didn't know in his heart whether it was a blessing or a curse.
When the emperor marries a few women, sometimes it is really not his own will, and the princesses sent by other countries, the ministers consider persuading him to marry more women for the emperor's heirs, and the emperor also has a lot of involuntary himself.
If the emperor could really act recklessly, she believed that Yin Mu would probably disperse the harem for An Ge and would let her enter the palace at all costs.
Because she knew Yin Mu's helplessness, she just didn't love Yin Mu anymore, but she still understood him and respected him.
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The carriage traveled to the front of the general's mansion, Jing Lan walked off the carriage with Er Er in one hand, and reached over to help Ange with the other hand, and the family of three went home together, looking very harmonious and happy.
Suddenly, Jing Lan seemed to notice something, turned his head suddenly, and looked somewhere with cold eyes, but only saw a few passers-by and two or three beggars huddled at the entrance of the alley, nothing unusual.
"What's wrong?" An Ge also followed his gaze, and a dirty beggar over there was leaning against the corner, as if he was sleeping, and there was a child lying on his stomach, and the child was looking directly at their family of three.
An Ge was moved by compassion and said to Ning Jiu: "Aunt Jiu, you can give them the broken silver,"
Ning Jiu chuckled and said, "Madame is just too soft-hearted. Now that the world is peaceful and prosperous, those who have hands and feet do not go to work, and take their children to beg, what is there to sympathize with? But if that man had been diligent with his hands and feet, he would not have fallen to such a state. ”
An Ge sighed, originally she would not sympathize with people who are lazy and lazy, but after having Er'er, seeing other children suffering, she felt extremely uncomfortable, she said: "Just think of it as for that child, such a small child, it seems to be smaller than Er'er, it's really pitiful." ”
Seeing that she insisted, Ning Jiu didn't persuade again, and walked over with the broken silver.
She went to the beggar and handed the broken silver in her hand to the child, and the beggar, who was napping beside her, immediately got up and said to her, "Thank you, girl, she is so kind." ”
Hearing her speak, Ning Jiu realized that this person was actually a woman. It's just that she has a puffy figure, her face is full of dirt, and she can't see her face clearly, so she will be mistaken for a man.
Ning Jiu was more tolerant of women, and he didn't look down on her as much as he used to, and replied to her: "Don't thank me, it's just the meaning of our wife, if you really have the heart, go to the temple to pray for my wife." ”
The man immediately said, "I don't believe in gods and Buddhas, instead of going to pray for my wife, why don't I stay with my wife to repay her kindness, and beg the girl to take me in, and give me an errand to do, so that I can serve my wife, how about it?" ”