Chapter 136: The Mutual Torment of Love
[Children are synonymous with love and the continuation of happiness, He Yansheng wants to use the child to tie Zhong Zixi, Zhong Zixi wants to use the child to make He Yansheng regret it for life, he and she are not qualified parents, they torture each other in love, together with this child - Zhong Zixi! ] 】
Zhong Zixi said, "It seems that you have something to say today?" "She has always been careful, as long as she has this person in her eyes.
Qin Shou scratched his head embarrassedly, and only after thinking for a long time did he hesitate to speak.
"Sister Xiaoxi, you are so innocent, every day when I report your situation to He Yansheng, I am under a lot of psychological pressure when you are like this, and I always feel very sorry for you, you don't know that I have been having nightmares at night recently, and my sense of guilt is very strong, really. So, is there anything I can do for you? ”
Zhong Zixi lowered his head and smiled lightly, and there was a bit of guard and a hint of sincerity in that smile.
Zhong Zixi's good talent, especially during pregnancy, she is particularly gentle, and her voice has a unique softness.
"Actually, you and I are essentially no different, both are subject to others. It's just that you are the contractors of interests, so you are mutually beneficial, and you are called friends of the same kind, which is just a coercion for me! ”
Qin Shou originally only knew that Zhong Zixi was ZX, and she had unique insights and styles in design, and the outside world had different rumors about her.
However, some people say that she is arrogant, and some people say that she has a light temperament like a chrysanthemum.
But today Qin Shou knew that this girl was really indifferent and not swayed by fame and fortune, she didn't have a heart-wrenching mind, and she didn't have scattered thoughts.
Her world is very simple, if you like it, you love it, if you hate it, you can stay away, if you are irritable, you will cover your ears, and if you are happy, you will hug it!
Such Zhong Zixi is enough to make all beautiful people and things love it.
The woman glanced at the horizon and explained unhurriedly.
In "The Analects of Yongye", it is said that "do not get angry, do not offend." ”
In fact, Zhu Xi later made a similar explanation of the three words "not anger" in the "Commentary on the Analects", and perhaps he spoke more clearly.
He said, "Those who are angry with A are not suitable for B, so not being angry is the highest level of cultivation!" So he and I are only about us, and nothing else. ”
With such a good talent and such a transparent woman, he is somewhat biased, and Doctor Qin couldn't help but sneer in his heart.
'Such a good girl, how could she meet He Yansheng's embarrassment, it's really uncomfortable. ’
She likes psychology, and she used to practice when she had nothing to do, and people like Qin Shou look a little chic, but they are actually kind in their hearts.
She knew that he was moved by compassion, and this was the difference between them, he would be moved by compassion, but He Yansheng would not.
That man can always keep a clear brain at all times, and can even guess what is hidden behind the gentleness?
"Doctor Qin, there's one thing I really need to trouble you to help with."
Zhong Zixi used it word by word, and her just right show of weakness just happened to satisfy Qin Shou's heart
of guilt.
"Sister Xiaoxi, you're welcome. If there is anything you don't want to tell He Yansheng about it, just tell me that I'm not afraid of him, and I can do it for you behind his back. ”
Qin Shou looked at Zhong Zixi with frowns, she lowered her eyebrows and smiled lightly, this person is really careless, just like a child.
It's good, in fact, it's a little heartless, maybe everyone can be happier.
But Zhong Zixi's anger is too heavy, and she is destined to not be able to smile and enmity with He Yansheng.
So they can only push each other farther and farther away, Zhong Zixi is soft-hearted, she is afraid that she will completely sink under He Yansheng's warmth and offensive.
She didn't know that Qin Shou was just talking, and his relationship with He Yansheng could no longer be described by the word "iron".
"It's not a difficult thing to do, you don't need to do it behind his back, and it won't break the relationship between you. I know that my mother's ashes have not been buried, and although I don't know where she is stored now, I miss her, can you go and worship her in my place? ”
The contemplative appearance of her sideways eyes was very non-aggressive, and the fact that she couldn't see joy and sorrow on her pale face was enough to make Qin Shou blame herself.
"Don't worry, I know where she is, and although I can't tell you, I can go and see her for you. I'm sorry, Xiaoxi's sister He Yansheng repeatedly emphasized that no one can tell you about your mother's depository. Qin Shou apologized for his explanation.
"I know that even if you tell me, I still won't see it, so it doesn't matter if I say it or not. And I want to bury my mother on May 8th, and I know you're going to tell him that you tell him I just want to bury my mother on that day. ”
Zhong Zixi's eyes were very firm, and his palms unconsciously covered his abdomen.
It's ridiculous that she lost her mother the same day and was told that she was going to be a mother.
She was very conflicted about this child, on the one hand, it came from her hatred for He Yansheng, and on the other hand, she felt that her child had killed her mother.
This makes her live in such a double torment every day, so only when this child is completely gone, will she feel less guilty in her heart.
He restricted her freedom, her life and death, her will. Locked her up in this dark place all day long, suffering from her heart all the time.
Zhong Zixi thought fiercely in his heart, "In that case, He Yansheng, do you care about this child so much?" I'll use the things you care about the most to exchange the scars on my body, and from now on you and I will never see each other! ’
Resentment is contagious, and no one can change the reality of spontaneous abortion.
The hatred in her eyes focused on the distance with poison, converging into a single light.
The unconcealable pain in his heart hit like a rising tide, and Zhong Zixi pressed down the discomfort hard.
During this time, He Yansheng could feel that Zhong Zixi's attitude was slowly slowing down, and she was becoming gentle.
Even if He Yansheng occasionally touched his girl tentatively, she only frowned slightly, and then it was as clean as if nothing had happened.
The rest of the time she still does what she has to do and what she does, sometimes in the afternoon the sun shines
Open the warmth.
She will lie on the recliner on the balcony, read a book and scroll through Weibo, calmly like an ordinary pregnant woman raising a baby at home.
When things go wrong, there must be demons, this is the only constant concept that He Yansheng has believed in for many years, and he can feel Zhong Zixi's indifference and closeness.
The more she looked like this, the more uneasy and anxious he felt.
Not figuring out your opponent's hole cards and intentions is the most dangerous.
He Yansheng even pushed off all activities as much as possible to concentrate on staying at home, and the cold winter was getting colder and colder. She was already thin and pregnant, except for a slight protrusion in her lower abdomen, she couldn't look like a person who had been pregnant for several months.
The little girl is becoming more and more afraid of the cold, although the overall temperature of Yunshan Villa is constant, she is still wearing a fluffy sweatshirt at home, revealing her hairy head.
When a pair of big eyes are round and cooing timidly, the good-looking deer's eyes are wet and shining.
Seeing He Yansheng's heart warm, she is really beautiful like this, and they are what they should be.
In the past, the two little girls at home walked without a qualitative character, and they jumped up and down like a little fox.
The whirl in his heart collapsed slightly, and she engraved in He Yansheng's heart was innocent, ignorant and unconscious.
At that time, He Yansheng often couldn't control the strength in his hands, and pulled up the little girl to kiss fiercely. Zhong Zixi is delicate and expensive, and he always can't stand the weight of his hands.
often has water vapor in his eyes, and he looks very aggrieved.
Men and women are together, embracing each other in no one's space. The women who will always be lined are particularly arrogant, and the men are particularly noble.
Many times it has nothing to do with anything else, just the deepest love in each other's hearts, and when it is exuded, it is rich and unbearable.
"Are you busy?"
The pen in He Yansheng's hand was lightly slammed, and the entire design draft was obviously unusable.
If it is placed on weekdays and replaced by others, the cold light in the man's eyes will definitely scare the initiator of crying.
It's just that the person who was ruined today is obviously in a good mood.
The little girl's voice was soft like the sound of gurgling water, and the two of them were at home on weekdays, He Yansheng was in the study, and Zhong Zixi was in the room.
The two familiar people are like the most indifferent tenants in a house.
It makes He Yansheng feel sad but he is powerless to change, and now as long as he can maintain the status quo, he is already very grateful.
On weekdays, the little girl didn't even want to talk to him at all, let alone take the initiative to come up to him, no one knew how nervous he was when he held the pen in his hand just now.
Hehe! Nervous? It turned out that He Yansheng would also be nervous. For a long time, the heart was not filled with such a sense of urgency.
"No, not busy. What's wrong, Azusa. There was a unique temperature in the cold voice, and He Yansheng was deliberately ignoring the unnaturalness and vibrato in his tone.
The little girl replied softly, the bright stars in her eyes were no longer as stiff and unfamiliar as before, with deliberate indifference.
"Oh, it's okay, I just wanted to ask you, can I decide what to eat at home? Recently, I don't like the ingredients at home very much, and I want to change some flavors. ”
Zhong Zixi's sentence "at home" is easy
pointed out He Yansheng's weakness. Originally, he thought that this place was just a cage in Zhong Zixi's eyes.
Now she is willing to make this place a home, as the end of her future journey, and he is very satisfied.
"Of course you can, Zizi as long as you like everything at home, you can make your own decisions." He Yansheng paused, and the three words at home were extremely heavy.
The little girl stood there for a moment, her hair swaying with her nodding slightly, and her little appearance was very delicate.
After she stood still for a moment, the atmosphere gradually froze, and she turned around to leave without saying goodbye without saying goodbye.
The person behind him hurriedly shouted, "Zizi." ”
Zhong Zixi put away all the cruelty and ridicule in a second, and when he turned around, he still had a gentle smile and soft eyebrows.
"Is there anything else?"
He Yansheng pondered for a moment, and smiled leisurely, as if he wanted to deliberately choose to dilute the indifference between the two.
"Zizi, what you said to Qin Shou, I depend on you."
The two tacitly didn't open their mouths to talk about what the hell was going on? Such a damn tacit understanding disgusted Zhong Zixi! But they are so sober, soberly watching each other sink.
(End of chapter)