"Hello everyone, my name is yttrium, the sub of the atom, yttrium is the yttrium of the yttrium element, the periodic table No. 39, it is the first rare earth metal element to be discovered, it is a gray-black metal. As with its nature, I am a very malleable person. It's a pleasure to meet all of you, and I hope to learn more from you in the days to come. "That's what I said when I first introduced myself from the podium when I was in elementary school.

I don't know why my parents gave me such a strange name, so much so that I had to explain it to others for a long time every time I introduced myself.

Names were a very troubled issue in my childhood. But an even bigger problem that plagued my childhood was a class meeting when I was in elementary school.

At that class meeting, the teacher asked us an open-ended question: "What kind of person do you want to be?" ”

At that time, the students were all actively speaking, and I was no exception, and everyone's answers seemed to be very lofty, all of them were celebrities, scientists, rich people, and so on. When I spoke, I gave an answer: "I want to be a good old man." The class burst into laughter, as if laughing at my answer for being too low-end and not very mindful. But my homeroom teacher, Mr. Guo Hengxia, stepped down from the podium and stroked my forehead and said, "Ziyi, luminescence is not the patent of the sun, you can do it too." ”

This sentence was too profound for me when I was a child, and I always felt that Mr. Guo was criticizing me for being short-sighted. But so far, my "good old man" character setting seems to have spread in my social circle, and this character setting has been bothering me since elementary school and even middle school.

My classmates bullied me in all kinds of ways, just because I was a good person. A lot of teachers make fun of me because I'm a good person. Before I knew it, I seemed to have become a bag for people to vent their frustrations, and they could play tricks on me without guilt, just because I was a good person.

Adolescent boys are sometimes very evil, because of the herd mentality, some people have not bullied me, and even will be ridiculed by other classmates, and the matter of "bullying me" has slowly become a school fashion. At that time, I had to run fast to escape the crowd as soon as possible when I went to and from school every day, so this also came out with one of my walking characteristics - stride meteor. It's not that I'm born with good physique, it's just to escape from harm.

My kindness was not exchanged for respect, but endless humiliation. In this abyss of the mind, I am on the verge of blackening. As a major in college, I chose the police, and I only wanted to take revenge on those who had hurt me in the future, and I longed to watch them in the dark until I caught their handle. I'm like a humiliated wolf king who is about to go on a killing spree.

But thanks to God, the sun still gave me the possibility of light through the chaotic clouds of my life.

That was my mentor, Teacher Zhan Meimei.

Mr. Zhan is a teacher that students like and respect very much, and his classes are very vivid, not only imparting professional knowledge to students, but also teaching students the principles of life. He had been injured in the line of duty, and only had nine fingers, but he told his classmates with a smile: "Life is like this, perfection is not the norm, and there are some flaws that will actually make you think better about the meaning of life." ”

But I was immune to these chicken soups for the soul, and I only wanted revenge in my heart, so not only did I not like his class, but I also felt that he was preaching, so I would find a quiet place to sleep in every class. I remember a class, it was a quiet winter afternoon, the first class at two o'clock in the afternoon, I went to the classroom early to occupy a place, not to occupy the first three rows like a top student, but to choose a position closest to the window, because today's weather is exceptionally good, and sleeping in the warm sun is simply a pleasure.

In Mr. Zhan's class, you never have to worry about not being able to occupy these "golden" positions, because other students will work hard to sit forward, no one will choose such a remote corner to bask in the sun, and no one will step on the class bell before entering the classroom. The class started, the classroom was quiet, and I was able to stretch my body and turn on the sleep mode.

I looked out the window at the dead leaves, the sun shining on my face, and I just enjoyed it quietly. After I went to college, I changed my image of a good old man, giving people a gloomy and indifferent feeling, I knew that this was not my real self, and it was very tiring to act like this, but at least no one dared to bully me, and no one would disturb my sleep......

I may be the only shadow in the sun, but I enjoy it.

I don't know how long it took for someone to move my shoulder, oops? Just said that no one dared to disturb my sleep, and this is it? It seems that if you don't give you a little color to see, you don't know how to write the word "death"! I looked up angrily to see which grandson dared to spoil my dreams!

But when I looked up, I was confused, and in a daze, I seemed to see all my classmates turn to look at me. I'm very surprised, look at me hairy? Got out of class? Am I snoring? I thought I was confused, so I rubbed my eyes and took a closer look. They were all looking at me, and they all had a wicked smile on their faces.

I haven't felt this way in a long time, and this smile makes me feel incredibly humiliated, and it reminds me of my middle school days, when people laughed at me. I suddenly panicked inside, and subconsciously wanted to get up and run away. But I remembered it again, and it didn't seem like class was out yet. But...... Strangely, where did the teacher go? Since I woke up just now, I haven't seen Teacher Zhan on the podium.

No way? Could it be ......

I looked back with a little horror, uh! Mr. Zhan stood behind me, and it turned out that he was pushing me behind my back. I was even more panicked, the first was that I was directly caught by the teacher when I slept in class, the second was because so many classmates stared at me and made me fall into the panic I once had, and the third was that if I showed panic, my cold personality would be broken in the future, and my classmates would bully me again.

But to my surprise, Mr. Zhan's expression didn't seem to blame me, he smiled kindly. Perhaps in front of this old policeman, my inner cowardice has already been pierced by him.

Teacher Zhan patted me on the shoulder and said to me with great concern: "Ziyttrium, luminescence is not the exclusive domain of the sun, you can do it too." ”

I was shocked, and the memories of ten years ago seemed to flash back to me. Didn't Mr. Guo from elementary school say this?

Teacher Zhan's back was facing the sun, I looked up at Teacher Zhan, but I couldn't open my eyes because of the sun, I was like confirming that it was Teacher Guo or Teacher Zhan standing in front of me. I half-covered my eyes with my hands and looked at it, and it was indeed Mr. Zhan.

Suddenly there was a hot current in my heart, something began to roll in my eyes, and my nose was a little sour.

The dead leaves outside the window were blown off by the north wind, but a new sprout appeared on the branches.