Looking up at the starry sky, who can be sure that the deep void is not someone's pupils.

A few days later, my suspicions were cleared, but my colleagues who died as police officers refused to forgive me for my mistakes. In order to cover up the incident, the family members of the undercover policeman who died did not seem to know about it, and it was difficult to get immediate honor even if they died for it.

My heart is full of guilt, they don't want to forgive me, these people in front of me, former comrades-in-arms, maybe all the people who know me can't forgive me, right?

"Hey, only you think that, you bastard, wake me up." Xu Yong shouted at me with a wine glass.

I sat groggily at the wine table, not wanting to think about it.

"Go back and find a new job, everyone will be depressed, but you have to pick yourself up again." I told Xu Yong the reason why I came here while he was drinking, and he just nodded and didn't say much.

"Okay." I shook my glass.

"Good boy." Xu Yong touched me, and in my heart he will always be my old company commander.

Returning to the seaside town where I was born and raised is still so quiet, I can't see much difference from the past, except that the buildings in the distance are gradually getting taller, and there are more cars on the road, and those familiar and unfamiliar people still have a slight smile on their faces, bathed in the sun-soaked sea breeze. Security is as pervasive as air in this land, so much so that we sometimes forget the guardians of the peace that guards it all.

Since I was discharged from the hospital, I have asked my mother more than once if the family has enough money. Half a year has passed, and the family's financial situation has been borne by my mother alone in the past few years. My mother was strong by nature and never looked depressed since my father's death. But I have always seen it in my eyes but in my heart, the normal life of the family needs money, plus now that there is a little angel in the family, and Xinrui's parents who I need to compensate later, I urgently need a job with a decent salary.

In order to find a suitable job, I had to look through the job boards of the newspaper and spend hours on the Internet to focus on the positions that were slightly suitable. I didn't have the advantage of academic qualifications, I didn't finish college, and in addition to the record of military service, I only had a high school diploma left. But I'm not stupid, and I can learn anything very quickly.

"Why don't you go to ride-hailing? Deliver courier? Food delivery? I think it's all okay. "I was surfing the internet and seeking my mother's advice.

"Whatever you want, don't give me a drink at home every day anyway." Mother started nagging again.

A big black headline was hung in a prominent position, "The drug trade in the Black Triangle is back on the rise, and the United Nations intends to take action." I had only heard of the Golden Triangle before, but I had rarely heard of the Black Triangle, and I remember that it specifically referred to the border areas of the five African countries, where marijuana was cultivated all year round, posing a considerable threat to local law and order.

I didn't read the content of the news carefully, but I only saw that the UN member states would send peacekeeping troops to carry out the operation.

"It's Jingjing's birthday in a few days, remember to buy a cake and come back." Mother admonished.

In addition to looking for a job for several days, I finally got in touch with my former classmates and friends, and occasionally met for dinner and entertainment, but everyone seemed to have their own lives.

"You're the first of us to be a dad."

"The adopted daughter is beautiful, a caring little padded jacket."

All kinds of compliments, all kinds of nice words.

"Driving a ride-hailing? Don't be funny, you came back from the army so well that you actually served as a driver for us? An old classmate expressed surprise and simply couldn't understand it.

"Why don't you pay me?" I glanced at him.

"Okay, why don't you come to work at my bar and take care of my security."

"I'm not going to work as a security guard for you." I feel bored when I think about it, this group of boys have listened to me since I was a child, but at this time I asked him to help.

"What do you want? Let's go and be a security guard for you, and look at the beauty for you. A bespectacled tablemate was smiling.

"Why don't you go to my father's bureau to be an assistant policeman, maybe you can become a regular after a while?"

As soon as I heard the word policeman, I remembered the policeman who had been killed by me in the village not long ago, although the man was not wearing a police uniform at the time, but the last look of the thin and tall policeman was always imprinted in my mind. "Don't persuade me, I can't take the road of the police in my life."

"Isn't it true that many demobilized soldiers end up becoming police officers? Why don't you? ”

I only gave this question a stern look, and no one dared to ask it again, but my work was still unsettled.

Walking through the city every day, witnessing all kinds of comings and goings, in fact, no matter how busy they are, most of them are just for the meager income and three meals a day. Even though most dreams come true only in dreams, everyone prefers to believe that they are true, no matter how far away the unknown future is.

Every morning, the morning call still echoes in my ears, the blue sea, the beach, the morning light, I will run tirelessly, day after day.

"Dad, why don't you sleep in?"

"Because the sweat drops down the soil." I replied with a smile.

"It's hard work." Jingjing finished the last grain of rice in the bowl and smiled at me.

In such a city, everyone is running, but few people sweat, and I can only feel the blood in my body when I run on the beach.

After seeing off the last guest, I drove the ride-hailing company's car back to the community. The starry sky, the sandy beach, the moon hanging in the sky, and the waves crashing against the lonely tranquility.

I turned off the engine and sat in the driver's seat, opened the sunroof and lit a cigarette alone, the stars were shining, I clearly remember today's day, once every year this day was the happiest time for the three of us, Liu Suxi's birthday, Liu Yi and I would pile a huge cake on the beach, and then let her blow out the only candle on it.

But at this time, Liu Yi was no longer there, and he couldn't bring back any news about him, instead of telling Liu Suxi that he had sacrificed, it was better to leave some hope that it would make me feel better.

Just as he was about to extinguish the cigarette butt, a familiar figure flashed from the corridor not far away, wearing a tight short skirt, a white shirt with a flower collar that could not fully cover the waist, and a small black metal leather bag in crappy high heels. His long hair was straightened and draped to cover his cheeks, as if he was afraid of being seen galloping out of the gate of the community.

Where is she in a hurry?

The sea breeze felt a chill in my heart, and I closed the windows again and started the engine.

Liu Suxi's taxi stopped in front of a large new bar club in the city center, and the waiter took the initiative to open the door to welcome her out of the car. After a while, a girl who was dressed like her but had a slender cigarette in her hand and looked a little older took the initiative to step forward, the two muttered a few words as if they knew each other, the girl nodded to the security guard in a suit on the side, Liu Suxi trembled and took back the ID card she handed over and followed her into the bar.

The door of the bar clearly says that children under the age of 18 are not allowed to enter.

I parked the car in the basement garage of the bar, and when I returned to the road, all kinds of men and women entered the bar venue from their limousines in their arms, and the business people in their suits and leather shoes, and the dignified and virtuous women also let go of the smiling faces that had been imprisoned.

Inside, I walked in and out of the dim light, all kinds of flickering spotlights obscured my vision, and people swayed in the middle of the dance floor to the intense music, not to mention the appearance of people, and it was difficult to distinguish the silhouettes of men and women under the dim spotlights. Those flowery, pink and fragrant couples passed by me in their arms, and the alcohol was mixed with a strong desire, and such a night would definitely be intoxicating.

I sat alone on the bar stool, looking around for Yoo Suxi.

"Handsome guy, is it alone? Come and have a drink with us? "A woman with a pungent smell of fireworks greeted me.

I wrinkled my eyebrows and shook my head at her.

"Isn't it just to have some fun here, why are you still pretending to be cool with a strained face, let's talk." The woman continued to pester.

No one would be alone on such an occasion, and perhaps a person was a hint that I was in no mood to continue to talk to her and had to leave my seat.

Rock and spotlights are still churning, and people on the dance floor are sticking to each other and swaying with alcohol.

Finally found the familiar figure in a dark corner, her restrained appearance was completely out of place on such an occasion, and the fat man next to her could be her uncle, with his hands around her waist, spitting and talking to everyone around him.

One glass, two glasses...

At a glance, it can be seen that Liu Suxi is the first time to go out on this occasion, looking like a sheep put into a wolf pack, trembling, and the hand holding the wine glass is trembling slightly.

"Hey, are you going to go back and drink again?" I propped up the wall with one hand to stop Liu Suxi, who came out of the bathroom and was just walking.

She took two steps back like a frightened bird, her eyes full of fear. After a second, she raised her head and finally recognized me, her eyes returned to calm, and a disdainful smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, "Cut, follow me?" ”

I pressed the fire, "The little girl's wings are stiff, and she came out and flew alone?" ”

"You have to take care of it." Liu Suxi took my hand away and walked straight towards the dance floor.

"I'll wait for you at the door, and I'll come out when I've jumped enough." I know there's only one entrance to this bar, unless she never comes out.

The night should be as quiet as water, but even through the thick door, it still can't stop the noise in the bar. It wasn't until one o'clock in the morning that someone finally left the scene.

"Beauty, what is that tip just now, go and get in the car with my brother, if you follow me in the future, you will eat and drink spicy food every day." The scornful wine talk is exceptionally clear.

"I'm not going, you let me go, I can only drink with you, and I won't go anywhere else." Liu Suxi hunched over and tried to break free of the man's hand.

"I drank the wine, I took the tip, and I can earn more if I understand it deeply, and it's not hard, let's go, my brother will give you a price to make you satisfied." With that, the man raised two fingers.