twenty-one

Usona didn't ask anything from the midwife, she said that she was indeed found by Zhao Yue, her son was seriously ill, and Zhao Yue gave her a hundred taels of silver to let her enter the palace to harm Concubine De.

She had long been ready to commit suicide after Concubine De's dystocia, but she was frightened by Chu Weizi's threat to her family's life that day, so she didn't dare to do it in the end.

Only Zhao Yue contacted her, so she didn't know who was behind the scenes.

I think what this midwife said is true, and the identity of the person behind the scenes will definitely not be known to this person who brought it from outside the palace.

I still can't understand why Zhao Yue wanted to live so much before, but he committed suicide after listening to me say a few words? Did I really force it?

Since I couldn't find anything, I went to the imperial study to inform the emperor of the results, and asked the emperor to release the midwife, but in the end it was also used by others.

The emperor agreed to me, got down from the throne, stretched out his hand to help me, and said: "Ah Zi, now that the dust has settled and the border has been stabilized, I plan to make you a concubine, and you don't have to continue to stay by Concubine De's side in the future." ”

My heart tightened, and I didn't feel the slightest bit happy, but I felt more and more uncomfortable.

Concubine De has just finished giving birth, and he is going to seal a new concubine, or the people around Concubine De, has he considered Concubine De's situation?

I don't know what's wrong with me, I probably still love him, but in the matter of Concubine De, he was so ruthless that I started to distrust him.

I withdrew my hand from his hand and said, "Your Majesty, let's let this matter go and let it go, do you want to go and see the Seven Princes?" He was already making a noise yesterday, and his eyes were round and big, and he made people happy when they looked at them. ”

He stared at me and smiled softly, "But I would prefer to have children with you that belong to both of us." ”

I felt more and more uncomfortable in my heart, and subconsciously said: "The person who wanted to harm Concubine De Niangniang has not been investigated, I don't dare to have children, I am afraid that someone will harm me like this when the time comes, and I will die." ”

His face suddenly became unhappy: "Ah Zi, don't drill the horns of the bull again." ”

I smiled helplessly: "It's related to human life, this is the tip of the horns?" Your Majesty, I find that I don't understand you more and more. ”

He was silent for a long time, and when he spoke again, his voice became cold: "You go back!" ”

twenty-two

I haven't seen him for almost two months since I last argued with the emperor in the imperial study.

He also didn't come to see Concubine De's mother and son.

I think it's okay like this, Concubine De is suddenly not favored, and there are many fewer people staring at her and trying to harm her.

It's just that Concubine De's love for him has overflowed, and since she can blow the wind, she has been guarding the gate of Xianfu Palace every day, looking forward to him coming.

She told me that since she had become the emperor's concubine, she would be the emperor's person all her life and should live for him.

I used to know that men were inferior to women, but I didn't think it was so excessive, I always thought that as long as women can be self-reliant, it will be the same as men, but the way of living is different.

But now, I know how difficult it is for women to be self-reliant.

Because they were born to live for others, they were parents when they were young, they married as husbands, and when they were old they were children.

I told her, "Life is too short, and it's more important than anything else that you're happy." ”

Concubine De smiled softly and said to me, "Ah Zi, do you love the emperor?" ”

I opened my mouth and didn't answer.

"If you love someone, you can't help but think about him."

Is it?

I smiled helplessly: "It seems that I love myself very much." ”

After that, after a long time, the emperor came to Xianfu Palace again, this time he didn't look at me much, and only accompanied Concubine De and the Seventh Prince to talk.

I think maybe his feelings for me have faded.

I was suddenly glad that I had always stuck to the bottom line.

Otherwise, by this time, I have a position and a child, so many miscellaneous things are involved with him, I can no longer withdraw from him, how sad should I be?

That's for the best.

I remembered the bet with the queen and I lost.

It's time for me to leave this deep palace that has seen no light of day.