It's actually very simple, in fact, it's very natural, and the love of the two should be borne by the two of them.

With the afterglow of the setting sun, Li Xiaoai stood up and turned around, wearing an unmodified light blue dress, only wearing light makeup, two arms in front of her body and holding her handbag, and still wearing the smart watch on her wrist. Facing me with her smile that would deceive anyone, she nodded slightly, "Long time no see!" ”

I couldn't respond to any of her greetings, and the moment I saw her, I had countless impulses, but I had to suppress them.

The three people who had just rubbed shoulders with Li Xiaoai in front of them suddenly stopped and looked at us when they heard our greetings.

Time stood still for two seconds, and I couldn't describe my expression at this point, but my body stiffened a little. Her sudden appearance seemed to break all the dikes in my heart, and the flood was all vented and could no longer be controlled. I wouldn't be able to hide everything with her cherry blossom-like smile scattered in the breeze, I really wouldn't.

"Who is she?" My mother saw my reaction.

"She... She's—" My mind searched for words to answer, but my mouth couldn't keep up with the rhythm.

"Hello Auntie, I'm Li Xiaoai." Li Xiaoai still had a sweet smile, bowed slightly to the three people beside her, and then waved at Jingjing and Liu Suxi.

"Hello." My mother looked away from me to hers, smiled, looked up and down, and replied with a greeting.

Liu Suxi, who was on the side, took Jingjing and looked at Li Xiaoai in front of her, but she just stood but didn't react.

"Mom, why don't you go back first, we have something to do." I really didn't expect Li Xiaoai to find my home, and she came alone, walking all the way back to the community Dong Jian and Liu Lian were not in the vicinity.

"It's all here, what are you doing outside? Why do you have to go home and sit down, today is really lively at home. "My mother's words suddenly made my scalp tingle, and I invited Li Xiaoai to our house?

But before I could say anything, Li Xiaoai actually agreed to her mother's invitation, "Okay, I'll listen to you." ”

Why did she come suddenly? I couldn't stop being surprised, but she smiled like a familiar cherry blossom.

"Wow, there's another beautiful big sister to play with." Of course, Jingjing doesn't mind that there are many people, the more people there are, the more lively they are, everything is just an appearance for children, and it only stays on the surface.

"Your mouth is so sweet, look at what my sister brought you." Li Xiaoai rummaged in her handbag, and after a while, a lollipop with Mickey Mouse was held in her hand, "Here you go, see if it's your mouth sweet or sister's lollipop sweet." ”

Back at home, the messy room was filled with five people. The mother was busy in the kitchen and refused to allow anyone to try to enter, and from time to time she would glance at Li Xiaoai in the living room, and she didn't know what kind of thoughts were revealed in her eyes. Maybe it's because of the freshness, Zhuang Jing has been playing with Li Xiaoai on the sofa, but Liu Suxi, who usually accompanies her, sits on the other side of the sofa with an expressionless face.

Having just experienced such a great sadness on this day, Liu Suxi couldn't help but feel depressed. However, Li Xiaoai on the other side has completely recovered from her previous state, and is playing with Zhuang Jing, not recognizing her life at all.

Standing alone at the corner of the kitchen and living room, I watched everything in front of me, as if it were real and illusory. Li Xiaoai's sudden appearance made the already abnormal thoughts even more confused, and some things happened like this, whether they wanted to or didn't want to. I didn't say goodbye to her and disappeared, maybe she would have responded to me in such a sudden way.

She is no stranger to me in my eyes, she is so friendly in front of people, and there is a trace of desolation behind people.

Mother arranged a large table of dishes, "Wash your hands and start eating, I'm sorry, Miss Li came to the house as a guest and only invited you to eat some home-cooked food I made." ”

"You're so polite, just call me Xiaoai, your craftsmanship looks really good." Li Xiaoai's personality has always been very easy-going and introverted, but her tone and expression always don't feel like the real her.

From the meeting to the door, to the table, except for the sentence when we met, she didn't say a word to me for a long time, but her eyes occasionally passed in front of my eyes, as if there were words, but if I wanted to guess what she was thinking, I might not be able to guess what she was thinking.

Seeing that she didn't move her chopsticks, her mother first sandwiched a braised chicken wing to Jingjing, and the child was not so polite when she saw the chicken wings, and immediately began to enjoy herself. Then the question was in front of me, should I give it to Liu Suxi first or Li Xiaoai on the other side? A girl who has grown up watching her emotions and need to be taken care of today, and the other is someone who makes me so flustered that I can't help but think about it.

Perhaps seeing my dilemma, the two of them picked up the chopsticks at the same time, the frequency of action was almost synchronous, but the landing point was also exactly the same, and the two pairs of chopsticks touched the only pointed chicken wing on the plate at the same time. In the next second, both of them retracted their hands at the same time.

I have never felt the blood in my body sometimes reaching my toes, sometimes all on my head, so churning at the dinner table at home. I could only watch Jingjing gobble up, and the two people in the afterglow finally faced each other.

"I forgot to say hello to you just now, I'm sorry, I'm Li Xiaoai and call me Xiaoai, it looks like I should be a little older than you, you should be the sister that Zhuang Yan once mentioned growing up watching, right?" Li Xiaoai is still smiling sweetly, which is really hard to refuse to respond.

But I still know Liu Suxi's temperament, although she looks soft on the outside, she is not as weak as she imagined, "Actually, I know you, and you were once a public figure." But my brother never mentioned you to me, did you know each other at work? ”

Li Xiaoai was stunned for a moment, and his smile was slightly embarrassed, "No, not exactly." ”

"That..."Liu Suxi wanted to ask again.

I immediately grabbed a chicken wing into Liu Suxi's bowl and interrupted her question, "Eat it, the braised chicken wings are delicious when they are hot." ”

Then I gave another one to Li Xiaoai, she smiled faintly, there was some resentment in her eyes but she still said politely, "Thank you, I'll come by myself." ”

's mother doesn't pay much attention to the news, let alone the old news of the past, and her cognition of Li Xiaoai is completely unfamiliar. After eating for a while, her mother asked casually, "Didn't Xiao Ai work with us Zhuang Yan before?" So where do you work now? ”

"Postgraduate medical student at the University of Hong Kong." Liu Suxi didn't look up at her, but she knew Li Xiaoai clearly.

The mother's eyes widened, and she looked at Li Xiaoai, who was tearing off a trace of chicken wings with chopsticks, and sighed, "So powerful, Zhuang Yan, how did you know each other?" ”

"An accident." I replied. yes, it was all an accident.

After dinner, Liu Suxi decided to go back to school for evening self-study, and every minute must be cherished in this final sprint stage, "Brother, I'm going to school." ”

I was about to respond, and Liu Suxi was already out of the door. How do you think Li Xiaoai also retrieved her handbag from the sofa, "I'm going back too, you forgot to take this away, I came here to give you this." ”

I deliberately left it in her mooncake box as a souvenir, the smart watch that originally belonged to me?

"I've charged it for you, if you don't think it's useful, just put it away and make a souvenir." Li Xiaoai handed me the smart watch that originally belonged to me, "And you seem to have forgotten to say goodbye." ”

Li Xiaoai stood at the door and finally faded away from the hidden smile, there were endless words in his eyes, but he just waved at me very seriously, "Goodbye." ”

I raised my hand a little numbly, but my heart felt like it had been twisted hard, "Goodbye." ”

She's gone, and I'm going to disappear on a mission in the near future, and I'm missing from now on. Maybe it will be the last time, but I said goodbye. Why do you have to say goodbye, why do you have to give me back this smart watch, we are two people whose worlds are completely parallel, how can they cross apart if it weren't for an accident...

When I closed the door, I felt like my soul had been emptied, and I let my thoughts stop, and let it all pass, and I could never find it again.

"Dad, when will that beautiful big sister come to play at home next time?" My daughter's unintentional questioning brought me back again.

I couldn't help but open the door and ran in the direction I left downstairs.

Night has just fallen, there are not a few people walking back and forth in the community, Li Xiaoai is walking towards the door of the community alone, I rushed behind her maybe because of excitement, and the distance is not too far has made me a little breathless.

"Little love!" I shouted at the back of the person who was about to walk out of the neighborhood ten meters away from me.

She stopped, turned around slowly, and no longer had that false smile on her face, but looked a little confused under the dim street lamp.

"Little love, I'm sorry." I had countless impulses and reasons to rush over and hug her, but my sanity was not completely gone, and I tried to calm down my ups and downs and get closer.

Li Xiaoai looked aggrieved but just shook his head slightly, "You have nothing to apologize for." ”

"Are you going back?" I don't know how to keep it, or even whether to keep it.

Instead of answering my question, she stared at me with a clear look, "Where do I go back?" ”

I didn't know how to answer, so I had to stand opposite her and watch her quietly. We clearly reflected each other's shadows in each other's eyes, but we could always feel that something was separated and we couldn't touch each other. Can't touch but reluctant to turn away, even if it's hard to find, in the end you can only look at it from afar, and your heart will be filled with each other's shadows.

If this is not love, what is it?

"Can I ask you to listen to a song?" Li Xiaoai suddenly broke the silence.

"Go over there, sit." I turned and gestured to the bench behind me.

She nodded slightly and walked towards the bench.

Two wireless bluetooth headphones, she kept one and handed me one. After we put the headphones on, she took out her phone and pressed the play button.

An uncheerful lyrical music, soft and melodious, tactful and sad, accompanied by piano notes, as if telling a story:

It's actually very simple, it's actually very natural, the love of two people is shared by two people; In fact, it is not difficult, but you are too pessimistic and do not share with anyone across a wall; I don't want to embarrass you, you don't need to give me an answer anymore.

I think you love me, and I guess you can't bear it; But how to say ... I always feel like there's too much space between us.

Maybe you are not mine, but I love you but I should give it up; Separation may be a choice, but it can also be our fate. (Excerpt from Tanya Tsai's "Blank Grid")

Li Xiaoai closed her eyes, and two lines of tears slipped down gently, appearing crystal clear and silent at night. Both hands grasped the edge of the chair, and his body trembled slightly. Everything in the past still seems to be vivid, but we have persevered with it. I saved her, she saved me, life collided with each other, and I also supported her. But at this moment, I had to erect that silent wall, and I didn't want to share it with her, and I didn't want her to bear the accident that belonged to me.

But no matter how clear the mind is, no matter how rational the consciousness is, the heart will unconsciously want to get closer, and my right hand just holds her left hand holding the edge of the chair, and I may be able to feel each other's hearts through the temperature of the palm and the back of the hand, and that is enough.

I can't hold her hand, maybe never...

I don't know how long I sat there, Li Xiaoai finally turned her head, "Your business will be done one day, right?" ”

I let go of my hand and turned to look at her and replied, "Yes." ”

"Okay, I'll wait for you, but you didn't answer your last question, so... I'll wait for you..."

Since there is no beginning, there is no end, she is gone, taking something with her, and it is as if she has taken nothing with her. I sat alone on a bench and looked at the sea without waves, and even if there was no wind, the sea would always have waves.