"Okay, Moxie, I also have a certain responsibility for letting that child become sick like this, it was because I didn't comfort her well at the time, and after the incident, I didn't have time to care about her psychological state, so now please take me to make up for this mistake."

Yan Qingruo said resolutely.

But Mo Xi's face showed a worried look, he looked at Yan Qingruo, and said in a half-loud voice: "Miss Yan, I know that you are willing to go to see that child, and you will forgive her, it's just that Mr. Chu is ......."

Moxie stopped talking.

Yan Qingruo knew his concerns, so he comforted: "Don't worry, godfather, this matter is my private matter, I won't report anything like President Chu, and he is so busy, he can't take care of my little things at all." ”

"So godfather, please don't have any worries, it's more important to go to see Bai Jingjing now, I think that child must need me very much now, even if Mr. Chu knows about this matter in the future, please be sure to say that I took the initiative to ask you to take me to see her, and don't take the initiative to mention this matter in front of him."

Yan Qingruo knew Chu Mu's temper, but in the final analysis, this matter was also her own business, and Bai Jingjing's condition was the most important, she was absolutely unwilling to take a child's life because of her cowardice.

"Miss Yan, you are really kind, but if Mr. Chu asks about this matter, I will definitely tell him the true content of our conversation, and I will not say that this matter is your responsibility alone. You know, the clergy, never lie. ”

Moxi's expression was very serious, if Yan Qing knew that letting a clergyman lie, it would be equivalent to asking him to kill someone, even if it was a white lie, he would not accept it when it was unnecessary.

Yan Qingruo knew that she couldn't persuade Mo Xi to follow her arrangement, so she had to nod and stand up and say, "Without further ado, let's go see Bai Jingjing first." ”

Mo Xi also stood up after him and walked to the backyard with Yan Qingruo.

The backyard is always the quietest place in the Cathedral, where there is a big banyan tree as old as the front door, and next to the big banyan tree, is the student dormitory.

But Bai Jingjing couldn't stand the noise because she was sick, so Mo Xi specially arranged a separate room for her, that room was not small, but it was extremely simple and even a little shabby, and when Yan Qingruo walked in, she felt a damp breath.

"Miss Yan, Bai Jingjing's child is in here, do you want to go in yourself?" Moxie asked expectantly.

Yan Qingruo thought that what he asked should be whether he went in alone, but although Moxi has lived in China for most of his life, he doesn't seem to have a comprehensive understanding of some of the essence of domestic culture.

She nodded to Moxi, smiled in his expectant gaze, and said, "Yes Moxi, I'm going to go in for myself, to see the poor boy for myself, please wait here for me." ”

Mo Xi nodded happily, made a gesture of invitation to Yan Qingruo, and turned sideways to let her in.

Yan Qingruo's first feeling when she went in was that she felt a little cold, and it was strange to say, although this place was a little remote, but anyway, this place was also under God's jurisdiction, and even lived in the same big courtyard as the Son of God, why was the place where Jesus lived in front of him so spacious and bright, but it was so dark and damp here?

But Yan Qingruo thought about it, isn't the house here a typical representative of the southern house? The space is small and humid all year round.

Her gaze shifted from the mottled wall to a bedside with a white article hanging on it, and there were only two people in the room, her and Bai Jingjing.

Yan Qingruo naturally knew that Bai Jingjing should be lying in the bed with a mosquito net, and this room only had a pitifully small window, and she even thought, can she really recuperate if she lives here? Won't there be any other problems again?

As she got closer, Yan Qingruo could clearly hear Bai Jing's quiet and peaceful breathing, and when she thought that she was asleep and wanted to lighten her steps, she heard a faint sobbing sound from the curtain.

Yan Qingruo thought that it was terrible, it must be that Bai Jingjing was doing something that she couldn't think of again, so she immediately walked over quickly, opened her tent and said, "Bai Jingjing, are you okay?" ”

Bai Jingjing, who was covering her mouth and sobbing, was overly indulged in her sadness just now, so she didn't notice that anyone walked into the room.

When he heard Yan Qingruo's voice, his back was obviously stiff, and then he didn't move, like an insect that had done something bad and crawled on human territory, and when he saw a human, he immediately stopped all his movements and pretended to be dead.

Yan Qingruo slowly sat on the edge of Bai Jingjing's bed, faintly smelling a smell of potion, she knew that Bai Jingjing should not have been hanging bottles recently.

"Quietly, you're awake, aren't you? I'm Teacher Yan, and I'm here to see you today. Yan Qingruo said, but Bai Jingjing didn't seem to react, and said that she hadn't figured out how to face herself yet.

Yan Qingruo put her hand on Bai Jingjing's thin shoulder, then leaned over and said softly: "Jingjing, Teacher Yan came to see you today, I heard Moxi say that your current situation is not good, are you still worried about what happened a few days ago?" ”

At this time, Bai Jingjing sobbed and slowly turned around, she opened her eyes wide, but there was no focus, looking straight ahead, she cried and said, "Teacher Yan, you are here." ”

Yan Qingruo looked at Bai Jingjing's face that was paler than white paper in distress, although she usually looked so pale, but not so pale, now she looks sunken, the dark circles under her eyes are a little more serious than that of herself, who only went to bed at three or four o'clock in the middle of the night, and her lips are even paler, without half a bit of blood.

She didn't know how much psychological pressure the child was under because of this incident.

"Jingjing, it's okay, Teacher Yan, I don't have anything to do with it." Yan Qingruo touched the corners of her eyes and helped her wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes.

Bai Jingjing cried more and more fiercely, if her tears just now were just a drizzle, now they have become heavy rain, those big tears are like beads with broken threads and smashed straight down, smashing on Bai Jingjing's face and hands

The quilt also smashed on Yan Qingruo's heart.

"Teacher Yan, I'm sorry for you, I caused you to fall into the water, and I almost lost your life. I'm not a good boy, and I'm against God's teachings. Bai Jingjing cried and said heartbreakingly.

"Good boy, isn't the teacher good? The teacher doesn't have anything to do, and the teacher doesn't blame you, the teacher knows that you are also unintentional, so you must not blame yourself, okay? Yan Qingruo hugged her and gently patted her back with her hand and said.

But Bai Jingjing didn't seem to listen to Yan Qingruo's forgiveness, she just cried vigorously, and after crying, she kept sobbing, and muttered to herself: "It's all my fault, I'm a bad boy, I'm not a good boy, God will punish me and abandon me." ”

"Jingjing, do you really feel sorry for the teacher?" Yan Qingruo stopped comforting, she removed her embrace, let her body sit up straight, and asked seriously.

Bai Jingjing forgot to cry for a moment because of Yan Qingruo's sudden question, she just sobbed and said, "Yes, Teacher Yan, I'm sorry for you." ”

Yan Qingruo groaned and continued: "Since you think you are sorry for Teacher Yan, then Teacher Yan wants to ask you for a compensation, you shouldn't refuse, right?" ”

Bai Jingjing nodded solemnly.

Yan Qingruo, who was affirmed by Bai Jingjing, immediately said: "Then, the compensation that the teacher wants is that I hope your illness can get better as soon as possible, and you have to forget the previous things and be yourself, okay?" ”

Bai Jingjing fell into a long silence, for children of her age, it may be difficult for them to distinguish between right and wrong in this world, good and evil, but their wisdom and understanding are not as fragile as adults imagined.

At the very least, they understand the most basic kindness and malice.

"Teacher Yan, why are you making such a request?" Bai Jingjing asked suspiciously. She was already a twelve-year-old girl, and because of her sentimental nature, she was more precocious than the other children in the orphanage, and she was very confused by Yan Qingruo's actions.

In her cognition, she thought that Yan Qingruo should punish herself in order to offset her sins, but she didn't expect that this person who was so harmed by herself that she fell into the water and almost lost her life not only did not blame her, but also asked her to love herself.

This is something that she cannot comprehend at her current age and experience in any way.

"Jingjing, what's wrong with you?" Yan Qingruo saw that Bai Jingjing had not reacted for a long time, and asked strangely.

Bai Jing was stunned for a few seconds and said, "Teacher Yan, why are you so good to me?" ”

A smile appeared at the corner of Yan Qingruo's mouth, she put her hand on Bai Jingjing's head, her fingers touched her hair, and found that it was softer than fine silk.

"Quietly, don't forget that you are still a child, God will forgive a child who has made a mistake, how can I not forgive? Besides, you're just an unintentional mistake. ”

"But Moxie Daddy said that no matter how small a person has done a small wrongdoing, it will be seen by God, and it will be recorded in my own growth process, and no matter where I go in the future, I will carry those sins with me."

Yan Qingruo suddenly felt that those children who believed in religion were really very simple, and their world had its own set of rules, which were like a rope holding the nose of a cow, which would always lead them to goodness.