A kite with a broken string

kite

Fly in the spotless sky.

thin ground wire,

Blown off by the wind.

The kite runs to the earth,

Return to dust.

Its heart,

But yearning for the blue sky.

In a dormitory on the first floor, smoke fills the air. Zhang Bin sat at the table, holding a burning cigarette in his left hand and writing the above words with a pen in his right hand.

On the table is a cigarette case from Hongta Mountain. He has been smoking since his freshman year, but this is the first time he has bought such an expensive cigarette.

His bed was a mess, with bedding, books, and even cigarette butts piled up in a mess, and a copy of Nietzsche's Poems was placed at the head of the bed.

He is a scholar from the county and likes to write poetry when he was in high school. Due to his good academic performance, he was highly sought after by his teachers and classmates in middle school.

It's just that when he arrives at the university, he finds that he is not valued at all, except for studying and writing poetry, nothing else seems to know.

Many people are wealthier, some come from big cities, or even come from prominent families, and some are very smart, study well and have many specialties. When he came here, he felt a huge gap.

He knows very well that he is a genius, but he doesn't like his major after being transferred, so he doesn't go to professional classes much, and he failed one last year. The final exams are coming, and he still doesn't know much about many classes, he just wants to ponder poetry.

And he didn't plan to go to the review.

He lit the last cigarette, opened the drawer, and opened a note with the words in Juanxiu's handwriting:

You are a very good boy, thank you for the poem, I am not as good as you write. The two of us are really not suitable, I wish you to find the right girl for you soon.

He had liked this girl in his class for a long time, and she was a very beautiful girl. It took him half a year to write a poem for her, and a month ago, he finally mustered up the courage to give a poem "White Clouds", along with a letter, to this girl.

The next day, the girl handed him the note. One day, in front of the library, he saw this girl walking with a tall and handsome senior brother of the same department, smiling sweetly.

He didn't understand what was wrong with the world.

He used to be so proud, but now he can't find a sense of existence and value, where is the meaning of life? Even his most confident poetry, the most sincere expression, can't impress the girl he likes, isn't this much more valuable and connotative than a glossy skin?

He laughs at the superficiality of the world, but he can't do anything about it, and endures the world's disregard for him. From this semester onwards, he began to suffer from insomnia.

He decided to do something. With his last cigarette gone, he stood up and walked out of the dorm.

As soon as Yang Jun started class, he occupied a vantage point by the last row of doors, and slipped out of the teaching building while the teacher turned to write. He decided to go to the playground to see if there were many people playing football, and if anyone did, he would go back and change his shoes.

Not far from the school building, on the main road to the playground, he suddenly noticed that on the office building in the distance ahead, a light-colored object fell rapidly from the roof, like a kite with a broken string, falling to the ground with a loud bang.

He heard a few screams and hurried forward to check. The outline of the yellow object became clearer and clearer, and there was a pool of red blood next to it, it was a naked person!

Two security guards rushed out of the building and covered the body of the person who fell from the building with their clothes, one checking, and the other talking on the walkie-talkie.

Walking to a place 5 meters away from the person, Yang Jun hesitated a little, stood there and stopped moving forward, his hands trembling a little.

A few minutes later, doctors from the school hospital arrived and confirmed death at the scene. The body was covered with a white cloth and carried away.

But when he just fell, Yang Jun obviously saw the man move a few times!

Yang Jun returned to the dormitory distraughtly and sat there in a daze until the others came back from class.

Pei Zhengang hurriedly pushed open the door of 408 and said to Yang Jun in a panic,

"Do you know, someone in the office building jumped off the building just now and committed suicide, and he jumped naked!"

"I've seen it with my own eyes, it's kind of scary."

"It was Zhang Bin on the first floor who jumped off the building!"

"What?!" Yang Jun jumped up and looked at Pei Zhengang incredulously, "How could he jump off the building?!" ”

"I don't know! I've met his fellow villagers twice, and I don't have much to do with him, except for the last time I borrowed money from him and smashed him. I've heard from other fellow villagers that he doesn't have much to do with others. But how can you jump off a building? ”

Yang Jun calmed down a little, it was already two months ago that Zhang Bin was smashed, and if he wanted to commit suicide after being stimulated, he shouldn't wait until now. However, he was still very unsure.

Pei Zhengang was a little irritable, and said uneasily, "Shouldn't I have smashed my brain?" ”

"Shut up!! Bad fart, bad! Your brain was just smashed! Yang Jun roared angrily, but his heart was empty. He wasn't sure if there was a connection between the two events.

The next day, when he went downstairs to eat, he saw a middle-aged couple coming to the dormitory building with the help of school staff. Yang Jun walked out of the dormitory building and heard a heart-rending cry coming from inside.

Yang Jun's heart tightened for a while, and he left the dormitory building quickly.

In the past few days, he has heard a lot of rumors about Zhang Bin, saying that he expressed his disgust with the world in his suicide note, since he came to this world naked, he must go naked and not take anything from this world.

Yang Jun began to have persistent insomnia, in fact, everyone is a fellow traveler. Many people, why don't they face the situation that Zhang Bin is in?

Other people's cold eyes, poor test scores, and even rejection by the girl he liked, Yang Jun has also experienced it in the past year or so, which has made him suffer a lot. But Yang Jun feels that this is not the whole of life. There are a lot of happy things in life.

Moreover, Yang Jun firmly believes that he can create the future by working hard.

He also struggled, but he never wanted to escape, but to be a singer of life, singing and moving forward. Most people are also living like this, zigzags forward.

Zhang Bin's affairs soon fell silent, and everyone continued to study and live on their own. It's not the first time that a student has jumped off a building, and for the vast majority of people in the dormitory, Zhang Bin seems to have never appeared.

One night, Yang Jun dreamed that he jumped naked from the dormitory building, like a kite with a broken string, and swooped to the ground. He opened his eyes suddenly, and woke up in a cold sweat.