The moonlight is hazy, the mountains and rivers are hazy, and the women at the water's edge are also hazy.

Nia lay on the grass with one arm on her pillow, looking at the night sky, thinking about the thirteenth elder brother.

Qing'er sat beside her, thinking about business, this trip to the outside of the city, and left a lot of things not done: the design of spring clothes, the assessment and appointment of the new shopkeeper, and the monthly reconciliation and audit, fortunately, it is time to return to Beijing in ten days, but after returning to Beijing, I have to be busy again.

"Qing'er, am I so displeasing to him?" Nia's words woke up Qing'er in thought, Nia was in a crying tone, Qing'er couldn't help but look at her, and sure enough, there were tears on her cheeks.

"Nia, don't think about it, you are very nice and cute, senior brother, he doesn't accept you, not because you are not good, but because you are not at the right time. You also know, he was just given a marriage by the emperor, do you want to marry him to be a side blessing? Do you want to be small? You're a princess! I don't think Senior Brother wants to wronged you! After returning that day, the senior brother intercepted her and Yinyu and told her to have time to persuade Niya.

"I'd rather not be a princess, I just want to be his woman!" Nia said with a sob.

"What's so good about being his woman? Why are you so dead-eyed? Qing'er raised her head to look at the night sky, the moon was trying to break free from the clouds, and finally the clouds and the moon staggered, the moon bloomed, and the surrounding stars were under the halo of the moon, competing to reflect the night sky.

"Qing'er, do you know that the thirteenth elder brother loves you? Do you love him too? Nia looked at Qing'er, who exuded a clear glow under the moon, like a finely carved jade statue, which could not be desecrated.

"I also love my brother, when I was four years old, I heard my master talk about him, I knew about his existence, and since then, I have regarded him as my own brother in my heart. The first time I met him in the Feather Coat, I was no stranger to him, he was exactly what I imagined: tall and handsome, handsome and chivalrous. At that time, Yinyu and I had a verbal conflict, and my senior brother also helped me out of the siege, so he would never have thought that I was his junior sister. Qing'er was trapped in the memory, and the corners of her mouth and eyebrows were filled with a gentle smile. I love my brother, I can't see him wronged, I can't see him hurt, I can't see him unhappy, I want to help him, I want him to be happy, happy, worry-free, not hurt, not wronged, just like I did to my brother Rongyu. My brother treats me like my sister! Turning back to look at Nia, "With such a senior brother, I don't want it anymore." There is no better brother than him. ”

"Qing'er, can you really tell the difference between friendship and love? Are you sure that the Thirteenth Elder Brother is friendly to you? Is it family affection or love? "Why, she feels different from what she sees and Qing'er? The thirteenth elder brother looked at Qing'er's gaze, and it was clear that it was a man's attachment to his beloved woman. How could Qing'er say that it was the friendship of her brother to her sister?

"Of course you can tell. My brother will be anxious about my disappearance, he will be sad about my sadness, but he has no desire to have or possess me. It's not like Yinyu. ”

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"Maybe you're right, but I always feel that the thirteenth elder brother loves you no less than the ninth elder brother."

"No, Concubine Yangyi, who has been in Yinyu several times, went to beg the emperor to point me out to him, but my senior brother didn't."

"No wonder the emperor pointed you out to Brother Jiu. It turns out that he has such a deep affection for you. ”

"Nia, in fact, it's not bad to be friends with my senior brother, friends won't have so many requirements like lovers, they won't pay so much, they won't pay much, and maybe they won't be so painful when they lose. Right? ”

"Qing'er, why do you always think differently from others, when you have it, you think of loss, and when you are happy, you think of being unhappy?"

"Because I know that sometimes we can't see through fate, but more often we can't even see through ourselves. I also know the truth that 'good fortune and bad luck lurk in disguise'. ”

"Don't be so sad, Qing'er, Brother Jiu loves you, doesn't he!"

"Nia, do you know what's the scariest thing?" Qing'er couldn't help but clench her fists. "It's when something as beautiful as 'happiness' and 'happiness' erodes you to the point that you have no resistance, and then you suddenly lose it; it is when you think you have all the 'beauty' in your hands, and suddenly you find that what you think is 'beautiful' has slipped out of your hands unconsciously; that is, you are still facing 'beauty' one moment and have to lose it the next moment. Nia, do you know that kind of scary? Terrible things, terrible situations, and terrible results! ”

"Have you had this experience? Why do you have such a deep experience? Nia had forgotten to cry and looked at Qing'er in surprise.

"I have, I have had too many of these experiences, I have faced the most cruel results when I am most gratifying, I have faced the most helpless pain when I am the happiest, I have had to be weak when I am the strongest, and I have had to be strong when I am the weakest. I have gained more and lost too much. Maybe in the eyes of others, I am rich and powerful, and there is nothing I can't get, but I lost my mother, my master, my grandmother, and the prince who gave me the 'Spring Thunder' piano, Nia, I am really afraid of 'losing', I really don't want to 'lose' because of 'getting', I don't want to 'get' and 'lose' again. I'd rather never get it if I could, and I'd rather I never show up if I could! It's too hard to live! ”

"It seems that compared to your 'hard work', I am still happy!" Nia shrugged her shoulders and looked at Qing'er with a bright smile, and her helplessness and sadness had faded a lot.

"So, Nia, you have not lost, you have not lost, Prince Yu and I have said, 'If the love you give is not reciprocated, don't give it again!' Although you may not be able to stop giving, I think you should be able to bury this 'love' in your heart. This 'expectation' may one day become a 'blessing'. ”

Qing'er looked at Nia, who was like a dewy rose, bright, fragrant, with its own 'thorns'.

"I will forget the thirteenth elder brother, I will have my life and the people who love me." Nia was steadfast and confident.

Qing'er looked at Nia and smiled faintly, but did not speak, only focused her eyes on the night sky. Nia, you know what? Everyone always has some things that they can't confide in others, and we bury them in the softest corners of our hearts, even to those closest to them, not because we don't want to share them, but because we don't need to share them. It's like at this moment, you have to treasure your love for your brother.

These things that we cherish in the bottom of our hearts, maybe we want to have them alone, even if it brings us pain. But it is also absolute, pure, complete, and only our own.

Maybe one day, you will forget your feelings for your brother, even if today's feelings of a girl are full of love for your brother, even if these loves have made you happy or unforgettable. But as time passes, it also becomes a thing of the past.

If you can't forget this feeling, then in the years to come, when another man walks into your heart, when you are held in the palm of another man's hand like a jewel, will you suddenly think of your senior brother and remember that you used to be emotional for him. So today, the bitterness in your heart, after years of precipitation and baptism, will it also become a little sweeter?

Nia, we are all people who can't see through fate or ourselves, that is, we can't change ourselves and can't change our fate, but I will bless you with someone who really treats you to love you and be with you for a lifetime!

"Qing'er, let's go. If you don't go back so late, Brother Jiu should be in a hurry for a while. Nia smiled and pulled Qing'er up, the two women laughed and left the river, Nia seemed to have seen it, and Qing'er returned to her previous state of sanity and composure.

Qing'er at the last moment may just be like an ordinary woman, revealing her heart in a state of uneasiness, right?

The moonlight shines on the river, and the silhouettes of the trees are reflected on the water.

Under the tree stood a tall, lonely figure.

"Qing'er, when you were four years old, did you already regard me as your own brother?"

"You helped me clear the nails in the house, so you talked to me in Henan, so you played "Ni Dress and Feather Song" for me, so you let me be a girlfriend, so you are the best for me among the brothers, so you give me a fire gun, all of which are good to me, is it because in your heart I am the same as Rong Yu? Do you do so much for me just because in your heart I am like your own brother? ”

"Qing'er, you know that my Eniang has long since left, you know that I have been by Concubine De's side in the past few years, and you also know that the fourteenth brother is the biological son of Concubine De, but you don't know that in fact, I have already asked Concubine De to ask Huang Ama to ask you, but I am not the biological son of De Niangniang, between me and the fourteenth brother, Concubine De Niangniang still favors the fourteenth brother more after all."

"Qing'er, I don't know when, Huang Ama decided to point you to the ninth brother, but I can see that you already knew this result, and you must agree with it.

You know that Huang Ama will not force you or ignore your wishes, but you still agree with Huang Amma, so are you already in love with Brother Jiu?

Qing'er, in fact, at the beginning, Huang Ama was waiting for you to decide who to marry, but you didn't choose me, Qing'er, can I only be your senior brother? Is it like a brother?

Qing'er, if this is your choice, then in addition to letting go of you, Senior Brother can only wish you happiness.

Qing'er, your 'happiness' is also my brother's greatest wish! ”

Qing'er ,......

of moonlight and staggered starlight.

"Qing'er, are you afraid that my love for you won't last long? What do you have to do for you to believe that my love for you is endless, and that you will only have the day when you will always 'get' my love and not 'lose' my love?

Qing'er, do you know this sentence: 'The mountains have no tombs, the rivers are exhausted, the winter thunder and earthquakes, the summer rain and snow, the heaven and the earth are together, and you dare to be with the king!' 'I swear by the moon in the sky, this is my oath to you!' ”.