103. Lives

"The Queen Mother is not in good health!" After the news reached Mingyuan, Qing'er went to Lingyin Temple to pray for the queen mother. Before the end of January, the news of the death of the Queen Mother came. Qing'er remembered the love of the Queen Mother for herself in the past, and evoked the pain of the death of her grandparents and grandmother, and her grief could not be stopped, so she continued to cultivate in Lingyin Temple.

Lingyin Temple looks the same as before, and the incense is still prosperous. Qing'er is now a member of the heavenly family, and it is no longer appropriate to have no scruples as when he was young in Lingyin Temple, Lingyin Temple pulled out the courtyard of the back mountain for Qing'er to live in, Qing'er led Rou'er and Meilan Zhuju, and copied scriptures here every day.

On this day, when Qing'er was looking at the sunset in the back mountain, she saw Master Huikong walking towards her from a distance, and Qing'er joined hands and wrote the first edit: "Master! ”

Master Huikong walked to Qing'er's side and stood still. The sunset at this moment is the most beautiful moment of the day, and it is unbearable.

Qing'er looked at the sunset, felt the struggle of the sunset, and her heartache swept through her body like a tidal wave.

Master Huikong moved his eyes to Qing'er's face, seeing that her long eyelashes were stained with tears, her face was sad, her lips were white, she stretched out two fingers and put them on Qing'er's vein, leaned slightly Master withdrew her hand, and stood with her hands.

"Qing'er, the sunset is beautiful and tragic?" The Master still called her as before.

"Yes, because it's 'sunset'!"

"Only when the sun 'sets' can there be 'rise', and when there is 'rise', there must be 'fall'. If we only pay attention to the 'fall' and not the 'rise', how can we know the value of 'light'? Qing'er, if your heart is left in sorrow, you won't see happiness! ”

Qing'er pondered the master's words carefully, and replied after a while: "Yes! Master, Qing'er has been taught! ”

"Tomorrow morning, Lao Na is waiting for you here, watching the sunrise together." After Master Huikong finished speaking, he didn't wait for Qing'er to agree, and turned away.

So, Qing'er watched the sunrise in the back mountain every day. The master taught her the method of breathing, and Qing'er's heart gradually calmed down. When the body is invaded by the cold, in the sound of the bell chime in the temple, watching the sun rise little by little from behind the mountain, feeding warmth into all things in nature, there is a feeling in my heart, sighing that I am small, but also looking down on the distance between life and death.

"Qing'er, do you remember what Lao Na said to you last time you came to Qingxiu?" Master Huikong was dressed in a wide gray monk's robe, his face was ruddy, his eyes were bright, his beard was silver and white hanging down on his chest, and the sun reflected ten thousand points of light on him, like a fairy.

At this time, it was the end of December of the fifty-sixth year, and the last time Qing'er came to Lingyin Temple was because of the death of her grandmother, and this time it had been seventeen years since the last time.

Qing'er nodded to the master. "Qing'er remembers!"

"Do you know your fate?"

"Back then, the master said, 'After twenty years, there will be a lack of rest', Qing'er has been thinking about the meaning of this sentence, is this the ......"

The master nodded solemnly to Qing'er, but with worry in his eyes, he looked at Qing'er.

Qing'er let out a long sigh and turned her body to look at the distant mountains, where the sun was rising little by little. Because she lived in the temple, Qing'er was wearing a men's dress, a blue cotton robe and a dark purple coat, which was shining by the sun at the moment, which made her face like a beautiful jade and clear-eyed.

"If it was in the past, the master's words, Qing'er would definitely not believe it and didn't care about it." Qing'er said lightly, with a faint smile.

"If you believe it, you must be terrified?" The master also smiled indifferently.

"Yes, because I am afraid, I would rather not believe it." Turning his head to look at the master, the smile on his face did not fall, but there was a layer of reluctance in his eyes. "Master, is this Qing'er's fate?"

"Yes! Everyone has their own number of lives. The master nodded firmly. Irreversible! Unchangeable! ”

"Qing'er understands!" Qing'er turned around and bowed deeply to the master. "Master, Qing'er is back in the Ming Garden today, and she is here to say goodbye to the master! Take care, Master! ”

Master Huikong clasped his hands together and replied, "Donor, take care!" ”

Qing'er walked away from Shi Shiran in front of the master, just like seventeen years ago.

After receiving the news of Qing'er's return home, Yinyu took the children to pick up Qing'er in person, the two reunited after a long absence, goodbye at this moment, Qing'er knew her fate, and she was not as affectionate as before.

Avoiding his earnest gaze, Qing'er leaned down and hugged her two sons tightly into her arms, reluctant to let go.

"Eniang, we want to go to the main hall, okay?" Because they were anxious to see Eniang, despite their curiosity about the main hall, the two of them came directly to the back mountain.

"Good!" Qing'er looked at her sons lovingly, nodded happily, Mingyue and Gu Yue said to Yinyu and Qing'er: "Ama Eniang, let's go!" The two nodded, watching the wind and snow follow, before retracting their gaze.

Yinyu smiled and took Qing'er's hand, lowered his voice and said, "Why are you unhappy, don't you like to see me?" There was a bit of laughter and a bit of grievance. I haven't seen each other for two or three months, and Qing'er has become more and more Qingyue who doesn't eat the fireworks in the world.

At this moment, it is almost noon, the sun is shining warmly on the body, Rao is weather is cold, and it can't help but make people lazy, Yinyu is wearing a dark green brocade robe, showing her slender body, like a jade face, a pair of phoenix eyes are slightly squinted, the corners of her mouth are smiling, and the gentleness on her face seems to be soaked in Qing'er.

"Yinyu!" Qing'er stretched out her arms and hugged Yinyu's waist tightly, buried her face in his arms, and closed her eyes.

"What's wrong? Baby! Yinyu patted Qing'er and asked in a low voice.

Qing'er shook her head slowly, trying her best to hold back her tears.

Yinyu asked again, Qing'er just shook her head, not daring to speak, for fear that she would not be able to hold back her tears when she opened her mouth.

Yinyu, I can't imagine that we have been together for less than seven years!

Yinyu, how can I be willing to leave you and our children.

Yinyu, we are husband and wife, but God won't let me accompany you to old age.

Yinyu, the more cherished things are, the faster they often deteriorate, the more nostalgic they are, the easier they are to fade, and the more happy they are, the easier they are to break. The more loving husband and wife are, the more they often can't stay together for a lifetime.

Yinyu, if one day I go before you, if you love me less, then there will be less pain.

Qing'er secretly made up her mind, and in Yinyu's cherished gaze, she straightened up and took his hand, "Let's go see our son, it's good that there are many people in the temple and don't have accidents." ”

Yin Yu glanced at her uneasily, and saw that her face was as usual, so he nodded, "Okay!" He grabbed Qing'er's hand and walked out of the hospital.

The sun shone straight into her eyes, Qing'er closed her eyes, and then opened her eyes, and the pain in her eyes was hidden.

"The sun has a 'rise' and a 'set', and a person has a 'time of life' and a 'period of death', which is a natural law that cannot be changed, and reluctance will only increase suffering. The deeper the love, the more painful it is when parting. Standing outside the courtyard, looking back at the mountain behind, Qing'er stood solemnly and saluted with both hands: Master, you mean Qing'er understands!

Yinyu held Qing'er's hand and stood in front of the stone steps waiting for his sons.

Mingyue and Gu Yue greedily looked at the scenery in the temple, looked at it from a distance, and disappeared in a blink of an eye. Yinyu does not believe in Buddhism, only a pillar of incense in the main hall and came to the gate of the mountain outside the temple.

Qing'er wore a hosta named 'Butterfly Love Flower' designed by Yinyu on her hair bun, and wore a dark purple cloud brocade cheongsam, embroidered with auspicious cloud patterns on the collar and cuffs, and covered with a silver-gray fur cloak.

There are a lot of pilgrims coming and going in the temple, and when they see Yinyu and Qing'er, they can't help but take a look, even if they glance at it in a hurry, there is admiration and envy in their eyes. Qing'er didn't notice anything, a pair of eyes full of love and reluctance only followed the figure of his sons tightly, Yinyu didn't notice anything, only looked at Qing'er, he faintly felt that Qing'er had something on her mind, and Qing'er was unhappy.

When I returned to Mingyuan, it was already dark, Rong Yu came back earlier than usual today, Yinxiang and Jiayin teased their son in their garden, and when they heard Qing'er coming back, they hurriedly came to see her.

"It's a shame that you can live in the temple for more than two months, eat vegetarian food for two months, and really lose weight again." Hui'er pinched Qing'er's jaw and looked left and right. Everyone listened to her, and they all looked at Qing'er's face.

"Where? It's not the same! Qing'er stroked her cheeks and looked at Ama with a smile. Isn't it, Amma? ”

"It's a lot of weight loss, Rou'er, Qing'er's body is okay?" Dong E's seventy looked at Qing'er seriously, and turned his head to ask Rou'er.

"Yes, sir, the young master's health is fine. About eating a vegetarian diet in the temple and losing weight. Rou'er replied with a smile.

"Then make up for Qing'er more, this is so thin that it seems to be able to fall down when the wind blows, pitiful." As she spoke, my aunt instructed the people to set the meal.

"I want to say one thing to everyone." Qing'er sat between Ama and Yinyu, facing her brother and sister-in-law.

"So serious? What's up? Rong Yu and Hui'er looked at Qing'er fixedly, and Yinxiang also raised their faces.

"I have sent Yang Liu Yuhuai and Zhu Ju to the capital, and brought a few sisters in the house to live, after they come, please treat them like me!"

After hearing what she said, everyone didn't say anything, only moved their eyes to Yinyu.

Yinyu couldn't expect Qing'er to say this, and said in a deep voice: "I don't agree!" ”

Qing'er didn't respond to Yinyu's words, and turned to look at Ama and her aunt, "Amma, auntie, do you agree?" ”

Dong E's seventy looked at Qing'er, as if he had something to say, but Qing'er's eyes were uncompromising, he glanced at the lady beside him, and said, "Don't worry, Qing'er, we will all treat them well." The aunt also nodded busily.

Qing'er asked again: "Brother, sister-in-law, what about you?" ”

Rong Yu frowned slightly, looked at Yinyu, and asked coldly, "Is it your idea?" ”

Yin Yu didn't answer Rong Yu, held Qing'er's plain hands, let her face her, and asked in a trembling voice: "You promised me, but you forgot everything?" Why did you change your mind? What happened? Qing'er, tell me! ”

Qing'er raised her hand to soothe Yinyu's frowning brows, and said softly: "I haven't seen you for three years in England, I miss you very much, what I look forward to day and night is to return to you, and now my sisters haven't seen you for six years, I think, they miss you and hope that you will not be less than me, Yinyu, they are also your wives." ”

Everyone looked at the two of them, looked at the reluctance in Qing'er's eyes and the distress in Yinyu's eyes, knew that Qing'er's decision could not be changed, and knew that according to her personality, this matter would happen sooner or later, so they could only look at the two of them and the husband and wife, and slowly stained tears in their eyes.

Yin Yu looked at Qing'er's eyes, as if he wanted to see her heart from here, and wanted to see clearly what was wrong and what happened today, but he didn't find that these phoenix eyes were as clear as water until the bottom of his eyes, and he was only gentle when he looked at him.

Yinyu stood up, lowered his head, and closed his eyes gently, "I'm not hungry, you guys eat." ”

Qing'er took his robe, and her tone was urgent and pleading, "Eat with me!" ”。

Yinyu only felt sour from his heart, "Okay! Qing'er, I am destined to owe you in this life! If there is an afterlife, you promise me that you must marry me, and in the next life I will only marry you alone, no matter who I am! His gaze went straight to Qing'er's eyes, and the resoluteness and guilt moved everyone in the audience.

"Good!" Qing'er nodded to Yinyu. He turned to look at his brother again.

Rong Yu smiled unnaturally, "I promised you!" We will all treat them well. Qing'er looked at Yinxiang again, Yinxiang didn't speak, just glanced at her meaningfully, and then nodded. Hui'er and Jiayin naturally nodded frequently.

"Eat, I'm hungry." Qing'er coquettishly, as if what happened just now did not happen, Yinyu frowned lightly when she heard it, and everyone responded, "Then eat more!" Then they picked up the bowls and spoons to eat.

The children at the bottom table had just seen the adults talking, and they were all silent, and now they heard the words 'eat' before picking up the dishes.

Yinyu ate very little, and looked at Qing'er from time to time, Qing'er felt his gaze and looked sideways at him, "See that I have no appetite?" ”

Everyone couldn't help but be happy when they heard it, Yinyu couldn't cry or laugh, so they had to bury their heads in eating, Qing'er put down her smiling face, looked at Yinyu affectionately, and felt the gaze of Rong Yu and Yinxiang, Qing'er smiled at the two, and then lowered her head to drink the soup, and a tear fell in the soup bowl.

Rong Yu and Yinxiang have been seeing Qing'er and Yinyu from time to time, and they are a little sad to see them so forbearing. knows that Qing'er is not a selfish person, and knows that she will do this sooner or later, but I don't know why, I just feel that something is happening.

"Brother, do you have any business today?" Qing'er, who has never cared about court affairs, conceals the diversion of the two of them.

"I received a report from Di today that the Junggar Ministry is tsewang Alabutan is causing trouble in Tibet, and I am afraid that the court will use troops against Alabutan." Rong Yu said to Qing'er and Yinxiang with hidden worries.

"Accurately? What did Huang Ama say? Yinxiang took the lead in asking questions, and everyone put down the bowls in their hands and stared at Rong Yu, waiting for an answer.

"I don't know yet! There is only this line in the newspaper, and according to my estimate, this battle is inevitable. ”

"Hmm." Yinxiang responded thoughtfully, he thought that if the court sent troops, he folded up and asked Huang Ama to allow him to lead the troops.